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Hi ,

I thought I would just check in and see how you are.

I hope life is getting easier for you and that you are getting time to do the things you love.

The world is going crazy at the moment, please take time to look after yourself.

😘😻❤️

Hi there, thank you for checking in！！

Things have been incredibly heavy lately. I've been going through a lot personally, and I had to step away from everything, especially from this account. Y'know, life is financially overwhelming. I mean i've been trying to keep my head above water, juggling responsibilities and debts. There are days I can't even look at my art without guilt or exhaustion swallowing me whole.

I disappeared not because I stopped caring, but because everything in me was too tired to speak …too tired to show up. I didn't know how to explain that my silence was never indifference, it was survival.

Yeah, I'm slowly starting to draw again …and not just for others, but for myself. It's a slow process, but still i'm grateful for the gentle souls like you who still send light my way 🙏

Hope you're safe over there！

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Some Sasunaru thumbs I made for my midterms!!! I'm going to try to finish at least two to sell at the con💖. These were made using photos I took back at the Chapultepec park as reference, so I thought it'd be fitting if the clothes they wore also represented the CDMX setting. We'll see about that once I get to rendering tho!

I also added some reference pics in case someone finds them useful 🦭💖

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I go on vacation for one week, and you post new art! This is the best gift to have waiting on my dashboard! Welcome back!! <3

Oh I truly appreciate your support！Thank you！ Lately, my responsibilities have been taking up most of my time …but whenever I can steal a moment, i make an effort to scribble something and stay around 🙏 Yep there's something comforting about drawing these two… I've missed it ^^

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Sasuke outfit redesign

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Yer a damn fool, ain’t ya????

Absolutely！

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do you guys think naruto likes someone?

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…no words left

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“Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.”

— Unknown

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night scribble…

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Very old piece…

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they are so cute

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SasuNaru

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It feels like I'm showing up to the party when it has just ended, but I want to say that over the last few months, whenever I spent time on Pinterest and AO3 swooning over SNS art and fanfics I always found your art remarkable and beautiful—even if I hadn't yet embarked on the task of looking into the artist. Now that I have I'm a bit dismayed that you've stepped away from it. I know how passions can come and go and how one's existence in the world—in any and every facet that entails—can change how those passions make one feel, and I respect and affirm your decision. That being said, just know there's one more person out there who hopes that one day you will find a way back to it on your own terms—and, specifically, in a way in which you can enjoy making your SNS art as much as I enjoy viewing it.

Well, idk what to say but your message touched me in a way that's hard to articulate. Yes, there was a strong (even at times overwhelming) bond between me and Naruto/Sasuke. And in the midst of personal losses, changes and inner storms, those drawings were both a shelter and a mirror. But over time, I couldn't look into that mirror anymore…… Drawing stopped being a form of expression and slowly turned into a weight due to family financial difficulties. And yes… life has a way of pulling us away from what we once loved, sometimes to protect us, sometimes to help us transform. But then, I found myself unable to return to that space with the same heart. What once gave me solace slowly started to feel heavy and in time I had to step away …no, not out of dismissal but out of necessity. 'Cause sometimes, walking away is the only way to breathe again.

Still, your message feels like a quiet knock on a door I thought i had closed. Maybe that's a little sign that this story isn't quite over …but only when they come gently, without pressure, and in their own time. Because If I ever do return, I want it to be with joy in my hands, not guilt or burden on my shoulders. And perhaps only then will the things i create begin to matter to me again

Just… thank you for taking the time in writing this dm！It means more than I can say, really 🙏

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I’m really sad that you’re no longer here, but I wanted to say that I’m incredibly grateful for all the amazing work you’ve shared so far. Your work has been a true inspiration, and I’m incredibly grateful for all the time and effort you put into it. You mentioned having a different kind of account, if you’re still creating elsewhere, I’d love to keep supporting your work there. ❤️

I have been managing multiple accounts for a long time, but i never thought of sharing them before since each one is for a different purpose. So… maybe after seeing this side of me your opinions about me might change …idk ^^; But if you're still curious (?) I'm known by this name [Chulynn] on my other acc. Don't have any other tumblr, only deviantart and X - LINK I also have a joint account with my sister, but haven't been active there lately due to the intensity of work - LINK

Don't be sad pls I'll still do my best to be around…… at least i'll try. I just sincerely appreciate all you guys "still" support！Thank you for everything！！🙏

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I’ve been seeing your art all around the internet and trying to find your page where you are active. I finally found your tumblr and was so happy until I saw the posts about your pet and how bad you are feeling. I just wanted to let you know that your art truly brings light into my life and even if you stop drawing it has forever impacted me. I wanted to say thank you and I hope you will return one day.

Hello！ Well, I probably haven't been around for 3 months. I've had the chance to read all the messages now… And I realize i've caused a lot of you to worry, so even though i can't answer each of you individually at this point, i thought you at least had the right to know what was going on.

Ok, when I lost my cat about 3 months ago, I lost many things along with it. I don't know if you guys noticed, but i'm not as active as i used to be. In fact, I can't even remember the last time i drew narusasu …it feels like i've forgotten how to. Honestly I never imagined this day would come… I mean… I don't know how this sounds to you guys, but i won't be able to be active on this account anymore even if i wanted to. I've been trying to hide it, but i've been having arguments with my family about my fan arts for the past year or so. No, not in the way you might think. It's just… maybe many of you won't understand, but my country is going through serious financial struggles, and unfortunately i no longer have the time to create art for free like i used to.

For over ten years, I've been making a living by drawing at my desk, creating things online, whether good or bad. But at some point it stopped making me happy, yes, and that's when I started drawing fanart. Believe or not, the sense of warmth and belonging I felt here was something i had never experienced anywhere else. Yes ofcourse I love Naruto and Sasuke, but the warmth I felt and the feeling of knowing that i wasn't alone was what truly brought me here. Some of you made me laugh, some of you made me cry, and some of you even made me really angry at times. But throughout my life, I've met very few people whom i truly felt close to, and one of them was someone i met thanks to this community. That's why I want to sincerely thank you all！If I've been fighting all this time, it's because I don't want to leave you all. But after a certain point, trying to manage both of my accounts actively caused me to spend extra energy mentally and even physically. So, in the end, I burned out.

Recently, every time I drew sns, i ended up arguing with my family, and it just made me feel like this was the place i should give up. Unfortunately, people can change when it comes to money and that's why I had to take a break.

If you ask where I am now and what I'm doing, i'm still doing one of the things i love, i mean drawing, but active and working on my other account, which is completely different from this one. I'm not planning on closing my account here yet, still have unfinished commissions, and just want to leave the door ajar in case i still have a chance to come back in the future. But still, if you were to ask my honest opinion, I would say don't get your hopes up too much…

No matter what, take care of yourselves guys！ Thank you！❤️

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She passed away this morning… I'm just writing to let you guys know that I need time to recover. I won't be around for an indefinite period of time. This may take some time, but don't worry. I'll try to be okay

I hope you're doing better.

I appreciate all your thoughtful messages. Thank you！

Well… I don't know how I am. But if you still want to know……

My cat's health is not good. She is already quite old, now she can hardly walk, doesn't even eat anymore and just lies there all day. We feel like we're going to lose her in a few days …idk

Just…… she has been with us for a long time and I feel lots of emotions that i cannot describe. I mean i still have neither the inspiration nor the passion to draw anything. I only work on commissions (in a pretty slow process) while sitting with her …but that's all.