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Tw sh and relaspe

problematic alter culture is IDC if it's bad for the body it's good for ME ,, they're gonna be SO MAD at me but idc lol, could've done much worse but I don't because I care Abt them. Can't they see I do this because I care about us. I do this because if I didn't id do worse. They just dont understand. They're being stupid. Idk it's a simple concept. Host is gonna hate me. We werre over a week clean. I don't care abymore. I deserve to feel good too

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nail polish almost looks like blood. Nice

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"when cyders in front u need to come get some1 ok?" lol u thikn im gonna do that . wren might prepare in advance but i dont care

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Problematic alter culture is going behind everyone's back and becoming the worst version of yourself for your own entertainment because healing is boring. Then going back to normal and pretending like nothing ever happened.

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could kms rn. no one could stop me. theyre all asleep. and i know where all my medicine is.

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ww3 this ww3 that what if i just kill myself before it ccan happen? hm? nothing to worry about then

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persecutor culture is, yes I harm the system an no I don't feel bad for it. Go cry about it

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sometimes you gotta.. close a door to open a window

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WAS HOPING A FRIEND WOULD JOIN ME BUT THEY DIDNT. THEY WENT OFFLINE. IW AS EXCITED TO TALK TO THEM. THIS IS MAKING ME SO MAD. AND MY CHAT BUBBLE ON ROBLOX IS STUCK IN MY HAIR. ITS SO ANNOYING

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"noo we dont want cyder to front!!" YOU CAN ALL KILL YOURSELF. YOU LITERALLY CANT STOP ME. I CAN DO WHAT I WANT.

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No 'i' in 'team' but there's 'con' in 'economy'

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can't wait for winter <3

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Me after saying idgaf

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Feeling like you NEED to relapse because the pain feels better than being verbally comforted/hugged but being fought out of front because the sys has been clean for months

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LOOOL NOBODY TALK SBAT PERSECUTORS LIK EME??

IM NOT TRYING TO HELP THE OTHERS IM TRYING 2 HELP MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!11

IM NOT ALWAYS MONOTONE AND DEPRESSING GOTTA LOVE THE GIDDY IMPULSE MOMENTS TOO LIKES YEDSSSSSSS YES I WANNA DO HARMFUL THINGS YYAAAAAYYY YAHOO

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tw sh & suicide mention

Persecutor culture is I DONT CARE I DONT CARE I DONT CARE. I DEAERVE TO FEEL BETTER TOO, EVEN IF THAT MEANS HURTINGOUR STUPID BODY. I DONT CARE IF THEY MANAGED TO KEEP CLEAN FOR A WEEK. I don't care if THEY can cope in other ways , I really don't . Ths way works the best and it's not like anyone cares that much. It's better that killing ourself, isn't it

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