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Nausea, Magic, New me

I got up this morning and ate breakfast, then after about an hour and a half I did a lil workout. I have this whole plan for this summer, I get my skin all good (I have that new skin routine and I’ve been drinking a crap ton of water, I have to pee like every five seconds), and I’m working out more now, I just need to get my diet a little more stable. I wanna come back to school and just friggin be a goddess and really happy. Anyways after I worked out I just got this sudden on set nausea that was awful, nausea is such a bad feeling.

 I just had a hot shower and went to bed and felt like vomiting the whole time it sucked. It’s sort of on and off now, I’m not sure what it is, I had vitamins, I’ve been drinking water. Maybe I’m missing some sort of thing my body needs or some junk. 

So after that I’ve just been laying in bed, the weather is crap anyways. I needed some entertainment though so I learned that card trick where you flick the card and change it right in front of their eyes and after like 3 hours I’m proud to say I got it! I still can use some improvement but I did it! Maybe I have a future in being a crappy, alcoholic, children's musician. One can only dream.

So yeah, as you can imagine my little bed ridden day hasn’t been the most exciting time of my life. Figured I would write this anyway, for me.

kloveyoubye

[07/02/18]

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Reading, offness, worry.

Yesterday I picked up the book The Perks Of Being A Wallflower because I really enjoyed the movie (Yeah yeah I know, movie before the book I’m a disgrace) and I read it all in one day. It was actually surprisingly different than the movie. But I did enjoy it. They have this one piece of poetry, and I’m normally really not a poetry person but it really struck a chord with me, ew, look at me sounding all artsy. It’s quite long so I’ll just leave a link here instead. https://sites.google.com/site/theperksofbeingawallflower123/the-poem-charlie-gave-patrick 

Once you get to the end it really just leaves you all like woah. So there was that. Since then I’ve just done a lot of reading which has been nice. I put on some rain or background noise on my bluetooth headphones and snuggle in my sheets and it’s really therapeutic somehow. I wish books weren’t so expensive though, it’s weird that they are. I tried the thrift store too. But the thrift store doesn't have any good books. 

Do you ever think that nobody really likes you? Not that they all hate you, but they have more of an indifference. They just sort of slotted you in a slight friend position, more of a backup if anything happens to their main friends. I sometimes think I am, but I really, really, hope I’m not.

I’m going to try to shift to a lighter note, my Europe trip. We’re leaving in about a month, I’m a little nervous. I know this sounds ungrateful but I’ll miss a lot of my ‘true’ summer. I know it will be fun, but I’ll miss my friends. There are some bright sides, like how for some reason I absolutely love packing. I think I’ve written about this before, but I am obsessed with packing things all neat and orderly. And I don’t need to share a suitcase with my brother this time! I have such a weird obsession that I’ve already made and Exel spreadsheet for a packing list. This reminds me, I also need to look for inspiration for the little travel journal I’m going to have, I won’t have my little photo printer so I can either leave spaces for photos or draw my own, or a bit of both I suppose. I’ll figure it out.

There must be others who run blogs like this, I think that it might be interesting to look for some. I could just read and indulge myself in their life, try to figure out what kind of person they are. I wonder if anyone will ever do that with my little blog? I guess I’ll have to write better stuff if that’s the case. Or maybe the more domestic parts of life say the most.

It’s also Canada day today! But we can’t do anything if the weather sucks, which it might. I kind of hope it does, none of my friends are home so Canada day would just be hanging out with some family friends I don’t really know. Or fireworks, and fireworks freak me out due to a traumatic childhood experience involving getting hit in the leg with one. I’m much happier writing this or reading or listening to music while drinking some hot chocolate or something. 

Alright that’s about it today, unless anything crazy happens in the remainder of the day, goodbye for now.

[07/01/18]

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I MUST GLOw

Went to the mall today because I was looking for some certain skin care products. While I was there I saw Soy! I was like “hey” and he was like “hey” it was quite the conversation I bet you’re glad I updated you on this life changing occurrence. Anyways, skin care. I saw that Zendaya’s skin care routine was posted online and that girl has friggin beautiful skin. So I went out looking for Thayers Rose Water Witch Hazel, but I think it might be in America only so I just kinda DIY’d it. I picked up Burt’s Bees Rose Water Toner, Witch Hazel and already had some tea tree oil at home. I just kinda wang janged that shiz together, a lil tea tree oil, 1 part witch hazel, and three parts rose water toner. Then I just dab that shiz on my face. She also uses Vitamin E oil which is a bit expensive and I heard it’s kinda sticky and bad, so instead I’m just using olive oil, which has Vitamin E in it. I also diluted some more tea tree oil in another jar, for spot treatment. I basically want to see if a more natural routine will make my skin better. In the morning I use clean and clear acne treatment cleanser in the shower, and the MILK cooling stick and sunscreen. 

Anyways sorry for the boring skin care junk, it’s just pretty much all I’ve done today. Tomorrow I’m going to the mall with Ashlee so I’ll have more to say then.

Kloveyoubye

[06/29/18]

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It’s summer and I’m alive

Welcome to the first day of summer break. It’s weird, it’s summer but it doesn’t feel like it you know? I usually have that excitement feeling, but I don’t. So now it’s summer and I don’t know what to do with myself. So here I am, writing this again, I’m basically made of time now so I won’t fall behind. So I’ll tell you about the super fun time I had yesterday with Ally.

Yesterday I walked home with Alice, or Ally, whatever I call her now. We hung out for a while, ate pizza, read all the quotes in the yearbook, and made fun of the horrible yearbook design (really, a can of soup?). Then after lunch and talking we went to the thrift store for a few hours, the thrift store is like our jam. I tried on a few dresses and junk but I ended up only getting this big oversized sea world hoodie. It’s a little faded but that’s what makes it look good, I think it’s my favourite item of clothing now, Ally got some super comfy pants. We also both picked up notebooks because they were cheap, and I picked up some glowsticks because.... you never know when you need some. 

After we got bored of the thrift store we wandered around the area, we went into a dollar store because Ally needed a mouse pad, they didn’t have one but we picked up this weird Aloe Vera Drink thing with little jell-o bits in it. It ended up being pretty good. This was where we found a use for the journals we bought, whenever we go out we’re going to find a weird, cheap food and say whether it’s good or awful and rate it and stuff. We also picked up some un frozen freezies for 77 cents. We wanted to have the most budgeted day out ever. 

We continued to wander and went to a Wendy’s and got the 99 cent frosty’s and they were so goood. We sat around and talked and junk. We were so full by the end because we had eaten so much, so we walked a few circles around the area, then decided to head back home.

At home I got her to watch The Perks Of Being A Wallflower and we cried even though I had already seen it. We both love Patrick with all our hearts, I want a Patrick, he just seems like such a good friend. After the movie I got Beck to set up Quiplash and it was hilarious I was crying. We had so many good ones. My favourite that I did was when the prompt was ‘What’s black and white and red all over’ and I said Sea World. But we were all just laughing so hard.

There was this one time when Ally was on the phone with her parents and they were fighting and she started crying. But I made her some tea and we worked it out and it was fine.

It was probably the best time I’d had in a while, I hope we hang out more this summer. 

This post is getting really long but I have a bit more to say, so hang in there. I’m back to not knowing whether I like Soy or not, or even if he likes me. Yesterday he invited me to his birthday along with around six others, which surprised me. I have no idea what I’ll get him though, he likes art so maybe some arty thing? Or i could just do an iTunes gift card. I’ll figure it out. I think I’m getting more confident talking to him. Whether I like him or he likes me or not I like being his friend. 

I think I’m about done now, thanks for listening to my rambles. I hope this summer is good.

Okloveyoubye

[06/08/18]

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ILLNESS/school trip

I’m sick right now (staying home) and I lost a lot of my voice. It’s so raspy and squeaky and FUN. I’ve just been taking videos of me singing things horribly. That’s kinda a silver lining.

In other news I think I’m finally starting to get rid of the nerves and just be excited for my school trip. It’s coming up fast. I’ve always enjoyed packing for whatever reason though, so that’s fun. It’s nice to see everything in order and challenge myself to pack everything in a small place. It’s weird I know.

[March/2/18]

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The best things that happened today

- Ally and I hung out at lunch and just talked and it was really nice, she really consoles me in a way. She's just so easy to talk to. - Beck and I fooled around and listened to music and watched YouTube together after school and weren't mad at eachother! - Soy, Sash and I played the scribble game (someone has to draw a scribble and the other needs to make something out of it) for a boring nonsensical oil and gas meeting thing. - The lavender in me herb garden finally sprouted! Just a super short positive thing. [feb, 21, 2018]

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Long weekend+Emotions

I HAVE A FIVE DAY LONG WEEKEND. This is gonna be so good. I also have more time to write! Okay so the last two days have been a lot of drama so lets get crackalackin and i’ll tell you all about that shniz.

So lets start of with the most important, I think I might like Soy again. But the thing is i’m not even sure, I’ve felt like this for a few months now but I don’t know if it’s purely platonic. I’m in snowshoeing with Soy right now so we’ve talked a lot during that.

WAIT PAUSE THIS I’M JUST GOING OUT FOR A BIT I’LL BE BACK.

Alright anyways, Soy lent me his jacket for snowshoeing and during lunch and that was pretty rad. I was into it but I also don’t want it obvious that I might be into him so aah.

Oh well its break so WHO CARES HAAHHAH. Over the break i’m gonna try hang out with some friends but Sash is away, Alice is a pain to plan with and Cathy can be very forgetful, she’s left me waiting for an hour before I give up. We will see how it goes I guess.

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Hey so I'm alive

Yello, that’s right I’m still here. Haven’t written in months which is my bad, but I think writing these was good for me so I’ll cram these back in! So let me give you the rundown of my day.

Today was Friday, good and easy, simple HAHA NOPE. I had grad. Photos today, no one knew where to go. I had to wear a white shirt and I’ve been SUPER SWEATY for some reason lately, it’s only at school so it’s probably stress. But anyway, my sweatiness means I don’t like wearing shirts without a sweater to hide it that much, and I had to wear a white collar shirt today. It ended up being decently okay though which is good. But anywho, the day started without to much confusion, since it’s Friday right now all our core classes are for time to work on the new passion project. My project is on Randy Gardner, he stayed awake for 11 days which is pretty neato, I brought my ear buds so I was able to put Spotify on and listen to music while I worked which was nice.

Then we had gym, luckily they were nice enough to let us watch videos instead so we don’t ruin our beauty. We watched mental health and anti bullying videos. Apparently our school has a bullying problem and they’re all trying to get us to stop. We had a Dare To Care assembly yesterday. No one wanted to go. Everyone made fun of it or hated it and we were all rowdy. Then after about an hour the Dare To Care lady showed us this video with this guy named Nicks speech, he didn’t have any limbs but that’s not what did it really. He had a super amazing speech that was really interesting. Around that point everyone got really quiet and the whole thing was super depressing. We did this other thing where we were on one side of the gym and the lady would ask a question and you had to walk to the other side of it was right. Like “Go to the other side if you’ve ever felt like an outsider”. Which got more depressing. Then to end the depressing things, there was a big apology thing where you say sorry to people you think you need to apologize for. Cathy tried to apologize to Alice for their whole feud, it pretty much ended nothing. Then Cathy started crying and I took her out (i dunno that’s just what ya do) and there were about 7 other crying girls in the lobby. Not sure if that solved anything.

Anyways in today’s mental health videos, our gym teacher was talking and he said he daughter had severe anxiety. Then he said something about his daughter tearing up the house because her clothes don’t feel right. Then he started to cry and another gym teacher had to take over. It was a lot, I felt bad for him.

Our photos were supposed to start around now, but then the camera BROKE and everyone was super mad. We had CTF which was pretty uneventful. Next I actually had grad photos, those seemed to go decently well. Then I had some more passion project. That went pretty well, I got some good work done. Then of course I got totally off task towards the end. Soy and I have what we call the ‘OC sheet’. It’s where we draw horrible, horrible characters. So we did that for a bit, then we listened to music and watched funny videos and memes and I did like no work. Haha whoops.

Right now I’m just binging from Netflix. I love Fridays, you can stay up late and do what you want. But you’re also dressed and a bit more accomplished. I almost like Friday’s more than actual weekends. Well I’ve rambled on long enough to make up for what I missed I hope. See ya soon!

[2/2/18]

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My Current Playlist

So since this blog thing is just a collection of my days and little tidbits from my life to look back on, I thought it would be fun to post my current spotify playlist to see how my music taste changes. So here ya go!

Banana Pancakes- Jack Johnson

Don’t Stop Believing- Journey

Death Of A Bachelor- Panic! At The Disco

Hallelujah- Rufus Wainwright

Tears Dry On Their Own- Amy Winehouse

Let It Be- The Beatles

Rehab- Amy Winehouse

Jessie’s Girl- Rick Springfield

Take Me To Church- I like the glee version lol

Only You- The Platters

Twist And Shout- The Beatles

Viva La Vida- Coldplay

Forget You- CeeLo Green

Somebody That I Used To Know- Gotye, Kimbra

New Soul- Yael Naim

Carrie Anne- The Hollies

Dream A Little Dream Of Me- The Mamas And The Papas

Hey Jude- The Beatles

This Is Gospel- Panic! At The Disco

I’m Yours- Jason Mraz

On Melancholy Hill- Gorillaz

Riptide- Vance Joy

Ghosting- Mother Mother

You- Dodie

Bell Bottoms- The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion

I’m Easy Like Sunday Morning- Jessie Hock

In The Middle- Dodie

Pack Up- ELIZA

Hey Boy- The Blow

Diamond Jack

These are all the songs from my main playlist. I have another playlist of calming instrumental stuff for studying and concentrating. On that one my favourites are songs by In Love With A Ghost. And a song called l’amour (Intro)

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Presentations, Friends and Junk

So I’m going to start out with the crappy thing- I have a stupid presentation thing coming up and I DO NOT WANNA. I hate public speaking and I’m pretty nervous to do it. I just... NOPE

Also I feel like there’s more info on ‘Soy’ that I haven’t explained. So short and sweet= I used to have a crush on Soy. Like, a few years back. So now becoming friends with Soy it’s kinda weird to think of that. I don’t think I would ever really go out with Soy though. Friendships are pretty radical, and I don’t really feel that way anymore.

And so for today’s activities and events or whatever: Did some CTF, it was art but I’m done my project so I just messed with paint. Then came Math/Science, we did some weird triangle crap, I kinda get it but I’m still having a few difficulties I’m trying to iron out before we start trig. In science we did some chem which was okay, I don’t mind chem right now. After that was gym, we’re doing combatives right now which is pretty fun. We get to play some fun games, like King Of The Mat and stuff. 4 of us together were on, and everyone targeted me! (They had a plan) But I clung on FOR DEAR LIFE and stayed on. (Screw you Kay)

Next was Humanities. Where my annoying teacher is giving us only 4 hours for an essay!? How am I supposed to that? I definitely have some homework ahead of me :I 

That’s all for now basically! Ill tell you if anything else happens 

(11/28/17)

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life guarding, thursdays and pranks

heya. Elle’s back at you with some crippling anxiety! ohman ohman so my life guarding lessons are now 4 hours long, with another crappy teacher and i’m one of the slowest swimmers. But all i have to do is survive 4 more of these. Then I get a break whether i pass or fail. I can make it. Just a few more.

Also, I dunno if I told you this but usually on Thursdays I spend lunch alone. A lot of the time by choice. My friends all are in band and have practice on Thursdays and I just don’t feel like interrupting people and their little groups. But I look really depressing when I do it, and I don’t want people getting the wrong idea that I don’t have friends ya know? But anyways it’s cold out and i’m sort of debating sitting in the bathroom, or would that be too sad sounding? I dunno.

By the way my friend May is in Mexico right now. And me and some friends managed to get her combo, so now we’re putting a bunch of creepy stuffed animals and motion sensor things in her locker. It’s gonna be a time.

So basically im doing..... okay right now. I just really don’t like lifeguarding I dont know how much more I can take it. 

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Friends, icecream and um...yep

So this year I wanted to talk to more peeps. So I’ve been thrown into a bunch of lil friend groups. This one group has this girl (I might put her on my character list later i dunno) and she put me in her birthday group chat so i’m like WHOOP. They basically just spam it with memes though, but every time i try to speak they don’t respond. They probably just are busy or somethin, BUT I NEED APPROVAL OF OTHERS. So now i’m just kinda nervous for the party, like will the same thing happen?

Oh by the way I had this RADICAL ice cream thing. It was called Mochi (You OG iCarly watchers will recognise this maybe. It was really good though! I recommend this to anyone who manages to locate this very hidden blog.

I think I have like 2 tests tomorrow so... GOOD LUCK TO ME I HOPE AAAAH

11/13/17

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Realisation+Vaccines+Other junk

I think that I write this thing because I don’t feel like I can speak to my friends anymore. That’s sort of a bummer, but hey. I’m sure things will end up getting better

I also remembered some things I forgot to update you on. We got vaccines this week and I was super nervous. The nurse ended up being SUPER NICE though (she had fidget spinners, stress balls and candy) and the shots weren’t too bad. 

Also I was speaking to August because we had to work together. And he was being sort of weird, and made me feel a bit uncomfortable. He said I had thunder thighs (He meant this as a joke) and kept poking my thighs saying they jiggled and I just kinda played it off but on the inside I was like OOH NOO UNCOMFORTABLE PLZ NO. But he probably just didn’t know, or maybe he was just weird that day. I don’t wanna judge. 

And there’s this dude, I think I called him Cactus before. But I was alone at lunch because my friends had band, and he noticed I was alone and so he hung out with me and shared fries with me. It was really sweet. He has hit on me before. But in that icky way f boys do. But maybe he’s different? He went on a date with May once but she said it was really awkward. So I don’t know if I would ever go out with him. 

Speaking of going out, I am going to be really awkward accepting my first date. Because I would have to go through parents (I would probably just say I’m going with a friend, because the word date scares parents), and then just saying yes to the person. For me to accept a date, they would have to INVITE me. Not the “Wanna go out with me?” because that doesn’t seem like they mean it. It would have to be “Hey, lets go to _____” then maybe. 

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SORRY I’M STILL ALIVE

Sorry I haven’t updated in a while, I guess i’ve just been swamped with work. So a few updates I’ll shove in a little list.

- I got my learners permit (first try woop)

- I am feeling kinda off, unexplainably.

- My hair looks bad today

- I shortly realised that not much has happened since my last post

As for today, we had some family over, ate some food and I got some birthday gifts (a leather jacket and a sweater). Sorry this isn’t very good. As said before, i’m feeling merp.

11/12/17

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Stress, weather and ukulele

Heya, so I’m stressed. It’s pretty bad, I just have so much to do and I am freaked out. I don’t think I can do it. But I’m trying, I need to just let it all go for like, five minutes but I don’t know how.

On a side note, it is so windy in Alberta, there’s been a wind warning on all day and there’s been 100 and up km winds. It’s crazy, some roads are getting shut down because trucks keep flipping over and people are having trouble avoiding trees in the road. No idea why it’s so windy.

Yesterday we were going to some thrift stores and I found a ukulele on for 10 bucks. It was a real wood uke too! To give you an idea, a plastic ukulele is from $30-60 dollars. A wooden ukulele is anything up from $100. So to find a nice yellow wooden uke that holds a tune for 10 DOLLARS is crazy. It’s a little scratched, but it actually improved a crazy amount once I cleaned it. I was super lucky.

17/10/17

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Cute cozy cabin

Just got back from the outdoor hot tub, showered and I'm not curled up in my fuzzy socks, cozy Pajamas and my lovely blanket in front of the fire looking out at the snow and mountains and the wind. It's really nice. This cabin is so cozy and cute. We got a really good cabin that's just secluded enough and far out so we can't see anyone else and we are all private. It's a nice break 15/10/17

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Packing skills too good for this world. I just need to get ready to leave now. I downloaded some podcasts for the road and have my headphones at the ready! I'm pumped for this trip 15/10/17