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It keeps haunting me. 🥹 Every single day 😓😭

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Yes, I can’t deny it. I missed him. Even I say na its over, wala na eh he didn’t contact me & I’m okay naman. But moment he called again yesterday I felt na all this time I wasn’t get through this. I’m still missing him and when he called wala parang nothing changes I was able to ask him how are you and you doing? You okay and able din to tell imissyou without any reply from him. 🥺

I gues iba na. Di na’to katulad ng dati. He called before he needs someone to talk to then if meron na wala ka na. Hay. Why me? Why I’m still suffering from this. Leche!!!

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Will greet you here instead. Happiest Birthday Babe! From start I always wish you all best in life even I’m not included. I miss you so much! There’s no day that I’m not thinking of you. What you do? Are you in good condition? Everything I think as a overthinker. Words aren’t enough to express how much I am longing to you! I’m still waiting for your call. Expecting one day you miss me and contact me.

I prayed God give you more strengths, a healthy body & mind. I pray you’ll not get any kinds of sickness. I know you are a super addicted smoker and can’t live without it. Please smoke moderately. I hope you and your children also Nics are fine now. Absolutely fine, cause you’re not contacting me.

Hays! I miss you that’s all. Take care & hope I see you around sometime! Labyaah!!!

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✨ 2025, a year of healing.

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Trying to move forward from everything. 😭🥹

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Things are so different. 😔

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December 3, 2024 - he finally said that iiwan na nya ako. It was the first time he said that to me.

Wasn’t that sad. Ewan ko, its not the same feeling as before. Parang sa hindi ko inaasahan pagkakataon I can able to let him go. Yes I quite feel that he put so much of his weight on me that I already absorb his negativity in life and was not an healthy relationship for us.

So, I’m just waiting if mapapanindigan nya yan. Well if yes intayin ko pa mag sync in sakin.

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Parang kaya tayong patuloy na bumabalik dito kasi malaya tayo dito lahat. Walang mga boomers at hindi abot ng utak ng mga trolls ang lahat ng makikita nila rito. Ayun ‘yong napansin ko bakit ako hirap magsulat minsan sa Facebook. Parang hindi mo pa pinopost iniisip mo agad kung makaka-offend ka ba? May mga sensitive ba na taong matatamaan? Which is a good thing naman dahil ina-apply natin ‘yong “Think before you click.”

Pero sobrang iba kasi talaga ngayon sa FB. Lowkey bumabalik ako rito kasi sobrang open ng mga tao rito. Literal na yung mga sulat na mababasa mo rito ay galing sa puso nila. May soul. Walang pasikat. Lahat, gusto lang mag-vent out. Nakaka-miss magsulat dito na parang dati lang. The best pa rin ang platform na ito talaga. Dito ramdam mo pa ‘yong freedom of speech. Sana mag-boom ulit itong platform. Sana may new wave of bloggers or mga tao na mag-re-register dito. Sana ma-experience nila how awesome ng platform na ito.

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Still kuhang kuha mo parin ang kilig ko. Remembering those moments everytime you saying goodbye to me, should always have a 3 goodbye kiss 💋

I miss you babe!

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Kanina, i’m accepting all the facts. Tapos ngayon, i can’t help myself but thinking of you all over again. Di ko alam bat sayo ko nakukuha yun fulfilment eh you spent almost an hour every week sakin. Thats it! Ang laki parin ng impact mo na I can’t even sleep 😩😔 May pasok ako need to get up by 4ish AM but already 12:30AM na still wide awake. Waiting for you to call me 😔

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I still miss you. Almost a month of no communication. Palagi parin kita naiisip. Kamusta ka na? Naiisip mo din ba ako? Sana tawagan mo ko. Sana meron pa kahit konti. Sana ako nalang. Sana bumalik ka na. Lahat ng sana. Gusto kitang tawagan, itext pero alam ko nablocked mo na ako. Umaasa pa rin ako na one day, tatawagan mo ko. Kakamustahin? At babalikan muli. Ilan beses ko pinipigilan ang sarili ko halos araw-araw na wag icheck ang FB mo or makakapaglead sa kalagayan mo ngayon. Ganon kita sobra namimiss. Kaya ko nga uli magpakatanga, basta icontact mo lang uli ako eh. GANON nako kalala. Pero di na ganon ka desperada, kaya ko pa tiisin ang nararamdaman ko kasi tuwing iniisip ko na hanggang ngayon di mo parin ako kinocontact, its a sign na wala lang para sayo ung mga nangyare at pinagsamahan natin dalwa. That hurt me most. Ikaw okay na ako andon pa rin nag iintay sayo. 🥺😢😭

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Birthday mo na bukas. Happy Birthday my BABE!!! 💖 Greeting you from afar. I always love you even I tell na it can’t be.

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Things aren’t okay. I got to accept what comes even though I don’t even like it first. But when I rethink, much better pa pala. Yun not totally okay but you become okay nalang kasi comparing don sa isa na you have big expectations ayun pa yung sobrang lala dahil wala, umasa ka lang. Kaya ung fallback mo ung isa na mapapasabi ka nalang ng “atleast” atleast we saw each other.

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I'm in the process. I already tried to start. It hurts but I endure it. I know in latter part it will have a good result

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Ang tagal ko ulet inantay. Tapos hindi pwede. Potangina 🥲😫😒

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Having a courage to let go.

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Nakakaputang-ina!!!