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↳  If I die, I’m sorry for all the bad things I did to you.   And if I live, I’m sorry for all the bad things I’m gonna do to you.

All That Jazz (1979) dir. Bob Fosse

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Communication has been lost with the Madleen, the last posting from activists aboard indicated they were being surrounded and boarded by the Israeli army in international waters.

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Im poised to strike bro lol Watch out im poised to strike seriously

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gag ittt

going to the tonys dress rehearsal

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going to the tonys dress rehearsal

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and caissie levy, who plays next, she gave everything

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So last month I got hit by a car and died right. Which I didn't initially realize until I watched some guy haul my body into his pickup and drive off. Which, being that it's deep in rural Michigan, I assume means my body will make some venison jerky and maybe some wall decoration, and I'll be resigned to being one of hundreds of deer ghosts floating around Saginaw, which is w/e. But then I find out the guy works at a taxidermy shop or something, and he's actually pretty good at stuffing and mounting deer carcasses, which I come to find out when I find myself face to face with my old body in the shop window. So naturally, I figure since ghosts need to possess something to interact with the living world and etc etc etc the most logical thing to do is to possess my own body, since it's basically a statue of myself. And a little surprisingly, it actually fits like a glove. Like, since it's my body, it feels like stepping right back into place. So I get out of town and back to my herd, eventually. And that's where the trouble starts coming into it, because after I get settled again, I don't know how to explain to everyone else what feels so weird. Like since I can move my body and do everything I used to do, it's functionally the same, like nothing happened. Or it SHOULD be, so I don't know how to explain how it's NOT. But it's just hard to explain it to someone who's never been hit by a truck I guess

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We tried to give you a normal life. I realize now, I have no clue what that is. 

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A hundred and one dalmatians just got off of the train

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I guess that cunt gettin eaten

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Okay I totally get preferring one production over the other, and I really love the new Next to Normal, but I NEED new fans to understand that a lot of the choices made in the original were deliberate and had a purpose.

I see a lot of people criticizing Aaron Tveit’s performance for being “too malicious,” compared to Jack Wolfe who “actually felt like their dead son,” and I kind of want to push back on that?? Like you’re not supposed to come out of this show thinking Gabe is actually that dead baby. He’s certainly not supposed to be acting like a literal baby (what even is that interpretation). That maliciousness in Tveit’s performance did its job! The same can be said about the weirdo Oedipal nightmare of Diana and Gabe’s relationship: it’s meant to emphasize that that isn’t actually her son, it’s her mental illness. She never even calls him by her son’s name! I get that it’s uncomfortable, and you don’t have to like it, but that discomfort you feel is the intended effect.

Honestly, the increase in spiritual, even religious interpretations of Next to Normal is a little frustrating imo, because it always felt deliberate to me that this is a show about grief that doesn’t try to pull a “he’s watching over you from heaven 🥰” message. Death is absolute in Next to Normal; it’s grief that persists. Gabe is a looming presence over the Goodman family because they’ve all been personally affected by his death, but he’s still dead. He’s not there! It’s just that their grief wears his face.

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by @beetlemoses

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i wish that mario's appendix would rupture at a crucial moment, like when he was in the middle of fighting bowzer