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Reasons people aren’t worth it.

THE FOLLOWING IS ONE OF THE REASONS I HAVE ISSUES WITH PEOPLE. I WAS FRIENDS FOR A LONG TIME WITH THESE PEOPLE, AND EVEN FELT AS THOUGH THEY CARED MORE FOR ME THAN MY REAL FAMILY. I WAS WRONG ON SO MANY LEVELS.

 THEM-How dare you....!!!! I mean HOW DARE YOU You let us let you into our home, and go places with our son, EVEN went on vacation with us, and then you have the nerve to tell him you are GAY ! I have met a lot a people that I thought had a lot of nerve but you mister take the freaking cake! No wonder you have problems....being gay is an abomination , and you know that...you and I discussed that. ....when we talked about the Bible. I can not express to you how upset and mad my family is....and HURT! You knew this and still wanted to go and do things with us and our son.....I used to think you needed to get some guts and do things....well apparently I was soooooo wrong....cause you got a lot of NERVE! I will pray for you and your soul. May God have mercy on you, and may you get the help you so desperately need. Cause you need more help now than ever!!

ME-So should I just delete you guys and never talk to you again

 THEM-What I want to know is when did you come to this conclusion?

ME-You want me to be honest...I've always felt different I just didn't feel the same way about girls and I kept finding myself looking at guys I've tried to fight it and not give in to the feelings but I can't. I've asked countless times for God to help me change to find a girlfriend and be happy I've tried to find one and make it work but to no avail. Never did I mean to hurt you or your family but this is who I am. I would never do anything that would hurt you, and I'm not into Kelly if that's what you guys think I've always thought of him as my best friend someone who would be there for me through whatever and accept me. I guess I was wrong

 THEM-Oh this is not Kelly talking....he can speak for his self. This is ME!

ME--I didn't say it was but he hasn't talked to me so what am I supposed to think. He is literally the only person I've told that hasn't accepted me

 THEM--and don't play the guess I was wrong thing....and the whole pity party thing....that won't work. The damage you have done here is immeasurable. You know why Kelly has not said oh ok that is fine and great? Cause he has been raised and taught enough to know that it is WRONG, and not something that should be approved of! We are not the bad people here...Kelly is not the bad person here.....so don't give me the crap of he is the only one that has not accepted you! You have always said you read your Bible well apparently you don't read it very well. I truly thought you were smarter than this, but there again I was WRONG.....wow just wow......You know I am not even really mad that your Gay.....I am mad at the deceit that has been involved......altho the gay part has made my blood boil.

ME--What deceit I've tried everything to not feel like this apart from killing myself

 THEM--OHHHHHHH you have known this for awhile, this is not just something that you decide over night! That deceit.

ME--And I'm not throwing a pity party, I would like to keep my friend is all and I know you and him and even me was raised go think it's wrong.

I never said anything because I thought maybe I could find a girlfriend and be happy to be halfway normal because i never wanted to lose anyone in my life. I can't that's not whay I want. I want to be loved and give love in return and this is the only way I can

 THEM--If you wanted to keep your friends then you should have thought about that before deciding to be GAY!!!! OH and there again do NOT EVEN tell me that it is not a decision......cause in order for you to be GAY....my God would have had to make a mistake and he does not make mistakes!!!! God does not create abominations..... Humans make mistakes, and you just made the biggest mistake of your entire life. If you think this is the only way you can be loved you have got a HUGE disappointment ahead of you....

ME--Then I will just end it and be over with it

 THEM--Oh don't go there....

 THEM--I did not create this mess.....you did, and you better get ready for a lot worse rejection and worse comments than what I have had....you just chose a life that GOD does not APPROVE of....you think life was hard before....you just wait. Again....I truly will pray for you and for your soul, and pray that God will please help me to calm down and forgive you...cause if I don't that only hurts me, and I am not giving you that satisfaction! and yes I am still shaking my head....cause I can not get over the nerve you have. GOODBYE!

THE FOLLOWING IS AFTER I TALKED TO ONE OF THEIR OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS, THEY WERE TOLD WHAT WAS GOING ON AND THAT I DIDN’T WANT TO BOTHER THEM EITHER AND WAS SORRY IF THEY FELT THE SAME WAY, THEY ASSURED ME THEY DIDN’T AND SHORTLY AFTER I GOT THIS.

 THEM--Hey....it is BLANKSPACE. I need to tell you I am sorry....I was to harsh, but I was so upset, and I am still am cause I feel like you were deceitful in all of this, and to me that is the same as being lied too.

So please accept my apology...I know I hurt you, and I should not have handled it that way.

Well....the rest is up to you ...I apologized and that is all I can do.

ME--I understand and I accept your apology but that's all I have to say just can't take any more hurt

 THEM--Well....I will not be hurting you any more. Best Wishes for a Happy Life

ME--Thanks, same for you hope you all have a good life

 THEM--Thanks...I realize you don't want to talk to me so I am going, but try and put yourself in my shoes, and then tell me if the role was reversed you would not be a tad upset.

ME--No honestly I wouldn't i mean it's not like I've tried to sleep with Kelly or anything and I've been working so hard to figure out what I want and this is it. This is me and if you guys can't accept me and still feel the same way, because nothing literally nothing has changed, then I won't bother you or Kelly or Gary

 THEM--Ok....fine. I apologized....we won't bother you either....night

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