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After purging my last meal I’ve decided something for myself, and that’s that; this relapse will not be the time when People don’t notice the changes, I want people to stare because of how skinny I am and make remarks like ‘you need to eat more!’ Or ‘wow how do I get as thin as you?’ And I can tell them bullshit like ‘idk, genetics I guess, I eat a lot’ because I’m sick of being insecure that I’m not the skinniest of my friend group, that I’m not the skinniest in my family, that no one cares how much I eat because they know it won’t matter as I’ll eat later because I’m ‘always hungry’. I want them to notice and be concerned. I want to be skinnier than I last was.

Tell me how fat I am in the comments? Or dm me and we can be ana buddies! Meanspo plS

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I broke my fast, hopefully this will be the only thing I eat today, but if I can’t even get to a day of fasting then clearly I’m not gonna make it. I’m going out all day today, I’m gonna buy a vape and something for my mom for Mother’s Day 💕. I had 4 weetbix and honey :(

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you ever just see that everyone else you follow is losing weight and you’ve been stuck at one weight and you’re just

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looking at thinspos in order not to binge

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YESSSS me omg I wanna walk around w no top on skating and get a boyfriend PLEASE

i dont want to be the fat tourist when i go on holidays

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Reblog if you are fasting right now

as always, stay safe and drink your tea ☕️

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When I get to my GW these will look great on meee

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Daily reminder

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be skinny.

I will be, not “I want to be”, I will be.

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Well there’s only a few days left,, hopefully by the end of April I can get to my GW !! Pls urge me on :))

April will be my month to shine ✨

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I wanna get thin then run into ex friends.

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🌙 quiet 100 calorie workout

Repeat 2 times

120 crunches

100 squats

50 push-ups

2 minute plank

✨ Estimated burn: 100cals ✨

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Hard pills to swallow:

The only reason im not where i want to be right now is because im not trying hard enough

Im actually very fat. No matter how you put it i am.

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This is what I want

Hey, Fatty

Just a reminder that what you eat in private is what you wear in public.

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Okay, so I’ve gotten way more responses than I ever thought I would and as I said here are the pictures

I’m 166cm (5’5) tall

The first picture was taken after I got out of inpatient that I was forced into by my parents. I weighed 62.9kg (138.6lbs) and I hated my body so much I was even suicidal because of it.

The second one was taken when I reached my first goal weight of 58kg (127.8lbs)

3rd and 4th were taken at 49kg (108lbs) and the last two were at 46.2kg (101.8lbs)

My body is nowhere near perfect and I’m still working towards my UGW. Maybe I’ll even post pictures when I reach it.

For anyone wondering this took me 4 and a half months. I was diagnosed with anorexia 3 years ago.

I am not in any way condoning eating disorders as a form of dieting. EDs are a very serious mental illness and I don’t wish them on anyone. Please stay safe and take care of yourself💖✨💖✨

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Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

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Am I the only person who would rather barely eat anything and sit around doing nothing rather than eating more and burning it all off at the gym? I’m too depressed to move sorry 😐😂