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by CYNIM

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My BOY

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Il Mheg in the fog.

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Hidden away, deep inside the Weald, in a place where no non-fae folk have ever set foot, lies a flower field, hidden away in the fogs of the Weald. This field is home to many Fae folk, houses crafted from enchanted woods. If one would see it, it would seem like something out of a fairy tale. Flowers of all shapes and sizes and color grow here some glowing, others not. Puffs, much like dandelions, larger than a human’s head hang above on branch-thick stalks, and flowers and their roots float and spin in the air. Truly, it is a marvel to see. 

Even in the dark corners of the garden, and even as far as into the woods, there also exist glowing fungi, of all shapes and sizes!

Naturally, the Fae king makes regular visits. Making sure everything is orderly, at least as orderly things can be with Fae folk, and checking barriers to keep intruders out.

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He watches, weary of the travelers who have entered the Weald unannounced. He sees no need to intervene. Not yet. The Fae folk will see that they are led out soon enough...

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Don’t mind me, just consolidating my tags again, since I got a new comp

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That is entirely understandable, Mass Effect is an addicting game lmao

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Redid (or edited, rather) my icons, the ones for Excelsius turned out SPECTACULAR

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↕, 5'6 for Boz, and 9'2 for Excelsius :o

-flushed emoji-

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Update.

So, I think it might be time for this post. As of now, Boz is on a least a temporary hiatus, as are my sideblogs, I think. Just the thought of coming back here and interacting with people has me terrified. 

I’ll still likely be around, and I may send asks to other people, but I’m not looking to start anything more over here for a while. I’m also considering cutting myself off from everyone but a select few people, possibly a group or two, until my mental health finally starts looking upwards. 

As for my sideblogs…. I’m not sure. I may post on them from time to time, I love Excelsius and Ludro, but….. writing here has become far more of a chore than I hoped it would ever be.

I hope eventually I’m out of this slump, but this is just the state of things here. For those who love seeing Boz on the dash, I’m sorry. This actually just breaks my heart to type this, as I love playing him just as much.

I hate feeling awkward talking to other people.

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In other words, I need a break from being messaged, thank you for understanding!

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Okay. I think I have pinpointed my sources of anxiety for the last couple of weeks.

1. The last day of a job I liked and was comfortable at was last week.

2. I’ve been getting less and less sleep, and have been feeling sluggish, and with a lack of energy. This does not help, as I have what’s referred to as a ‘social battery’. This battery recharges when I sleep, or take time away from people, but lately, it feels like the energy has been extremely low.

3. I want to talk to people, but don’t really want to be messaged first????? Like, for some reason the sound of the discord notification for DMs is setting me off, and I don’t know why, as it never has before.

4. I think I mostly just want to be left alone, unless I start conversation.

These are the biggest things at the moment. I’m going ask to stop being messaged via discord for a while, and see if that helps, but otherwise, I’m not sure what else I can do.

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          “I wouldst not be.... opposed, to an interview, I suppose, from mine Pactbound.”

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The fall amongst the mist by Edward Browne