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I’m afraid we’ll always be a book with the end pages ripped out.

— Madisen Kuhn, Does Time Truly Heal All Wounds?

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I’m pretty sure you’re the one that doesn’t understand right now because this post is talking about the absence of “stuff”..

How can you have a vacuum with the complete absence of matter next to an atmosphere containing matter, without a barrier stopping the absence of matter from no longer being an absence of matter as it has now combined with the atmosphere????

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from: pinterest

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Shoutout to the people who:

-have symptoms that aren’t visible to others

-are able to function even while in extreme pain

-hide their illness well

-who don’t “seem sick”

-who have flareups at night or other times when no one else sees

-fight a daily battle that others can’t see

-feel like they’re making too big of a deal out of their illness because “it could be worse!”

I see you out there, I feel you, you’re awesome.

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Failed

Ate half a pack of biscuits tonight coz I’m pissed off at my “mates”.....

I’ll never learn.

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Ok, so this is the beginning of MY big fat diary. Since gaining weight from steroid use, anxiety and depression, the above photo has been my motto. But today, I decided to change it. So this is going to be my brutally honest diary of progress of my weight loss. Because I will lose it. So.. I’ll begin by sharing my weight. Yes. You read that right. I am a woman and I will tell you what I weigh. Why not? I’m not embarrassed by it... partially because I know I must lose weight and partially because I wonder why is a stigma. I weigh 20 stone 3.6 lbs. and I don’t know what that is in kg or just lbs. convert it yourself if you’re interested. I am 5’8”. I’ve always “carried” weight quite well. I’m an hourglass shape naturally when I’m not so round. I have an enormous ass that men love and I hate trying to squeeze into bottoms. But I do love my ass really. I don’t have classic body dysmorphia because i am really fat.. but it’s taken till now to realise how fat I’ve gotten. It was after I saw a photo of myself and realised that the mirror in my hallway is slightly concave and has been REALLY working wonders for my confidence as I stroll around looking like the Michelin man in leggings. Sometimes I wanna punch people in the face when they say they’re fat and they’re not. People should say “they’re fat for themselves” rather than fat. Being fat is the morbid obesity I have. I’m finishing this here for now because day one actually started ok. I was good. You’ll learn more about me each time I post if you wanna follow it. If no one reads it, it’ll just be a monologue for me to reflect on when I have lost enough weight to be healthy. Maybe that will be in five years. Maybe a year or two. I dunno. I’ve got fuck loads to lose and hopefully enough motivation to get me through. Wish me luck!

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Yup. Laterz!

Sympathy is only for the able.

People only care that you are sick as long as you are going to get better. Once they find out it is a forever thing, their sympathy suddenly has an expiration date.

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This is my life.

Painsomnia

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😂 this has happened so many times

When someone tells you tumeric will cure your RA

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So cute 😍

People: "Get well soon!"

Spoonies:

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After hearing "You're too young to be this sick" for the 10,000th time:

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😂

"Exercise would help you."

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😂

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Hehehehehehehe

People: "Get well soon!"

Spoonies:

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Yes Bill. Just YES.