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Romy Schneider as Romeo Montague for the Romeo and Juliet scene in Mädchen in Uniform (1958)

dir. Géza von Radványi

cinematography by Werner Krien

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Young Brigitte Bardot as a ballerina, c.1950

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me all day at school

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RARE, 地獄絵

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my tumblr is my private secret account

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𝜗𝜚 — i love pinterest.

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You can eat a cucumber slice. You can think about poetry, or Silent Hill. You can be in love.

I think that's it.

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rest in peace to a real one

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Me, i'm the aggressor

There's this interesting phenomenon where when you're a child, or some other vulnerable minority dependent on a job for shelter, you are actually under duress almost constantly. You can't say "I don't want to work today," you cannot say "I don't want to do the dishes, actually," you cannot choose not to participate. In a lot of cases, the punishment is explicit. Your parents might yell at you. Your boss might fire you. But in other cases, it's implicit. The mood will sour. You lose leeway. People get mad at you. And that creates a really shitty environment where you're constantly being coerced to do things!

And here's the kicker; you're not allowed to acknowledge that. You cannot acknowledge that you are being coerced, you cannot acknowledge that your free will is not being respected, because that's punished too. Your boss insists that you act excited. Your parents punish you for acting surly. You are forced to fake enthusiastic consent, constantly. It's a fucking nightmare. Your hand is being forced, you do not have the option to say "no," and if you ever, for a second, try to acknowledge that, everyone acts like you're the aggressor.