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arielle & queliot in the mosaic timeline like

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ughhh quentin i miss you

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MARRY A MAN!!!

edit by mobroraptor on twtr (who has never watched the magicians, but its ok bc this edit is amazing)

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it’s on my dash again so y’all know what that means ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Happy anniversary, Q.

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Hale Appleman deserved better than to be played like that.

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do you ever think about the fact that quentin got the key immediately after eliot's death and not like... directly before his own or something? meaning the quest was done, the mosaic solved and the beauty of all life was found the moment eliot died.

the beauty of all life wasn't just "a life well lived" or "life in all its complexities" or something similar.

the beauty of all life, specifically, was eliot and quentin's relationship. their friendship, their love for each other and their family.

once they were separated by eliot's death, the quest was finished.

it was never about the mosaic, life itself, finding happiness... it was always about quentin and eliot, finding each other, being with each other. choosing each other over and over again, every day, for an entire life.

their love for each other was the beauty of all life.

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I think about Eliot too much these days. too fuckin much

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hi, i miss quentin coldwater guys

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PLEASE I WILL NOT HESITATE TO CRY

The Magicians - S03E05 “ A Life in the Day ”

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“It is customary to bow in the presence of your High King.” “I… Wh… How are you here?”

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my relationship to the Magicians is an interesting one because like yes i was obsessed with it. no i didn’t watch past the season four finale. yes i will have a breakdown if you bring up. no i dont want to think about it. yes i often reblog stuff about the show and post about how much i miss it. no i dont recommend that you watch it. yes it changed my life. not necessarily for the better. 

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quentin coldwater + bi pride

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hi if you don’t think eliot waugh would deck a cop for free and for FUN you can leave!!! we all know that man says acab with his whole chest

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eliot waugh in the colours of the pride flag 🏳️‍🌈

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oh bitch it is too late for this i am gonna cry confirmed

Peaches and plums, peaches and plums, peaches and plums

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literally nothing matters less right now than the ways ‘the magicians’ has sinned against me but what else can i offer!!! i’m very stressed about the pandemic but all i can say is stay home, you’ve heard it. anyway THINKING ABOUT LAST WEEK’S EPISODE…

it’s insane how they use the device of “margo must sit out the action to watch her boyfriend with her fairy eye” (more insulting because it’s a thing she received from another female ruler, as a symbol of her hard-won ability to rule, in a very emotional scene) AGAIN. while kady and alice take time from whatever they were doing to…go plead for the life of said boyfriend, who they hardly know and have no reason to care about. and julia’s plotline has been reduced to I MUST SAVE MY BABY!!! and it’s just so depressing, what the show has done to the women. and it got me thinking about what was great about the show when it was good, and while the takes about how it’s THE QUEEREST SHOW ON TV are nonsense i get why people have been tricked into thinking this is the case…because the show had a refreshing total disinterest in the particular really depressing version of heterosexuality they are now espousing at every turn, and a commitment to the validity and centrality of the kind of relationships that DO have a big place in the lives of its queer millennial viewership.

but now the peak of human relationships that they are trying to sell is the one where it is the preordained destiny of every human to monogamously, heterosexually couple off and reproduce biological offspring. early seasons had romance and romance that was important to both characters and plot BUT frankly friendships that fall outside strictly regimented lines, that are allowed to be passionate and life-defining despite not being romantic, were the core of the show. they were allowed to shape the narrative and given huge amounts of emotional weight. margo & eliot and quentin & julia are the show’s HEARTS. it recognized how important friendships are. only to totally abandon it in a way that says really, really, deeply depressing things about the creative team’s view of adulthood

where yeah it’s fine to have friendships be the driving force, for them to be central and just as important as romance, when you’re young and fucked up, but now that the show is in it’s late stage and the women excuse me CHARACTERS have GROWN UP they can leave that behind and accept their true destinies, which is not kinghood or goddesshood but being sexually, romantically, and reproductively available to whatever lackluster man demands it of them. which is not the friendships that shaped them or nourished them (quentin is dead and julia isn’t allowed to care, eliot was in prison this episode but margo seemed unconcerned), but “romance” with dudes that cheat on them or violate their autonomy in horrifying ways.

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anways, the reason Eliot Waugh is so afraid of being loved is because that’s his High Fantasy. Quentin’s was getting lost in a fantastical world with magic and things beyond his wildest imagination, and Eliot’s was falling in love.

He was raised by a family who made him hate himself, survived long enough to completely reinvent himself into who he felt the world would appreciate, and he hid away the parts of himself that were vulnerable.

His high fantasy, the one he spent his life dreaming of wasn’t magic or action or adventures, it was falling in love. 

Which is why his deepest regret was rejecting Quentin. Which is why marrying Fen was this miserable outcome (not accounting for the whole hetero aspect of said marriage). Which is why Mike was so debilitating. 

(which is why it doeSN’T MAKE ANY FUCKING SENSE THAT HE WOULDN’T FIGHT THE GODS THEMSELVES TO GET QUENTIN BACK BUT WHO THE FUCK CARES WHAT I THINK–)

anyways