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[ Hello my darlings it’s been quite a long time hasn’t it? I’m not dead I’m still here, just haven’t been motivated to be on here. I’ll keep things as short as possible, but I lost a grandparent last January before my birthday, had surgery back in November (I’m okay!) and just a whole lot of things going on. It was a lot of highs and lows and being away from social media for the most part helped me keep things from being worse than they normally would be. 

That said I’m considering moving to a blog separate from my personal. We’re talking whole new fresh start cosmicstardreamer will ACTUALLY be the one following you now instead of my personal. I’ll give it a few days to get things set up but if you’re still around and still want to interact feel free to like this post! I’ll make note of your username and be sure to follow when I make new. This one will be archived. I want to come back and talk with y’all again now that I’m starting to get out of this awkward place I’ve been in.]

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[ Hello my darlings it’s been quite a long time hasn’t it? I’m not dead I’m still here, just haven’t been motivated to be on here. I’ll keep things as short as possible, but I lost a grandparent last January before my birthday, had surgery back in November (I’m okay!) and just a whole lot of things going on. It was a lot of highs and lows and being away from social media for the most part helped me keep things from being worse than they normally would be. 

That said I’m considering moving to a blog separate from my personal. We’re talking whole new fresh start cosmicstardreamer will ACTUALLY be the one following you now instead of my personal. I’ll give it a few days to get things set up but if you’re still around and still want to interact feel free to like this post! I’ll make note of your username and be sure to follow when I make new. This one will be archived. I want to come back and talk with y’all again now that I’m starting to get out of this awkward place I’ve been in.]

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Happy THOTMN !

"Witch bitch thotmn is me in my element"

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Mabon Dreams

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somegremlin‌:

                ’   Okay   !   I   promise   I   won’t   !   ’

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ａ Ｎ Ａ Ｔ Ｈ Ｅ Ｍ Ａ．   ⋮  ━━   Yeah,   he   really   didn’t   need   to   be   feeling   worse   than   he   already   did   on   a   daily   basis   thanks   to   the   Port   Mafia.   But   Neff   -   neechan’s   words   DID   make   him   think   about   other   things.   Those   guards   back   at   the   cells   were   nothing   more   than   GRUNTS   for   a   reason.   He’s   managed   to   steal   their   keys   on   MULTIPLE   occasions   and   escape.   Of   course,   that   would   lead   to   higher   ranked   members   like   the   Black   Lizards   having   to   drag   him   back   but   …   the   point   was,   the   grunts   weren’t   exactly   SMART.   How   long   would   it   take   for   them   to   notice   that   he   was   gone   ?

              ’   …   How   long   do   you   think   we   have,   Neff   -   neechan   ?   ’

              ’   I   want   to   do   FUN   THINGS   after   we   eat   !   ’

              He   wouldn’t   have   held   it   against   her   if   Neff   -   neechan   said   no   nor   would   he   have   thrown   a   fit   like   Elise   -   chan   would  have.   After   all,   sneaking   out   without   approval   from   Mori   -   san   was   a   rather   big   offense   in   the   Port   Mafia’s   terms   …   and   with   Neff   -      neechan   assisting   him,   it   was   an   even   GREATER   risk.   But   it   was   still   nice   to   fantasize   at   least.

Admittedly, Neff isn’t in a rush to go back herself. When she’s not on the clock (which to be honest, she’s always on the clock, she just likes to act like she’s not) she’d rather spend as much time away as possible.

Her free hand rests on her cheek in thought, humming as she considers everything. In the end she shrugs, waving the matter off. “We have as long as we want. I’m sure by now once Mori’s notified you’re gone he’ll know exactly what’s going on. He’ll give me a tap on the wrist and then call it a day. In the end as long as no one gets hurt it should be okay. Besides, you’re a good boy when you’re with me! He knows if anything happens to me you won’t be happy and it’ll be much harder to get you to comply with whatever he needs. That’s just how it is. So for things to be in his favor he’ll let it slide this time. What fun things did you have in mind, hm?”

She smiles sweetly as if there was nothing wrong with her words. Anyone else hearing their conversation would most certainly be startled! This, however, was nothing out of the ordinary for them. 

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pinklocksoflove‌:

“Hmm well if they’re more expensive I might be inclined to get some macarons and share them with you, a cup of chocolate earl grey sounds lovely too.”

Rayven’s eyes trace around Neff’s face and gave a smile.

“It’s already a treat so why not share it right? If you’re not super busy that is… by the way my name’s Rayven.”

“Oh but you don’t have to do that for me! I eat more than enough since I’m the one making them. Gotta taste taste to make sure they’re alright, y’know? However since business is slow currently I’d be more than happy to keep you company while you eat. It’s nice to meet you, Rayven. I’m Nefeloma, but call me Neff. It’s easier on all of us.”

She wouldn’t say it so suddenly, but she was amused to have met someone with that name of all the ones out there. She had a special relationship with ravens, after all.

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Hey would you guys mind like/reblogging if you'd be interested in rping with a 24 year old witchy artist who just so happens to be a vessel for a space goddess? She loves coffee, is great with kids, and just wants to make friends really. I have a variety of verses but even if I'm not familiar with the one your muse is from I'm still willing to get something going! All it means is we'll all be learning along the way :D

( Just an important note, this is a side-rp blog from my personal. If you want to follow but don't want personals following you that's fine!! We can work something out! Just let me know)

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somegremlin‌:

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ａ Ｎ Ａ Ｔ Ｈ Ｅ Ｍ Ａ．   ⋮  ━━ His   past   attempts   to   get   out   of   that   cell   involved   a   fair   amount   of   stealth.   Even   if   his   curse   WAS   as   reliable   as   Mori   -   san   wanted   it   to   be,   killing   everyone   would   only   make   a   BIG   SCENE   and   get   him   in   even   MORE   trouble.   With   all   the   caution   he   had   to   take   in   getting   out   (   only   to   be   thrown   back   in   again   ),   it   was   just   SO   WEIRD   to   be   standing   in   front   of   a   guard   WITHOUT   bars   in   between   them   !

                 But   whatever   Neff   -   neechan   had   done   had   worked   as   the   two   of   them   eventually   made   it   OUTSIDE.   

                He’d   always   wondered   WHAT   power   Neff   -   neechan   had.   She   always   played   it   off   as   spells   and   magic   …   but   did   something   like   MAGIC   actually   exist   ?   Especially   in   a   world      full   of   SPECIAL   ABILITIES   ?

                ’   Hmm   …   I   don’t   know   !   I   haven’t   had   NORMAL   FOOD   in   a   while.   Maybe   something   like   curry   or   ramen   ?   I’d   be   really   happy   with   anything   !   ’  

Neff's powers and situation were.....not entirely foreign despite being a foreigner. After all, there was another vessel in the Port Mafia that they both happen to be very familiar with. However 'magic' was the easiest way to explain it. It wasn't an ability, no the power wasn't even hers to begin with. She just borrowed energy sealed away, and if she used too much for too long it would take a toll on her body.

And god forbid her seal was ever broken.

If there was one thing Neff would admit, it's that she's thankful Mori didn't go through with whatever sick plan the old boss had for her. But she didn't want to think too much on the fact that she was actually thankful for something Mori did. Instead she focuses back on her small companion, offering her hand to him.

"Then we'll go for ramen! There's so many different flavors you can get and it'll be a nice filling meal. And you can get as much pork as you like, okay? Just don't over do it to the point you get sick from trying to eat it all!"

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setsunanoai‌:

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ｗ Ｅ Ｒ Ｅ Ｔ Ｉ Ｇ Ｅ Ｒ．    ⋮  ━━   ’   You   can   find   someone   that’s   been   through   all   the   experiences   you   have   but   went   about   it   differently   ’   those   haunting   words   make   his   mind   fall   back   to   THAT   place;   his   own   personal   hell.   Brutal   beatings,   being   caged   up   like   some   sort   of   wild   animal,   having   to   subject   ANOTHER   innocent   child   to   torture   just   to   be   able   to   get   a   morsel   of   food   to   eat.   And   those   WORDS   !   Those   haunting   words   that   still   hovered   at   the   back   of   his   head   like   a   GHOST;   constantly   reminding   him   that   his   life   DID   NOT   matter.   He   KNOWS   that   he   wasn’t   the   only   kid   at   the   orphanage   and   it   HAUNTS   him   that   they   felt   the   same   pain.   

               But   this   woman   needn’t   hear   his   TRAGIC   BACKSTORY.   That   was   a   surefire   way   to   sour   this   meeting.

              He   WOULD   have   given   Neff   -   san’s   prior   words   some   answers   but   when   she   SPEAKS   to   the   waitress,   he   is   INSTANTLY   put   into   panic   mode.   Wait,   wait,   WAIT   !   What   did   she   just   say   ?   !

              ’   OH   NO   NO   NO   NO   !   Let   ME   pay   for   it   !   I   can’t   just   let   you   put   it   all   on   your   tab   !   Don’t   worry   about   it;   YOU   order   whatever   you   want   !   Order   the   ENTIRE   MENU   if   you   want,   Neff   -   san   !   ‘   

              He   had   a   feeling   that   Kunikida   -   san   wouldn’t   be   VERY   HAPPY   if   he   started   putting   things   on   OTHER   PEOPLE’S   tabs.   Kunikida   -   san   was   already   irritated   by   the   fact   Dazai   -   san   had   a   HUGE   debt   to   a   cafe   of   all   things.   No   to   mention,   he’d   just   FEEL   BAD   if   he   made   her   pay   for   things   !      

"But why would I let you do that? I'm the one who just walked in and invaded your space. There's no reason for you to pay for my stuff, Besides, you're a member of the Armed Detective Agency, are you not? Please allow me to thank you for all that you and your comrades do for this city. It's no problem at all I promise!"

The more time she spent with him, the more she began to understand. Atsushi Nakajima, 18, an orphan boy and the infamous weretiger of Yokohama. A boy who could have been so similar to Ryunosuke Akutagawa, but was so different. A prime example of her former words. It's no wonder Dazai took a liking to him, if he could find strength in all of his hardships and shortcomings then he could be stronger than most. Strength is more than just physical, and Atsushi had not only strength of the mind but of the heart as well.

Her coffee is laid before her, bringing the cup to red lips that sip it ever so gently. Just a taste to see if anything needed to be added before she let it cool to a more enjoyable temperature. Neff hums in approval, setting the cup back down but keeping her hands in place. 

"There's just something about a warm drink that's healing to the soul. Have you noticed that? Having a cool drink of a hot day is refreshing, but there's something about warm drinks that just envelop you in a wave of comfort. Humans were meant for warmth. It's how we survive. That's why we compare so many negative things to the cold. Loneliness, isolation, sadness. We aren't meant to be forced to survive things like that."

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「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ａ Ｎ Ａ Ｔ Ｈ Ｅ Ｍ Ａ．   ⋮  ━━   ‘   If   you’re   gonna   steal   it   should   only   be   because   it’s   important   ’   …   something   like   that   mean   he   should   ONLY   steal   if   the   boss   told   him   to   (   …   well,   it’s   really   DEBATABLE   if   that’s   important   )   or   if   he   HAD   to   if   he   wanted   to   live.   The   woman’s   words   made   sense.   TECHNICALLY,   stealing   was   bad   and   even   if   one   were   to   put   morals   aside,   the   more   you   stole,   the   more   chances   there   were   to   get   CAUGHT.   And   if   he   were   caught,   NO   ONE   would   be   happy.   Especially   not   Neff   -   neechan   and   ESPECIALLY   not   Mori   -   san.

                 '   All   right,   I   promise   I   won’t   steal   unless   it’s   important   !   ’

                After   he   speaks   though,   he   only   nods.   Best   to   KEEP   silent   …   just   in   case   the   guards   heard   anything.   Unlike   nearly   everyone   else   in   the   Port   Mafia,   he   actually   cared   about   Neff   -   neechan   and   if   they   were   be   caught,   TWO   people   would   get   in   big   trouble.   Instead,   his   answer   comes   in   the   smile   of   an   energetic   nod   though   and   a   BIG   smile.  

“Wonderful! Now stay close and follow me. We’ll be out of here before you know it.”

‘Before you know it’ took a little longer than expected. Neff did occasionally have to stop and talk with the other members when they asked her questions, and a particularly annoying one kept asking her where she was going. Can’t a girl go out in peace? Luckily she was able to play it off as another one of her walks. She wasn’t needed much most of the time after all. 

Finally making it out of HQ, she lifts the invisibility spell with a heavy sigh.

 “Well THAT took longer than I’d hoped. Thankfully it’s one of the smaller spells I’ve mastered by now. I DO still feel a little worn so we might have to walk a bit slow. Come along now. Getting food and something to drink will get me right as day. What are you in the mood for?”

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setsunanoai‌:

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ｗ Ｅ Ｒ Ｅ Ｔ Ｉ Ｇ Ｅ Ｒ．    ⋮  ━━   Well,   who   didn’t   like   a   good   ol’   dose   of   PROFOUND   WISDOM   with   their   coffee   ?   The   woman’s   words   were   NOT   something   that   he   had   EXPECTED   Neff  to   say   but   she   definitely   had   a   point.   Of   course,   he   couldn’t   control   EVERYTHING   (   especially   not   when   it   came   to   Dazai   -   san   …   )   but   there   were   plenty   of   OTHER   times   in   his   life   that   he   had   no   choice   but   to   step   in   for   the   sake   of   others.   What   if   he   hadn’t   fought   so   hard   to   protect   his   life   and   his   own   morals   ?   Would   he   be   dead   ?   Oh,   he   most   certainly   WOULD   have   been   dead   !   And   if   he   had   been   dead   …   how   would   have   things   have   turned   out   ?   (  Almost   ironic   that   he’d   been   TRAINED   to   think   he   was   better   off   dead   for   so   long   ).

                 ’   I   wouldn’t   say   old   !   But   you’re   right   about   all   that   you’ve   said.   I   try   not   to   pity   myself   because   nothing’s   going   to   change   if   I   do,   you   know   ?   It’s   easier   said   than   done   but   it’s   the   EFFORT   that   counts   !   ’

                ’   Maybe   you   can   meet   the   rest   of   my   friends   some   other   time,   I’m   sure   they’d   love   you   !   You’re   pretty   interesting   yourself   !   ’

                He   speaks,   completely   unknowing   of   the   fact   that   a   few   CERTAIN   members   of   the   ADA   would   recognize   her.   Atsushi   WOULD   have   spoken   more   but      Neff’s   next   words   catch   him   COMPLETELY   off   guard.

                ’   WHA   -   ’

                In   an   INSTANT,   the   calm   expression   left   his   face   completely;   leaving   only   shock   upon   his   face   as   he   stared   at   Neff.

                ’   Well,   NO   !   Not   really   !   I   haven’t   really   thought   about   that   just   yet   !   Maybe   one   day   !   ’

She hides her giggle behind er hands, waving it away. “No need to fret I was just teasing you to see how you react. Romantic relationships can be nice to have but they’re not essential, and this is coming from the lady with a boyfriend she loves very much.”

Again, not everything she’s saying is a lie. Matter of fact, she’s been nothing but truthful in the words and advice she’s been giving. She was just....leaving out a detail about her identity is all.

“Everyone lives their lives differently. You can find someone that’s been through all the experiences you have but went about ti differently. Some people use it as a reason to be angry and spiteful because that’s all thy now how....and some use it to learn from it. To better themselves and learn how not to make the same mistakes without letting it take over them.” When the waitress comes over Neff orders a coffee for herself, light and sweet. “And please put this young man’s order on my tab today. Order anything else you’d like. I can afford it.~ You’ve been so nice to listen to my ramblings I feel I owe it to you”

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               ’   Okay   !   Promise   I   won’t   !   ’

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ａ Ｎ Ａ Ｔ Ｈ Ｅ Ｍ Ａ．   ⋮  ━━   Note   taken   to   NEVER   say   the   word   ’   ass   ’   and   to   only   say   the   word   ’   butt   ’.   Like   Neff   -   san,   he   doesn’t   CARE   for   the   Port   Mafia’s   orders.   But   what   made   Neff   -   san   different   from   the   rest   of   them   was   that   he   actually   RESPECTED   her.

              The   child   WAS   surprised   at   the   offer   for   ice   cream   though.   Was   something   like   that   okay   ?   The   Port   Mafia   guards   were   ALWAYS   strict   about   him   walking   about   freely;   even   if   it   was   in   the   HEADQUARTERS.   Outside   was   unthinkable   !

              But   …   if   Neff   -   san   offered,   ice   cream   was   PROBABLY   okay.

              ’   I’d   like   to   go   out   and   get   ice   cream   !   I   haven’t   had   ice   cream   in   a   really,   REALLY   long   time   !   ’

              A   pause   upon   her   next   words.   It   was   true   he’s   PROBABLY   outgrown   the   young   kid   special   but   …

              ’   Why   don’t   we   just   STEAL   the   ice   cream   ?   That   way   we   can   BOTH   get   it   for   free   !   ’

              Looks   like   he   learned   too   much   from   the   mafia   training   AND   from   his   attempts   to   escape   and   survive   out   in   the   streets   before   being   dragged   back.

“Oh no no~ We can’t do that. We still need to have SOME level of respect. It’s too much trouble having a place file a report over some ice cream. If you’re gonna steal it should only be because it’s important. Like medicine. I don’t mind paying for mine.”

It was a funny way to think....and honestly probably didn’t even make sense to most people. But that’s how she saw it and that’s what she was gonna stick to. 

“Besides....you’ve been denied ice cream for far too long. You deserve a free treat. Could I just as easily pay for yours for you? Sure. But if they offer it free to kids might as well take advantage of that you know? Tell you what. We’ll order some food to go with it, too. Whatever you want to eat. My treat~”

Chaotic, but good. That was the best way t describe someone like Neff despite everything she’s went through with the Port Mafia. She could still keep a part of her morality and hold it close to her heart. She promised herself she wouldn’t let this break her like it almost did those years ago.

“Now let’s get going. I can hide you under invisibility until we get outside. Those lame-os guarding around won’t have the slightest idea you’re gone.”

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setsunanoai‌:

「 ★ 」   ⋮    Ｗ Ｅ Ｒ Ｅ Ｔ Ｉ Ｇ Ｅ Ｒ．    ⋮  ━━   He   cared   about   the   Agency.   He’d   lay   his   life   down   and   HAS   laid   down   his   life   for   the   Agency   multiple   times.   Protecting   Yokohama’s   peace   and   protecting   his   family   were   his   goals   and   dedications   in   life.   But   …   NO   ONE   could   deny   that   the   offices   could   get   a   little   WILD   sometimes.   Especially   with   Dazai   -   san’s   ANTICS   and   Kunikida   -   san’s   screaming.

                  In   the   very   LEAST,   the   office   seemed   to   have   settled   down.   Even   better,   he’d   managed   to   actually   get   his   work   done   DESPITE   the   interruptions.   But   …   JUST   in   case,   he’d   decided   to   stay   close   by   …   juuuust   in   case.   He   had   a   feeling   he   might   be   called   back   in   again.

                  A   semblance   of   peace   was   found   as   he   sat   in   the   cafe   just   below   the   offices.   The   boy   sat   within   one   of   the   booths,   sipping   on   a   cup   of   coffee   all   to   himself.   He   could   FINALLY   hear   himself   think.

                  But   …   this   cafe   WASN’T   the   Agency’s   cafe.   Even   if   was   right   below   the   offices,   this   was   still   a   public   cafe   that   anyone   could   go   about   as   they   pleased.   Not   that   he   minded   at   all   …   but   he   WASN’T   expecting   a   woman   to   just   sit   across   from   him.

                  ’   Oh   !   No,   not   at   all   !   You’re   more   than   welcome   to   !   ’

                  A   smile   stretches   across   his   face,   clearly   genuine   in   his   words.   This   lady   was   from   America,   huh   ?   His   LAST   experience   with   Americans   was   …   interesting   to   say   the   least.   But   Lucy   was   pretty   sweet   (   when   she   wanted   to   be.   )   and   Poe   was   nice   to   have   around.   

                  ’   It’s   great   to   meet   you,   Neff   -   san   !   I’m   Atsushi   !   What   brings   you   here   to   this   cafe   ?   Going   out   and   meeting   new   people   ?   ’

                  ’   I’d   introduce   you   to   my   friends   but   they’re   …   a   bit   busy   right   now.   ’

My my what lovely energy this young man had! Friendly, respectable, approachable, it’s no wonder Akutagawa absolutely hated him. Of course the new Dazai would take so kindly to someone with as much potential as him. The old Dazai? Maybe not so much. But people change, and if anything Dazai could learn at lot from Atsushi.

“Sure am! I figure if I want things to change I actually have to make that effort, you know? People who are unhappy with their lives often wonder what’s the point of trying to do anything....but it’s what starts that change to better things. We can’t expect things to happen if we don’t give them a chance to. It’s up to us to take control of our lives and what happens in it when we can. Ah, listen to me, I sound like a wise old woman giving advice! Don’t worry about your friends, just meeting you is more than enough. You seem like a very interesting young man.” Aside from the fact that Dazai knowing she was here would get her seriously busted, meeting all of the ADA would be....an interesting experience to say the least. 

“You seem quite young to be alone in a place like this. No boyfriend or girlfriend?”

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“Do you have everything in your backpack? Fredbear too? We don’t wanna leave him behind.” A lot of people said being a single mom would be difficult, especially to a young boy that needed as much medical attention as Riley did. However Neff found it no different than taking care of any other kid. Everyone has their own needs, even adults, and if you know how to support and care for someone it’s not difficult at all. She was someone who was in the same boat after all.

“We gotta go pick up things for the cafe, so I’m gonna need you and Fredbear to help me out, okay? I’m counting on you two~”

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@somegremlin

“Ugh another boring day at the Port Mafia for the rest of us. ‘There’s always work to do’ my ass.......don’t say that word by the way. ‘Ass’. Just say ‘butt’.”  While Neff knew no one in the mafia would care if the barely-teen said such a small curse word, SHE didn’t want him to be any worse off. It may not be that big of an issue in the long run, especially considering all the things he’s already been forced to do, but there was no reason to add onto it.

“Hey...wanna go get some ice cream? We can go to those restaurants where young kids eat free and pretend you’re like....7 to get the discount.”

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@setsunanoai (for Atsushi)

The cafe was cute and quaint, she could see why the ADA liked it so much. She found it strange how rival organizations had such information as public as it was, but seeing as how the Port Mafia had attacked the ADA many a times and FAILED.....well it’s clear there wasn’t much cause for concern on that end.  Being a member of the Port Mafia that didn’t have to do much, however, Neff wanted to go out and enjoy herself. If she’s gonna be stuck with such a group she’s at least gonna TRY to make the best out of it. And much to her luck the dear Weretiger everyone was so up in arms about just happened to be enjoying a cup of coffee of his own. Perfect. Strutting over and sitting across from him, she smiles and folds her hands above her elbows, leaning atop them. 

“Hey there! You don’t mind me sitting here do you?” Wow, for a woman that was clearly foreign her Japanese was pretty good! “I moved here from America a while ago but embarrassingly enough I don’t have many friends.” It wasn’t exactly a lie. “You can just call me Neff! What’s your name?”