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@defnezaman thank you sooooooooo much for all the BuckTommy gifs!! Maybe by a miracle of God I'll find where I asked for your opinion on what I ship and don't ship :)

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RIP Malcolm-Jamal Warner

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the fact that I’ve actually had this happen multiple times when I’ve entered a new fandom is hilarious like what do you MEAN

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911 hiatus rewatch ↝ 2.13 Fight or Flight

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When a Character Is Grieving Someone They Never Got to Say Goodbye To

✧ They talk about the person in past tense… then correct themselves. Then stop talking entirely.

✧ They touch things that belonged to the person like they’re fragile, sacred, about to disappear.

✧ They hoard the last voicemail, last message, last anything. Play it. Don’t play it. Just knowing it exists hurts enough.

✧ They leave something untouched, an empty seat, a half-packed bag, a coffee order that isn’t theirs.

✧ They get irrationally angry when someone else seems to be “moving on.” As if forgetting is betrayal.

✧ They don’t let themselves cry all at once. It comes in pieces. Like they’re afraid too much grief will drown them.

✧ They over-apologize. For being quiet. For being distant. For not being okay.

✧ They become hyper-aware of time, dates, anniversaries, time zones, the exact moment everything ended.

✧ They get superstitious. Ritualistic. As if doing things "right" might reverse something.

✧ They smile when they talk about the person. But it’s brittle. And it never quite touches their eyes.

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Read the fuckin' interview, god. Ryan literally said he refused to play Eddie as violent, wanting to hit Buck. So he made him softer and more hurt, fragile and broken—not angry—and that is the canon scene.

In the same interview, Oliver says there’s a high level of trust, so he went on without issues. He wasn’t scared or uncomfortable—don’t make it a problem when it isn’t one. Ryan didn’t want to hit him, and the scene you see is exactly how it was meant to be: not abusive, as some have imagined. The way Eddie points at Buck and grabs him is totally in character—it’s how he makes himself heard. You can see it for yourselves:

If you're projecting a fantasy of Eddie being violent or abusive just to make Buck a helpless victim, that's your issue—not what’s actually on screen. Ryan explicitly didn’t want Eddie portrayed that way, and Oliver wasn’t worried or uncomfortable at all. Twisting that emotionally raw, powerful scene—where a main character finally breaks down and speaks his truth to the person he trusts most—into something sinister just to hate on Eddie or discredit Buddie fans is disturbing. That scene was agonizing and full of pathos, not abuse.

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So maybe it’s just me because I’m a newer fan but does anyone else think the 911 fandom is one of the meanest fandoms they’ve ever seen? Like, people are made fun of and criticized for liking the wrong character or shipping the wrong ship. Why the fuck do you care? Like what you like, but don’t judge somebody else for liking what they like. I don’t wanna know these people irl because they are so hateful when someone expresses the most unimportant opinion ever I can’t imagine what they’re like when it’s actually something important. Anyway take this as a reminder to be kind to everyone and to not judge people when you could simply just leave them alone and ignore it.

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Writing Grief Without Romanticizing It

Grief is raw, messy, and deeply personal. It doesn’t follow a neat arc or fit into tidy narrative beats. While stories often use grief as a dramatic device, romanticizing it can cheapen the emotional reality. Writing grief authentically means embracing its discomfort and unpredictability, not sanitizing or idealizing it. 

What Romanticizing Grief Looks Like

Characters who seem emotionally wrecked but always manage to look graceful in their suffering.

Overly articulate monologues that sound more like a eulogy than a real moment of loss.

Depictions of grief as a singular, cathartic event instead of a long, jagged process.

Romanticized Grief:

“Every day without you is like a piece of me fading away into a tragic, beautiful void. I’ll carry this pain forever, for it’s all I have left of you.”

This might be poetic, but it lacks the authenticity of how most people actually process grief.

Realistic Grief:

“I forgot your birthday. I didn’t mean to, but when I remembered, it was already too late. And then I hated myself because forgetting felt like erasing you.”

Writing Grief Authentically

1. Show the Physical Toll

Grief isn’t just emotional—it’s physical. Insomnia, headaches, exhaustion, or even the inability to move can be part of the experience.

“She woke up in the middle of the night again, choking on the air. Her chest felt like a cinderblock had been wedged inside, heavy and unmoving. It was three days since the funeral, and she still hadn’t slept longer than an hour.”

2. Let Grief Be Messy

Grief isn’t a perfectly linear journey. There’s no logical progression from denial to acceptance—there are setbacks, breakdowns, and even moments of denial long after healing has started.

“He yelled at his mother for throwing out the cereal box. ‘It was his favorite,’ he said. She didn’t remind him that it had been expired for months. She just handed him the trash bag and walked away.”

3. Avoid Glossy Sentimentality

Sometimes grief isn’t poetic; it’s ugly, blunt, and devoid of grandeur. Characters might lash out, shut down, or isolate themselves.

Romanticized: “I’ll cry every day, but I’ll keep going because you’d want me to.”

Realistic: “They said time would heal it. But it didn’t. Time just put more space between me and the life I knew before.”

4. Let Grief Manifest in Small, Unexpected Ways

Grief isn’t always about sobbing—it can show up in mundane moments: hesitating to delete a voicemail, holding onto an old sweater, or instinctively setting the table for someone who’s gone.

“She turned to tell him the joke, the one about the broken lamp, and stopped halfway through. The silence hit harder than the punchline ever would.”

5. Highlight the Absurdity of It

Grief can be absurd and disorienting. Characters might laugh inappropriately, obsess over trivial details, or feel disconnected from reality.

“At the funeral, all she could focus on was how crooked the flowers were arranged. She kept wanting to fix them. If she didn’t, she thought, none of this would feel real.”

6. Explore How Grief Changes Relationships

Grief doesn’t happen in isolation—it affects relationships, often in unexpected ways. Some people pull closer, others drift apart.

“Her friends stopped asking how she was doing after the first few weeks. She didn’t blame them; she didn’t have an answer. ‘Fine’ wasn’t a lie—it was just easier than saying, ‘I still can’t breathe when I see his empty chair.’”

7. Show the Longevity of Grief

Grief doesn’t end when the funeral does. Let it linger in your story, showing how it ebbs and flows over time.

“It had been five years, but she still called his number when something exciting happened. She didn’t know why. Maybe it was just habit. Or maybe it was hope.”

8. Allow for Moments of Respite

Grief isn’t constant agony. People still laugh, find joy, and go about their lives—sometimes feeling guilty for it.

“She smiled for the first time in weeks, and then immediately hated herself for it. It felt like betrayal, like forgetting.”

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*Margaret Qualley's voice*: Control yourself!

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Ravi Fics (Part 3)

Separated into categories and listed by word count from least to greatest. AO3 ratings are highlighted -> Gen Teen Mature Explicit Not Rated (NR)

🔥 labeled fics are some of my personal favorites!!

Please read tags/descriptions before to avoid any triggering or explicit content. Many of these fics discuss childhood cancer, chronic and mental illness, explicit sexual activity, and/or traumatic injury.

Basically all of the romantic/sexual pairings w Ravi are rarepairs (because 9-1-1 can't seem to bother giving him character development 🙄) so if you don't vibe w a ship, just don't read it. I included some great non-slash fics, and a entire section for Buddie-centric fics.

Ravi Lore 📚

dance with me tonight (like everything's alright) by stayeven for sp1dergal | T | 2.6k | Autoimmune Diseases, Long-Term Hospitalization, Panikkar Family, Diwali, Heartfelt ravi begins by shortndiaz | G | 6.2k | Ravi joins the 118, Whump, Cancer Treatment, Minor Character Death, Family (Ravi’s and the 118), Childhood Friend, Chemo 🔥more than a body, more than a name by diabolicaldean | M | 6.6k | Cancer Treatment, Family Feels, Angst, Ravi’s Brother, Journey to Becoming a Firefighter

118 Friendships 🚒

What We Didn't See, Who We Almost Lost by ReySmitty813 | NA | 1.1k | Follow-up to got time to bleed (just one thing i need), The 118 reflect on how they've been treating Ravi, Whump, Hospitalization, Injury, Apologizes 🔥Patti by firehosebuckley | T | 3.5k | Ravi accidentally gives Buck a nickname, Malayalam, Idiot White Boy Buckley, Ravi & Buck Friendship, Jealous Eddie, Mutual Pining A place we could escape sometimes by endversebuddie | NR | 3.1k | 5 times Ravi comes out to someone + 1 time someone comes out to him, Found Family, Short & Sweet 🔥Please Report to HR (And Bring Snacks) by Buddiepls | M | 3.5k | Ravi & the 118 Friendships, Ravi/OFC, Drunken Shenanigans, Fluff & Smut, the plot twist in chapter 2 (!!!) HITS 🔥If You Fall Asleep Down By The Water byfruitsdoesnotknow | T | 5.3k | Ravi officially adopted by the 118, Family Feels, Concussion, Minor Injury, Unconditional Love, Birthday Celebration, Ravi is appreciated!!!

Whump ⚡️

Funeral Fun Time by ferager | G | <1k | Bobby's funeral spec, Post 8x14/15, Survivor's Guilt she’s the angel of small death (and the codeine scene) by Rebel_material_girl | G | 1k | Ravi NDE, Internal Dialogue, The 118 A-Shift Curse, Fire 🔥give me your hand (i am your friend) by theoreticlove | G | 1.3k | Ravi trapped on an accident, Flashbacks, Childhood Cancer, Traumatic Injury, Angst got time to bleed (just one thing i need) by doveious | NA | 3.2k | Ravi is injured during a rescue, May/Ravi, Injury, Blood Loss 🔥I Hate Hospitals by Buckleys_Girl911 | T | 8.1k | Ravi and Maddie bond over shared childhood trauma, Flashbacks, Cancer, Daniel Buckley, Post 8x15, Everyone is alive, Angst, Hurt/Comfort Smoke over a blue sky by ferager | T | 9.8k | May and Ravi are taken hostage, NDEs, Hurt/Comfort, Minor Character Death, Kidnapping, Canon-Typical Injuries 🔥sorry, can't stay (i gotta run, run, yeah) by rainny_days | T | 21k | Ravi and Buck are trapped in a time loop, 8x14, Temporary Character Deaths, POV Buck, POV Ravi, Trauma Bonding, Hurt/Comfort, Mentions of Childhood Cancer

May/Ravi 💐

🔥strange, you never knew by cranberrymoons | T | <1k | 8x16 Coda, Bobby's Funeral/Wake, Mourning, Grief, Sorta First Meeting, they are both sad and lonely grounds for affection by doveious | T | 1.1k | May/Ravi, Meet-Cute, Short & Sweet, Coffee Shops Ornamental Traditions by RileyMasters | G | 1.3k | May/Ravi, Christmas Traditions, Flirting $1000 per video by ferager | T | 1.8k | Mavi go public on Tiktok, Crack, Harry bullies them into getting cancelled, 118 as a Family The Dinner Guest by ferager | G | 1.9k | May/Ravi, Bathena, POV Athena, Relationship Reveal, Fluff 🔥all that glitters by ferager | G | 2.5k | May/Ravi, Established Relationship, Valentine's Day, Gift Giving, Fluff

🔥the first day of my life by glitterjemstone | G | 2.6k | Pre-Relationship May/Ravi, The 118 as a Family, Bonding, First Meeting, Flirting The Captain's Daughter by BangPop91 | G | 2.9k | May and Ravi over the course of their relationship, Friendship, Speculation, Cute & Fluffy 🔥relief / disbelief by ferager | T | 3k | May and Ravi find comfort in each other after Bobby’s death, Angst, Mourning, Hookup Five times Ravi and May were almost caught (and one time they were) by ferager | T | 5.2k | May/Ravi, 5 + 1, Secret Relationship, Fluff 🔥A Guide to Getting Caught by ferager | T | 10k | May/Ravi, Failed Secret Relationship, 118 Family Feels, Hijinks, Making Out

Other Pairings ❤️‍🔥

sensin some undertone (bad idea right?) by withmeornotatall | M | 2.2k | Buck/Ravi, Post 8x14/15, Hookup, Mutual Assured Self Destruction, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, both of them are traumatized temporary fix by screamingcolours | E | 2.6k | Buck/Ravi, Hookup, Angst, Explicit Sex, 8x14 Coda

Buddie Centric 🏡

Flirting by CallmeG | G | 1.2k | Ravi questions Buddie, Short & Sweet, Flirting, Crack Treated Seriously, how s4 should have gone 🔥maybe i'm trapped with you, but you also trapped with me by abichaf | T | 1.3k | Crack, 8x17/18 Spec, Ravi has had enough, idiot4idiot 911, I'd Like to Report a Hate Crime (aka Operation: Gaslight Ravi) by undercoverwillshaper | T | 1.4k | Ravi hazed by the 118, Evil Power Couple Buddie, One-Shot, Silly Goofy just a boy (not a threat) by Keiylle | T | 1.5k | Minor Buck/Ravi, Scene taken from TLOU Part 2, Dina/Elle Winter Dance scene, Past Buddie, TW Gerrard (as Seth obv) what's a DILF? by on_mars for hexensalbei | T | 1.6k | Ravi trolls Buddie, Crack, Idiots in Love, Getting Together Ravi, Rattled and Realizing by prairie_gentian | G | 2.6k | 118 Family Feels, Ravi is weirded out by them, Annoying Buddie two gays with one stone by daylightsashley | M | 3k | Buddie + Ravi Third-wheeling, Getting Together, 8x18 Spec, Trapped in a hole 🔥i got you, i won't let go by rainny_days | E | 6.2k | Follow up to sorry, can't stay (i gotta run, run, yeah), Jealous Eddie, Ravi & Buck Friendship, Post-Time Loop, Buddie Getting Together, Kitchen Sex (!!), Ravi is a sweetheart

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There is no need for words here. Just a moment when two people realize that they can't live without each other. They both need and want to touch each other. Because otherwise, for that moment, a touch is all they can do . For them now, words are scary, and saying them out loud makes it real. And there's so much for both of them to lose. So they don't say. But they need to touch and that's all they have.

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i think ive seen this film before

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give me all the spicy

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@eddiediaznetwork​ event: favorite moment: Silly/Playful Eddie Moments

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Ryan Guzman as Eddie Díaz 9-1-1, S08E17 - Don't Drink The Water

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former illegal street fighter and army staff sergeant and his way of terribly threatening his best friend: an index finger 🫵🏼