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ohatticus:

While his head was on fire, Atticus tried his best to block out everything else that was happening, everything that would only cause him to feel worse than he already did. There was a pounding in his head - - like something was trying to push through, trying to pry it’s way out. The pain was unbearable but familiar, like something he felt before. He could recall when he was younger, prior to his medication and these headaches being the reason for the medication in the first place, but the doctor’s could never find anything wrong with his brain - - maybe this was just something he had to suffer through and not mask it, something he had to just let happen to see what awaited him when it was all over. Although it felt like only death awaited him at the end of this, Atticus had to be strong, he had to survive this, for his own sake. Lowering the water bottle, he prepared to turn around - - expecting the space behind him to be empty, however, before he even had the chance to do so he felt the other male behind him. Arms wrapped arm him, and suddenly he was completely encased by the other, and focusing on the feeling as well as the person attached to it helped ease his burning mind.

Releasing a sigh of relief at the ceasing pain, it then dawned on Atticus that this was happening, that instead of running away, Dae had stayed and held him. Smiling softly, Atticus tried his best to calm his heart now as he slowly turned around in Dae’s arms to look up at him, a soft expression on his face as he kept focusing on the other, not wanting to even think of anything else just yet. Bringing his hands to the older males arms, he gave them a gentle squeeze before his brows twitched into a slight furrow. ‘Don’t leave’, echoed in his mind and while he had though it, it wasn’t in a voice he recognized - - nor had he been thinking it at this moment. There was only three voices Atticus immediately knew in his thoughts, his own from when he was a child, his mother’s (which was what every woman sounded like to him) and his father’s. This voice had been neither of the three. Focusing a bit more, as if mentally trying to follow the trail of crumbs left by the voice, he heard another in the same tone ‘Safe’. He swallowed hard, wondering if he was losing his mind, if this was what happened when he wasn’t on his medication. “Hyung…” He whispered hesitantly. “I think something’s happening to me.” He added, before he heard ‘I think I might love him’, causing Atticus to puff out his cheeks before responding to the thought. “You should know if you love someone or not, it’s all in how they make you feel.” He stated before shaking his head. “I’m sorry, I think I’m talking to… myself. I dropped my pills, I can’t find them - - my mind is just coming up with randow things right now, it kinda hurts. I’ll be fine though, I probably just need to lay down.”

Dae nuzzled his face into the back of Atticus’ head, his eyes falling shut as he enjoyed the smaller male being tucked into his embrace. He didn’t want him to leave, he couldn’t stand the thought of him leaving. He didn’t care about anything else. He didn’t care of Atticus decided that he didn’t love him anymore, and even if Atticus decided that he hated him. Just as long as he didn’t leave, just as long as he stayed there with him. That was all that he cared about. His grip on him tightened as he became overwhelmed in his own thoughts and feelings. He didn’t want him to leave, he wanted him to stay. He loved him.. Or at least he thought he did. Dae Keun hadn’t been in love before. At least not really. People didn’t stick around long enough to actually fall in love with him, so in turn he couldn’t fall in love with them either. They spent a few months with him at the most, and decided that he wasn’t enough for them. That his personality lacked, or that he was too quiet and introverted. It wasn’t his fault that he liked to keep to himself. He was a reserved man, but if you got to know him, he would love you better than anyone else ever could. And it seemed like Atti was going to be on the receiving end of all that love - more like he already was on the receiving end of all that love. 

He didn’t even register that Atticus was talking to him until he said something about loving someone. What? He pulled away slightly, looking at the back of his head. He didn’t say that out loud.. He had thought it. Realization began dawning on the older’s face, and he nodded once. Maybe this is where the headache was coming from? This is why he’d been suffering so much with a major migraine. It was his gift. His gift was finally making itself known. Without parting his lips, he thought, Atticus, can you hear me?

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moonkvu:

MOONKYU COULDN’T HELP but jut his bottom lip out in reply, unable to feel the blush creep silently onto his cheek at the other’s laugh towards his logic. “ a lot of people CARE about it and i don’t know what snakes think –– ” he murmurs with a huff before shaking his head; despite his anxiety-ridden words, a small smile creeps upon his cherry lips before shrugging. “ does anyone really trust themselves ? i’m not even out of COLLEGE yet, ” he sighs before glancing at the snake once more. “ but i guess your snake is kinda … cute. ”

“yeah, well i do know what snakes think, and clothing is the last thing on their minds. especially seeing as how they don’t wear clothing themselves. do you know how hard it would be to find clothes that fit if you’re a snake, hmm?” he questioned rhetorically, before gently setting the snake back down inside of her cage, closing the top of it. “i trust myself, but maybe that’s because i’m not in school anymore.” he glanced down at the snake, shaking his head. “you don’t really think she’s cute, do you?”

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ohatticus:

Everything inside of him just wanted to hide and never be found. his face felt hot, his head felt like it was on fire. he had never experienced embarrassment like this, nor had he really known it was impossible to even feel this way. he had hoped - - no, prayed, that the other hadn’t heard a single word he said, but atticus could never be sure how loud he said anything anymore. indoor and outdoor voices went out the window ages ago and now he was stuck guessing the volume of his voice based on the reactions of others when he spoke. however, once he received a text from the older male, atticus knew he had heard everything and his stomach immediately dropped. he felt sick, like he wanted to puke, but his throat felt dry, like sandpaper - - meanwhile, his head felt like it was going to literally explode, though the pain was a temporary distraction from everything else going on. searching around for his pills that he had dropped now, atticus mentally cursed himself for being so clumsy and even more so for not being able to find them. swallowing hard, he then released a shaky breath before he checked his phone again; nothing from travis yet.

Pulling up the dae’s message instead, atticus attempted to reply with unsteady thumbs. “i’m sorry, i can’t.” he began to type before backspacing and trying again. “i’m sorry, you should go–” he backspaced again. “i shouldn’t have said those thing, please forgive me.” backspacing for the third time, atticus then put his phone down before he reached out for the knob, unlocking it before swiftly opening the door. “please don’t make me talk about it,” was all he could manage to say with what little courage he had before he tried to move past dae, handing moving up to rub his left temple in the process. “i’m sorry if i made things awkward though, if you want me to leave i’ll understand.” he added in a mumbled tone as he made his way towards the kitchen, his back to the other so he couldn’t read his lips, because he didn’t want to have to read the rejection that they would surely spell out. reaching the fridge, he retrieved a bottle of water, pressing it against his forehead as he let out a soft sigh of relief at the feeling, doing his best to focus on his head as opposed to the male behind him. despite how much atticus wanted to be brave, despite how much he just wanted to turn around and face the other, tell him he wasn’t sorry for what he said and would never take it back, he couldn’t find it in himself to do so. however, even if this wasn’t how he planned on dae finding out how he felt, atticus was secretly glad that he no longer had to keep it locked away anymore - - even if the feelings weren’t mutual, he didn’t have to wonder ‘what if’ any longer.

While he waited for Atticus to finally open the door and come out so they could talk about things, he thought about what he had just learned, and how it made him feel. How did he feel knowing that the other male was in love with him? The first emotion he could register was shock. That was the last thing he had been expecting. As far as he knew, Atti didn’t even like men. Then again, it wasn’t as if they had ever had a conversation about it before. They’d never sat down and talked about their preferences when it came to romantic interactions or endeavors. It just never came up, and Dae Keun never expected it to. He just assumed that Atticus was too shy to actually go up to girls and actively pursue them. And in a way, he supposed that he was right. Atticus was shy, he just wasn’t interested in women.. Wasn’t interested in women. That thought was still jarring for him. He blinked, licking his lips and running a hand down his face slowly. 

He had barely processed the fact that the door had opened and the shorter male moved past him before he was gone, his mumbled words reaching his ears on his way towards the kitchen. He blinked again, stuck in his spot as if the soles of his feet were glued to the floor. He couldn’t move. He barely felt as though he could breathe. The thought of Atticus leaving wasn’t something that he wanted to even consider a possibility. It wasn’t an option for him. He wasn’t allowed to leave. He’d grown too used to his presence. He was his best friend, he had been for so long. His heart clenched at the thought of not being around him as much as he usually was, and then his stomach dropped as realization began to set in. Did he love Atticus back? Why else would he be feeling that way? Why else would the thought of him leaving put him in so much distress? His feet began moving of their own accord, tugging him in the direction of the kitchen, where he spotted his roommate and best friend facing opposite of him, probably unaware of his presence. He hesitated only momentarily, before he was walking forward and his arms looped around the other’s waist and he pressed his face against the back of his neck. He didn’t say anything - there was no reason for him to. The hug said it all - don’t leave me.

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moonkvu:

“ I DON’T KNOW … i could think of a couple of reasons she could bite me, maybe she doesn’t like my clothes, ” moonkyu murmurs with a slight frown, looking down at his attire than the snake herself before reluctantly petting the snake once more. “ i … think she’s nice but i don’t really trust myself, ” he replies with a quirk of his brow as a small smile plays at his lips. “ i would have ten dogs if i could, you know ? snakes … i think that’s more of YOUR thing, dae. ”

he can’t help but laugh at the other male’s logic, shaking his head slowly. “that’s ridiculous, moonkyu. how is she going to hate your clothes? she’s a snake - clothing is the last thing she’s worried about.” dae keun watches as he pets the snake once more, his expression slowly melting into a soft smile. “why don’t you trust yourself? you can’t expect her to trust you if you don’t trust yourself.” he rolls his eyes, although the smile never leaves his lips. “i’m not surprised in the slightest. i know what you mean, though. you’re right. not everyone can appreciate snakes like me.”

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moonkvu:

THE ANXIETY THAT that had built itself sturdy on the back of moonkyu’s mind had slowly dwindled down so that the touch of the snake hadn’t make him want to go invisible anymore, which was thankfully a good sign seeing as he had actually LIKED dae in the first place. “ so –– like, if they bite me, i could die ? oh. okay. ” moonkyu’s fingers twitch at the sound of that but he tries to remain calm, nevertheless. “ why couldn’t you like, bring a dog ? i like dogs. they’re nice. ”

“yes, you could die if she bites you, but she’s not going to bite you. there’s no reason for her to - is there?” he asks, looking back and forth between the male and the snake around his shoulders. he’s keeping a close tab on the animal, making sure that she’s not feeling tense or threatened. so far so good. he chuckles. “and you don’t think nagini’s nice?” he questions playfully, before sighing. “i’ll bring my dog next time, how’s that?” 

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ohatticus:

His head was throbbing, as it had often been lately, but atti currently had the place to himself and he wanted to take advantage of that. first he showered and sang loudly ( and more than likely off-key ) to the last song he could really remember hearing, which ironically was ‘Mr. Brightside’. he then found one of dae’s shirts - - which he often wore when he was doing his own laundry, or so he said, and put it on, enjoying the comfort that the oversized article of clothing brought to him. he then attempted to get some work done, but it wasn’t long before atticus found himself in the bathroom, staring in the mirror to study his own face. he found himself to be average at best, but his… impairment only left him feeling that much more undesirable. oh, but how he fantasized, how he often daydreamed of having the courage to just tell his best friend how he felt - - what he had been feeling for years now. Placing a hand on his throat, atticus kept his gaze on himself as he spoke.

“Hyung - -” no, that was too formal. “dae, i like you… i like you a lot - - dae, i think i love you.” the vibration against his fingers seemed to waivered telling atticus that his voice faltered as he spoke, he was too nervous to even say the words alone, how the hell would he ever say them to his hyung? sighing, he straightened his shoulders and posture, looking directly at himself as he spoke again. “daekeun, i love you… you mean everything to me - - aish, i’m pathetic.” he muttered as he scratched his temple, his headache getting worse, causing him to open the medicine cabinet and retrieve his bottle of pills, getting the last two out before he shut the cabinet, jumping as soon as he did so – for his reflection was no longer the only one he saw. he suddenly wished he hadn’t left the bathroom door open, at least if he had closed it, he could have feigned ignorance, but the hallway was short and close to the front door, there wasn’t a chance that his roommate hadn’t heard everything he just said. in a state of panic, atticus shut the door, locking it immediately before he reached for his phone to text travis, begging the other to come and pick him up. he barely even noticed that he had dropped his pills, his heart was racing too fast for him to even care at this point. @daekevn

A big part of the reason that Dae Keun worked at the restaurant he did was because they refused to slaughter the animals there at the restaurant.. Maybe slaughter was too harsh of a word, but some of the produce that was brought on the site or a lot of restaurants were still alive, like the fish, and he could knew that if he worked at one of those places, he’d be able to feel their pain and hear their final thoughts right before they died. Contrary to popular belief, animals do have thought processes that are strikingly similar to humans. Dae Keun’s gift would be a little moot and useless if they didn’t. For the most part. That being said, he was happy with what he was doing there. He’d been their for almost two years and they were going to promote him pretty soon. Sooner than he thought if the words his manager gave him before his shift was over had anything to do with it. 

He quickly made his way home, making sure the front door was locked behind him before kicking off his shoes and hanging his bag up on the coatrack near the front door. He made his way past the living room and kitchen, stoping momentarily to check those two places before, heading down the hallway. He was trying to find Atticus and tell him the good news. Him being promoted would mean him bringing in more money and maybe they’d be able to splurge a little bit more on food. They weren’t starving, but it’d be nice to have a little bit more extra food in the house. When he heard a voice coming from the direction of the bathroom, that’s where he headed. The door was open, so he figured it was safe to approach it. His footsteps when his ears began to register what Atti was saying. His eyes widened and he stood in the doorway of the bathroom, his phone slipping out of his hand as he stared at him. He... loved him? He was too busy trying to wrap his head around it to do anything or stop Atti from closing the door once he realized he was standing there. The slamming down broke him out of his revery and he quickly bent over to pick up his phone, typing up a text for the younger male. “Atti.. Come out please. Talk to me. I’m not mad.” He sent it.

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moonkvu:

IF DAEKEUN WERE to ask, moonkyu would switch abilities with the other male in a heartbeat if it were to mean that moonkyu wouldn’t have to go up and disappear whenever he had felt anxiety bubbling up to the surface ( and it would be a plus to talk to cute little dogs anyway ) so he’s somewhat UNDERSTANDING towards dae and what he can do; even if moonkyu is still absolutely terrified of snakes. “ i trust you, ” moonkyu mumbles is a small, shy voice as the snake’s tongue reaches out and licks at his hand, a slight shiver before petting it once more. “ aren’t snakes like … poisonous, though ? ”

dae keun loves his gift. he loves being able to speak to animals and relate to them, and he loves being able to share a bond with them. it is also pretty cool that he was able to morph into any animal he wanted - that he comes in contact with, of course. “good.” he offers moonkyu a smile, before nodding. “they’re poisonous, but not the saliva. the venom is in the fangs. and even if their saliva was poisonous - it’d only be poisonous if it made contact with your bloodstream.” 

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moonkvu:

MOONKYU SIMPLY WATCHES the interaction with a quiet blink, almost letting out a laugh at how ridiculous it looks before quietly muffling his chuckles behind his hand. “ i’m … not, ” he murmurs before hesitantly taking closer steps towards the animal and the other; now just simply CHEWING on the pad of his thumb all whilst shuffling his feet until he’s stopped in front of the two. “ i –– is a lick, okay ? snakes can lick and i’ll be okay, right ? ” he mumbles before doing what dae instructed and slowly reaching out with one finger to p e t at the snake’s head.

dae keun’s used to the chuckles and weird stares and even outright laughter at how he communicates with animals. he knows that to a lot of people, it looks weird for him to whisper in the ear of an animal, but it wasn’t weird for him. it’s how his gift worked. and it was much more confidential and personal. animals were surprisingly private beings, especially seeing as how they used the restroom just about anywhere they felt like. “you won’t get sick if she licks you,” he says, shaking his head. a smile tugs at his lips when the snake’s tongue flicks out to lick against moonkyu’s wrist.

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milkhcneys:

                   “wait — you’re.. are you serious? like, actually?” jamie flinched at almost every move the snake made, but never took the effort to move away. “a baby.. yeah. okay. sorry. i didn’t mean to.” they let their shoulders slouch and teeth left unclenched. “what does she do, exactly?” the latter was almost scared to ask, but their ever shaking hands were now stuffed in their pockets and had no other indication that they were scared out of their mind.

                “yes, i’m serious. she’s a baby, she’s barely even a year old. she turns a year old next week.” he looked at the other, taking in his tense form. “it’s fine, don’t apologize. it’s just that animals can sense fear, and that puts them on edge and makes them even more likely to attack.” he glanced down at the snake, a small smile on his lips. “what do you mean, what does she do? she’s a snake. she doesn’t have any abilities or anything, she does normal snake things.” he looked back over to him. “would you like to pet her?”

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moonkvu:

“ TELL HER TO at least not take it personally … i just expect the worst from everyone ? ” moonkyu almost winces at the sound of his tone which surely sounded pathetic if he were the snake, he would be laughing at himself just fine –– but moonkyu had always been a shy boy which is odd because it’s DAEKEUN that’s coaxing him to touch a snake, daekeun out of all people, and moonkyu can’t help but shuffle forward hesitantly while fingers play with the hem of his shirt. “ i’m not –– i’m not going to cry. ( yet. ) just … will she bite me if i try ? where should i … pet her ? ”

dae hums quietly under his breath, before his lips part and he makes an almost silently hissing sound, and a few seconds later the snake is returning the noise. “she says she’s used to it.” he reaches up his hand to stroke the snake’s head gently, showing the other male how to do so. “you just pet her right here, on top of her head. and no, she won’t bite you. she might flick her tongue out and lick your wrist, but she’s not going to bite you. she knows not to do that. don’t you, nagini?” he had ironically named her after the famous pet in the harry potter series when he had first gotten her. 

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moonkvu:

“ BABIES ARE CUTE –– snakes are … scary, ” moonkyu murmurs from his spot across the way, merely a good five feet from the impending creature as well as his mutual friend while shifting his weight on his feet awkwardly, eyes glancing between the pair and the floor beneath him, almost implying that he would rather be swallowed up by the ground than even go near the animal. ( or rather, if his anxiety INCREASES enough, he actually might go invisible quite literally. ) “ i’m making her nervous ? dae-hyung, do you know how nervous she’s making me ? i actually think i might … cry soon. ”

“that’s just the perception that people have of snakes. snakes actually don’t do any harm if they don’t feel threatened. she doesn’t feel threatened right now, she just feels a little put out that you’re expecting the worst from her.” he frowns slightly. he’s no empath or anything, but he can basically feel the anxiety and fear coming off of the younger male in waves, and it makes him feel bad. he can see why people are so wary of some animals - they can be unpredictable. but then again, so can some humans. “don’t cry. she just wants to be friendly. do you want to try petting her? she won’t bite or snap at you, i promise. i wouldn’t let her do that.” 

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djccnie:

doojoon had never particularly liked snakes. they made him feel nervous. the fact that the man in front of him obviously had some kind of ability to speak to animals sat oddly with him as well. although doojoon wasn’t unused to people having gifts it was simply the fact that he could talk to snakes that doojoon wasn’t a big fan of. “tell her i’m sorry.” he said after a second of hesitation. “i had a bad experience with a snake when i was younger. still haven’t gotten over it.”

dae keun gently stroked the snake’s head with the tip of his finger, chuckling softly. “it’s fine. she’s not really offended. she promises that she’s friendly and that she doesn’t want to hurt you.” his smile dimmed slightly at his explanation. “What happened with the snake when you were younger?” He knew that a lot of people had bad experiences with animals, especially snakes, so it was no surprise that was his reasoning for being wary of the animal draped around his shoulders. 

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     “She’s not going to hurt you,” Dae Keun hummed softly, his hand reaching up to pet the snake that had draped itself across his broad shoulders. “She’s just a baby anyway.” He had always had a deep connection with animals ever since he was a child, so it was quite obvious that his gift would reflect on that. His head cocked to the side when the snake’s head moved towards his ear, and he paused for a few seconds, his eyes flickering over to them. “She says that you’re putting her on edge. Relax, you’re making her nervous.” 

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ofbyuls:

grogginess likens her limbs to lead as the resounding knock on her door brings her to an unwilling consciousness — perhaps not unlike a bear, she could hibernate for days at a time if she was left to her own devices…and yet she hardly was. whether it be the beck and call of her employers or others who had been graced to know her usual whereabouts, someone always seemed to be responsible for disturbing her slumber. the barely awake female treads her way to reveal her companion.  “good timing.” voice husky, still thick with sleep, greets them through the silent room.  "please tell me you brought some food or something.“

“of course i brought food.” dae keun holds up a bag filled with food he had prepared earlier. his shift at the restaurant he works at ended earlier than usual, so he decided to drop by and bring the girl food, much like he usually did during times like this. “it’s something i made earlier at work. leftovers. i didn’t want any of the food to go to waste, so i thought i’d bring it over here so that you could have it.” he shrugs his shoulders and sets the bag of food down on the table, offering her a smile. 

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bom: ooo. i got you i got you

bom: does it still taste like /actual kimchi/ or are you making up ur new kinda kimchi? could probably market it, make a shit ton of money.

dae keun: it's still kimchi, it's just a little bit different. i added something that perks up the flavor