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MCO Chronicles

During the pandemic, I wrote posts I called the MCO (Movement Control Order) Chronicles sometimes on a daily basis. Well, what was there to do anyway. So I am now reproducing them here in no particular order. In Malaysia they imposed a movement control order to manage the spread of the virus. So enjoy.

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MCO Chronicles

The MCO Chronicles

You know what I miss the most? The interactions that makes us humans. The handshake and the hugs to those we are close with. These actions presents our emotions, body language communicating without saying much. Important acts especially in meetings and negotiations. For that reason I prefer informal meetings over formal meetings where through my experiences I've achieved more over a dining table than over a meeting table. In meetings with someone chairing there's always this degree of intensity, intentional or not.

But in my mind due to humans incredulity, irresponsibility, greediness and everything negative those days are almost over. This pandemic will be around for a long time, with or without vaccine. People will be wary about human physical interactions.

In my timeline a few photos came up from our ICC Meeting and event we had early last year in Kelantan. We were in Pasir Putih. In that photo we were footloose and fancy free not wary of the perfect storm that would come our way just a month later. It was a perfect photo of a calm before a storm.

The drive from Putrajaya with the 4 of us, that forever will be known as THAT road trip made up of the General Managers of Investor Management, Project Implementation, Finance and Agribusiness was the best we will ever have. There won't be a repeat because the GM Investor Management will be leaving us.

There was a lot of joking around, sharing of all sorts of ghost stories, we stopped over for the famous Ikan Celup Tepung (loosely translated as Fried Fish in Batter) a lot more than fish though and fresh coconut at Rhu Sepuluh a beautiful beach front and then we arrived at Villa Daniela a haunting and haunted looking resort and after scaring us silly with our own ghost stories.....we laughed out loud still being silly......4 adults mind you.

Then we continued through the night with our antics belting out one song after another at the karaoke station. Great times. That's the 4 GMs below starting from left. We have 3 more GMs. GMs for Human Resources that were with her team, the GM Corporate Communications and GM Human Capital who were busy preparing for the event the next day. We have a new GM Corporate Communications now.

And the haunting and haunted resort? Apparently it lived up to its promise to the point that we were told that one of our team members actually slept with his shoes on in case he needed to make a dash at a moments notice. Us 4? We slept like a log undisturbed. The legend we told was that we were too incorrigible that it was pointless to disturb us.....

Lovely memories, lovely moments, moments just being us, just being humans.

Take care everyone.

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Taking a chance

You know all those scenes in movies about love at first sight? It’s all true. Somewhere and sometime we will meet someone that we are absolutely attracted to. And believe me that person is also attracted to you even if there is no sign. Sometimes you will be thrown in again and again. And at times that person will seem unattainable. But.

Just do something about it.

Ask that person out. Or invite for a cup of coffee. Believe me it will be worth your while and effort. Whether you believe it or not both of you are meant to be together. Even if you are not together or you are with someone else the attraction will always be there. The need will always be there.

If nothing is done both will live a lifetime of regret. Not that it is not great with whoever we end up with, but there will always be that nagging feeling of what if.

I’ve gone through it. She’s gone through it. And probably we are still going through it. In this situation time, distance, age is actually meaningless.

Years will pass yet we will occasionally be overwhelmed by memories and thoughts about them. Avoid that torture. Just go for it.

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Take A Chance

Something changed. I suspect it was my demeanour. My deduction is written in a story that I have written about us. For reasons known only to her she was disappointed in my action and inaction.

Because she was with a friend, we hang out a lot together. But I didn't know at that time, that was her. But she was very friendly to me and it is noticeable by everyone, even her boyfriend except for yours truly.

Yes I am hopeless (years later she hates it when I put myself down in this manner). Yes I know who she is and was now. That took over 20 years to confirm. But that is another story.

What taking a chance is all about here? Even if she did have a boyfriend I could have been just as friendly to her. Building up a friendship instead. We did become friends later, but by then, her mind is already made up and I lost the only greatest lady that truly cares for me forever.

The regret? I regret not taking a more affirmative action. I don't like regrets and whatifs but she is too wonderful not to regret. There remains a hole inside of me that can only be filled by her. I tried to forget her but I just can't.

I'll continue again someday on what happened after the anonymous letters stopped.

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All my life you've been there you never left me. I can't leave you.

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Take A Chance

When it comes to love age knows no bounds, no boundary. A long time ago I had an opportunity with a girl. I first saw her when we were barely 20. I saw this girl that caught my eye immediately in a lecture hall. To me she was exquisite. When I saw her the song from South Pacific played in my mind, "Some Enchanted Evening".

At the same time, I started receiving notes anonymously. I couldn't catch her name for some unknown reason. That girl? She's being pursued by another guy (my friend).

Before that someone passed me a message saying someone said "Hi". And then the anonymous notes started. Even now I cannot recall how, but with a lot of luck, I was able to reply to her messages even though I have no idea then who she was. (I only know who the writer was much much later). I had suspects but no one was confirmed until almost over 20 years later.

Yes, I know I am hopeless.

With her I am at a loss for words, I get tongue tied so I present myself as being aloof and uninterested. She is a very pretty lady (she still is). I believe that I should have done more to find out who the mystery writer was, and I think she thinks the same too. Months passed and I still don't know who. I could find out If I really wanted to, I suppose but I didn't.

In the end just a few days before the new year I received a final note. In her previous note she wanted to reveal her identity, in her final note she decided not to. What changed? I have no idea.

(I will continue again someday.)

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Take A Chance

I have always wanted to post something on Tumblr. Lately I came across beautiful words in various posts and it triggered something in me. I have always wanted to write. I did write a book but it's private, maybe I will publish it someday or write a different version. That book or events actually triggered the title.

It's all about taking a chance or chances. Never wait, do not think, just do it especially if it brings untold and potential benefits. I lost my chance; I lost my opportunity and am now paying the consequences decades later.

I shall write more later. Much to write. I may even provide excerpts from that private book.

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Eleven Hints for Life...

1: It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.

But what is more painful is to love someone and never

find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2: A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who

means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was

never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3: The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a

porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away

feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

4: It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose

it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been

missing until it arrives.

5: It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an

hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it

takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6: Don’t go for looks, they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth,

even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you

smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day

seem bright.

7:Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,

be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and

one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8: Always put yourself in the other’s shoes. If you feel that it

hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9: A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck

a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may

heal and bless.

10: The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best

of everything they just make the most of everything that comes

along their way.

11: Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with

a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone

around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,

you’re the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

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In the occupied West Bank, the Israeli occupying forces brutally lynched a Palestinian father, his 12-year-old daughter ran to help him, she was violently thrown to the ground by an occupation soldier.

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by @/anticapitalistengineer on insta

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Israeli soldiers have executed disabled Palestinian youth Mohammed Salah Bahar in cold blood after confining him in his family home for a week.

Source: Mintpress

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The eurovision channel posted Israel's song on yoututbe. DO NOT INTERACT WITH IT AT ALL. I cannot stress this enough. Do not watch it, not even to leave comments in favor of Palestine. Not even to dislike it. The algorithm doesn't work that way. Just report it. Make sure to do the same on any other streaming platform you use. Block the artist. Report her even. But DO NOT engage with the song in any streaming platform. Also don't use the hashtag eurovision.

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Don't stop talking about Palestine🇵🇸🍉