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i get imposter syndrome about being fat, still don't feel like it's a word i can use for myself, because i've never been really treated differently for my weight (if you don't count the snide remarks from family members plus exactly one douchebag working at a store once.) i think all of my opinions on it are very much internalized like i believe other fat people exist and deserve good things and i think fatness should be normalized and i want to support them in their liberation etc. But i guess in my brain i have the whole "temporarily embarrassed thin person" thing going on yknow. i don't exactly want to talk about that too much but i mean it kinda doesn't help when you've got people all around you telling you that you are neither thin enough nor fat enough to qualify as either so no one gives a shit. surely i am just Regular. i mean everyone says i am Just Midsize so surely that is fine and i cannot possibly have struggles.

what's crazy is i remember being a thin kid. i KNOW what it was like to be able to be thin and not struggle with self image or finding something that fits or having strangers gawk at you for having visible cellulite. i was tall and petite for most of my childhood. and now i'm not, i'm considerably fatter and the same height i was as a child, and i'm supposed to just act like there is zero difference between the two worlds?

Visibly fat enough to not be seen as healthy or attractive, but not fat enough to be allowed an opinion on fatness. Can't fucking win in this america

back home from shopping so you know it's time for me to bitch about the fashion/art industries!!!!! today i'm noticing that even when ppl are trying to be body-inclusive you can tell they're still upholding beauty standards. long legs, fat in the "right" places / hourglass shape, not considering fat at the joints or neck, thin calves etc. i don't think i've ever seen someone with my body type (broad shoulders, broad hips, large tummy which make all of my individual measurements close in size, plus longer torso so i have a short inseam) both in art OR in advertisements because of how the "longer legs" and "smaller waist" are considered to be standard EVEN IN plus sizes. god forbid you can't be short and fat you've gotta pick one apparently

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back home from shopping so you know it's time for me to bitch about the fashion/art industries!!!!! today i'm noticing that even when ppl are trying to be body-inclusive you can tell they're still upholding beauty standards. long legs, fat in the "right" places / hourglass shape, not considering fat at the joints or neck, thin calves etc. i don't think i've ever seen someone with my body type (broad shoulders, broad hips, large tummy which make all of my individual measurements close in size, plus longer torso so i have a short inseam) both in art OR in advertisements because of how the "longer legs" and "smaller waist" are considered to be standard EVEN IN plus sizes. god forbid you can't be short and fat you've gotta pick one apparently

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is anybody going to talk about how noelle’s mom is hellish combination of all the betas kids guardians

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2027: Wizards of the Coast and the American Psychological Association collaborate on the D&DSM, 6th Edition, widely regarded as the worst thing ever published

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worst fear is that i write something from the heart and it gets mocked as #tumblrprose . second worst fear is big big big big ant colony conspiring to kill me to death

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when drawing requires you to draw

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really good tiktok

Transcript:

Girl, just do it fat. Don’t wait until you’ve lost enough weight. You’re worthy of taking up the space that you fill. Live your life now. Don’t wait for some future version of yourself that you think will be more deserving. You have every right to pursue your passions and dreams just as you are today. Your worth isn’t tied to a number on a scale or the size of your clothes; it is inherent in who you are. You’re allowed to be seen, heard, and celebrated in whatever body you inhabit right now. Don’t let anyone or anything convince you for too long. So go out. Do it fat! Wear the clothes you love, pursue the opportunities that excite you, and live unapologetically. There’s no reason to put off living the life that you want, waiting for a moment that you’re not even sure will come. You deserve to be happy and fulfilled just as you are, and the world needs you exactly as you are today. Everything good that has ever happened to you, happened in this body. Girl, just do it fat.

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what i feel like is lacking from conversations about plurality is how genuinely, fundamentally cool it is to be plural. doesnt it fascinate you how our brains can create entirely new selves, inner worlds, inner structures to keep itself afloat? doesnt it make you so curious? especially with regards to atypical plural experiences. i dont hate people for having entire systems full of fragments or fictives or subsystems. in fact, i find it wonderful, a miracle of the mind. you have a complicated inner world with unique lore? incredible, how did that develop? your entire system is full of fictives from the same source? thats amazing, hows that going? your system has entire layers on itself, with several systems running in tandem? wow, thats fascinating, how did you know? you believe you came from different worlds? tell me about them. please, tell me more about yourselves. id love to hear it. i do not fear the potential of the human brain.

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Spin this wheel first and then this wheel second to generate the title of a YA fantasy novel!

(If the second wheel lands on an option ending with a plus sign, spin it again)

Share what you got!

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dedicating my entire life to becoming the cringiest system known to mankind so fakeclaimers don't even know where to start with us and go into cardiac arrest instead

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i love sluts i love perverts i love dykes i love faggots i love aromantics i love freaks i love librarians i love ibuprofen

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what i feel like is lacking from conversations about plurality is how genuinely, fundamentally cool it is to be plural. doesnt it fascinate you how our brains can create entirely new selves, inner worlds, inner structures to keep itself afloat? doesnt it make you so curious? especially with regards to atypical plural experiences. i dont hate people for having entire systems full of fragments or fictives or subsystems. in fact, i find it wonderful, a miracle of the mind. you have a complicated inner world with unique lore? incredible, how did that develop? your entire system is full of fictives from the same source? thats amazing, hows that going? your system has entire layers on itself, with several systems running in tandem? wow, thats fascinating, how did you know? you believe you came from different worlds? tell me about them. please, tell me more about yourselves. id love to hear it. i do not fear the potential of the human brain.

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what i feel like is lacking from conversations about plurality is how genuinely, fundamentally cool it is to be plural. doesnt it fascinate you how our brains can create entirely new selves, inner worlds, inner structures to keep itself afloat? doesnt it make you so curious? especially with regards to atypical plural experiences. i dont hate people for having entire systems full of fragments or fictives or subsystems. in fact, i find it wonderful, a miracle of the mind. you have a complicated inner world with unique lore? incredible, how did that develop? your entire system is full of fictives from the same source? thats amazing, hows that going? your system has entire layers on itself, with several systems running in tandem? wow, thats fascinating, how did you know? you believe you came from different worlds? tell me about them. please, tell me more about yourselves. id love to hear it. i do not fear the potential of the human brain.

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EVERYONE GET MORE OBJECTUM NOW!!!!!

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i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever