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Shapeshifter who gets horribly grotesque and mutilated when flustered

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Our littles as soon as we find a good stick in the woods

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The Identifying-as-genderfluid to realizing you have DID/OSDD pipeline

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How I look when a trauma memory slips through to the front and suddenly it becomes common knowledge for the whole system

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Most accurate thing I've ever seen honestly I think the only one where everyone actually acts like themselves for the most part is around is our partner system! - Ash (any pronouns)

pretty much

– Elliot

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you guys loved my last post about my plural positive therapist so i feel like letting you know that at our last session i got SO worked up about something in a way that was so unlike me that she tried to ask who was fronting but we don’t use technical terms but we hadn’t arranged on a term for front so she just stared at me and went “who…. is……. present?” like a fucking ouija board user

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Just a little ramble about a fictive experience (from Mikey)

Going through the fanart tag of your source is all fun until you see

Angst/Something that triggers bad source memories

Ship art (OC x Canon, or just something related to ships that makes you uncomfortable)

Reallllly weird art of people from your source?? Like, why??

Really weird art of yourself! Like please?? Why?

Seriously it's so uncomfortable to look through the fanart tag sometimes! No offense to anyone, I get it but it's still really weird for me to see

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vroom vroom (the sound of the car being prepared)

Post was written by Dewdrop/Stardew!! They/them pronouns!! ^^

"I don't wanna talk to you, i wanna talk to [insert specific alter]!" I'm hitting you with my car

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YEPPPPPPPP KAJHGKJFHKJA

Posted by Dewdrop/Stardew!! (They/Them pronouns!)

Fronting experiences!

1. The helicopter parent

Alter just pops in out of nowhere uninvited and starts giving opinions on what you're doing

2. Curious child

Alter just starts asking you a bunch of questions on what you're doing and shenanigans out of nowhere

3. Thrown in

You're struggling! Quick gatekeeper! Throw a motherfucker here to help!!

4. The corner whisperer

You don't even notice they're in front with you until you hear them whispering from a corner all of your darkest thoughts

5. I'm coming for you bitch

You say 1 thing about an alter and then you can hear them sprinting to front, too late, he found you!

6. Positive hyperfixation trigger

Oh no i mention bees, now the little is fronting and babbling non-stop about them!

7. "ACTSHUALLY ☝️🤓"

You make one single mistake and THAT motherfucker comes out of nowhere to tell you how wrong you are, THANKS JACKASS

8. Party!

A lot of alters just front cuz something fun IS happening!!

9. Party! /Neg

A lot of alters just front cuz something horrible IS happening!!

10. You kinda just wake up together

You get to front and the other guy is just there with you too, alright then

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Auuuughh foooorrealll 😭 Some people just don't really understand it I guess :[ :[ :[ Buuut some people are willing to actually learn, which is good! It's just that some people, even after learning don't actually learn it, they just simply take the information and go ":D Nah!" and thhroww it riiight out the other ear instantly! Post by Dewdrop/Stardew (They/Them pronouns)

dissociative identity disorder is not just a fun alter disorder with friends in your head.

dissociative identity disorder is migraines and intense headaches when dissociated.

dissociative identity disorder is confusion and finding it hard to even form sentences at times.

dissociative identity disorder is every negative reaction to a situation that you could imagine, reactions that aren’t even coming from you.

dissociative identity disorder is feeling so detached from your own self that you have no idea who you are and what you even enjoy.

dissociative identity disorder is impulsivity and self destruction in so many ways. it can be violent and feel completely out of your control.

it’s so much more than just the disorder where you have alters, it’s something that can affect your every emotion and how you feel connected to the world around you. it’s a horrifying and isolating experience that takes you out of the life that you should be living your best in.

it’s a trauma disorder with a list of symptoms. not just the one uneducated people focus on because it seems to be the most “interesting” one.

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Ahhhh, she sounds amazing!! <3 <3 <3 /gen /vpos (genuine, very positive) -Lunar (they/them) and Astrophel (they/it/shine)

shoutout to my therapist who, upon me telling her i didn’t like the word alter, started referring to my headmates as “my homies.” like “any updates on your homies? have you heard from your homies at all this week” she’s the only true plural ally

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Cutely uses this later because ohmigosh explaining is kiiinda hard sometimes. Like some people use the explanation like Multiplayer Mario Cart, but no no nooo, those are separate people playing separate characters! /lh Like, no, we all share a body and a life. It's like sharing a game file with a sibling or just a friend, lover, partner, whatever term you wanna use! Sometimes you won't "play it" for a whole and will come back and everythings different! Even potentially "character customization" could be different. For example, if someone just randomly decides to get dressed up in pretty clothing (we present as male most of the time) and you get to "play the game" again and suddenly you look very feminine! Oup we just went on a ramble, our bad- ^^" -Lunar (they/them) and Astrophel (they/it/shine)

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

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Oh gosh /neg (not directed at you, at the people who said that)!! Yeah, we also have someone who genuinely gets extremely uncomfortable and absolutely hates typing 'normally' instead of using it's typing quirk! Even the thought of that makes it distressed and overwhelmed, like it's on the verge of a breakdown. We'd imagine being told that your whole system would be punished if you just simply typed with your own voice is. just absolutely awful! (/gen) I can't even imagine how awful that would be! :[ If you're interested in talking more (or generally just making a system friend!), we wouldn't mind ^^ None of us are going to judge anyone for their typing quirks, either. That's just downright cruel :[ - Lunar (they/them) and Astrophel (They/it/shine)

I want to tell you a story about one of my headmates. It's about competing needs, and the harm we can do if we assert that one type of accessibility is inherently and always more important than another. It's also a story about typing quirks, and if you can't read a story like that with an open mind, this is your chance to scroll past and leave us be

Terezi is fictive of Terezi Pyrope from Homestuck. Because of that, SH3 TYP3S L1K3 TH1S (plain text: she types like this). Obviously, this isn't compatible with the use of a screenreader. A lot of our Homestuck fictives prefer to use their typing quirks, but will use plain text in settings where there might be people who use screenreaders, or where the use of typing quirks is banned. Not Terezi, though

It's not because they're stubborn, or because they don't understand the importance of screenreaders, it's because it's a genuine need for them. When she tries to type "normally", it causes distress and dissociation, because the words don't feel like she's the one typing them unless she's allowed to type them in her quirk. We've tried to find ways to accommodate them, like I did above by providing a plain text version, but that's not always practical or possible, and she can't write the plain text versions herself. There's a reason she's not the one telling you this story

In a lot of online system spaces, it's become the norm to discourage or outright ban the use of typing quirks because they're incompatible with screenreaders. The idea is that people can just not use their quirks, while people can't opt out of needing a screenreader, but that's not true for everyone. Yes, some typing quirks are incompatible with screenreaders, so when people use them their messages aren't accessible to anyone who relies on a screenreader. And yeah, that's an issue, but the solution can't be that no one gets to use typing quirks. When you ban them, you're still making your space inaccessible, just to a different group of people

When one of the plural discord servers we're in banned the use of typing quirks, we negotiated a method of translating Terezi's messages into plain text that the mods agreed to, but the damage was already done. They stopped coming up to front, stopped talking to people outside the system entirely. They're close friends with three of the people I'm in a relationship with, and yet I haven't seen them in months. If I hadn't asked her permission to write this, who knows when I would've seen her next?

And when I did ask, she burst into tears and asked me to please write it because she can't do it herself. Even if they got to do it entirely in their typing quirk they still couldn't tell their story because they're scared it'll get hate sent our way, and I'll be the one who has to deal with it. She also has a lot of shame about this part of her, because she's been told it's unreasonable and selfish for her to type in her quirk. If you can't understand why that's a problem, imagine being told you're making a space inaccessible just by talking in your natural voice

This is a competing needs issue. There are spaces where people who need screenreaders and people who need to be allowed to use their typing quirks will be coexisting, and that's going to be a tricky thing to handle. But you don't solve a competing needs issue by saying "one of you gets your needs met and the other has to leave". But people don't take typing quirks seriously as a genuine need, they don't see them as an accessibility issue. So when they come up against screenreaders, most people think it's obvious that screenreaders should be prioritized 100% of the time

But when everyone's saying that your needs aren't genuine and you aren't allowed to just do what you need to without worrying about another person's needs (but they're allowed to do that to you), that eats at you. It eats at your self-esteem. The overwhelming message Terezi's gotten is "you're never allowed to put your own needs above the needs of others, and if you do we might punish your entire system for it". No wonder she stopped talking

I don't know if there's a single specific message we want you to take away from this, but if nothing else we'd like to say something to people whose accessibility needs are repeatedly deemed unimportant or less important. You're allowed to put yourself first. You're allowed to say "I can't worry about other people's needs right now, I'm going to do what I need to". You're allowed to be upset when other people treat you like shit for doing that, too. And it's not your fault that you have a need that other people don't take seriously

PL34S3 T4K3 C4R3 OF YOURS3LV3S

(Plain text: please take care of yourselves)

-Oliver (he/him) and Terezi (she/they)

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Ours is the Cosmic Stars, mainly because our collective name is Comet and because no matter how hard we try we cannot manage to count up everyone in here

something that astounds me /pos is how every system i see on here has such aesthetic cool names for their systems. i’d love to hear any stories of how your systems got their collective names :3

(tags are for reach)

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If you have DID/OSDD then simply plural is a Pokédex of your brain.

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Art post jumpscare !!

I don't remember WHO drew this but I figured I could post it for them, it was probably Mikey, he likes to draw the most.

This is art of Bunny, someone I haven't personally met but I might eventually

-Donnie ⚙️

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