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uggghhh these heavy rains are doing something to me :(((( helppp (i kinda like it)~

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random fragments that felt naysuu~

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June 21, 2025. Happy 63rd, Ma!

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June 15, 2025. Father's day celebration~

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June 12, 2025. From Dasma to Kawit with Kuya just for this Kambingan lmao.

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June 6, 2025. Went to the cinema alone. 100% would do it again.

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July 17, 2025. First time to eat out with some workmates HAHA.

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How to Save Your Own Life, Erica Jong

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mentally still here at the 5th of July :<

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oh my. we're halfway there.

these past few weeks are prolly the most uneventful ones in my journal haha.

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i think i have to write a gratitude journal. what i mean when i say that is... my brain chemistry is fvcked right now.

had a delicious lunch yesterday (salmon sashimi and beef with enoki mushroom ftw)

sales weren't that bad this time and i also got to see some of our suki after such a long time

my cats

finally got the motivation to wash the pair of muddy shoes i wore during a hike 2 months ago

made a nice cup of coffee for my brother who's now studying for the bar exam; he's finally a juris doctor.

got to watch 2 decent movies! (wicked and novocaine)

6-8 hours of sleep for the past two nights

just little things that happened this weekend to remind myself to "let it rip."

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Life is right now. While you’re waiting for your dream job, your future spouse, your goal weight, a new home, a change in appearance. Life is happening while you are working on mastering a skill, being in the unknown, not knowing which way to go, feeling stuck. Most of life happens in the waiting. Not in the achievements or successes which are nothing but milestones. Don’t wish the time you have away waiting for something that lives in the future. Look around. What does today offer that you might not want to miss?

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May 11, 2025. Happy mother's day, Ma.

Gustong-gusto din kitang makita ulit.

Siguro pagdating ng araw na 'yon, lulutuan mo ako ng paborito kong Sinigang, tipong parang umuwi lang ako galing elbi, at gaya ng dati, gulay lang kakainin mo para mas marami kaming makuhang laman. Grabe ka eh haha.

Habang kumakain tayo sa hapagkainan, ilalatag ko yung mga baon kong kwento - kung paano ko kinaya at nagawa lahat. Hindi dahil hindi ako naging mahina, pero dahil yung pagmamahal mo, sobra-sobra, patuloy na sumustento sa'kin kahit wala ka na.

Pero sa ngayon, maghihintay nalang sa oras at pagkakataon. Sa ngayon, ganito muna.

Mahal na mahal kita, Ma.

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Whatever you do, keep on moving. Lack of action will have you going down into mental spirals that will cause confusion, anxiety, and depression. Regardless of how things may appear like in the moment or what fears may be clouding your mind, you have to keep moving. Be mindful of the present, and focus on the things you can change today, not on what could happen tomorrow. Do not become paralyzed, because more often than not, things tend to end up being much better in the end than we previously thought possible.

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May 9, 2025. Rainy days ahead.

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May 9, 2025. my surroundings, all of a sudden, feel too vast yet restricted and tight. it's as if there's a bunch of spaces i cannot go to any longer.

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-Anaïs Nin, 1939