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[dangdaisy]

My person.

Watching Jon with the puppy that we're pet-sitting? Being so affectionate with a pup that's not even ours, a pup that has been completely mischievous and caused so much havoc since the moment she arrived?

Listening to him speak so fondly of her, and to her? I may have fallen even more in love with him.

I actually did it. I found me a guy who truly loves dogs as much as I do.

My dream.

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The crazy.

Jon's stalker tried calling him last night.

The fact that she still tries, that she even thinks that he might pick up? She is not a person of reason. She's also sent me DMs and emailed me in the last couple months. I just ignore her. She's not worth having a conversation with. It'd all be pointless. She will be apologetic one day and completely unhinged nasty the next. I've tried being kind to her in the past, it's not happening again.

I look forward to the day she realizes that we will never interact with her, we will never respond, she's wasting her time and energy. I look forward to her finally giving up.

It's insane that him asking her to stop, him being in a relationship, him calling the cops on her... None of that has been enough for her to leave us alone. How crazy can a person be??

I digress. There are plenty of stalking stories that have been told. Baby Reindeer, Dear Zachary, and Lover, Stalker, Killer all come to mind.

Sigh.

Just go away and stay away.

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Monday, November 18th, 2024

Last week just got away from me, y'all! What in the world.

Schedules are still off. It's not either one of our faults. I have been working day shifts, then switching to night shifts. His sleep is all over the place, but so is mine. He streams while I'm at work, he streams while I am trying to sleep, you just never know, it kinda depends on when he feels like waking up. When I am home and I am free, he's usually either sleeping or streaming. So... we don't really spend time with each other. Our schedules just aren't in sync with one another.

It is what it is. There was one morning where he had streamed all night, and he was ready to get off, but someone suggested he stay until he reached a certain amount of "likes". FOR THE LOVE!! Just let the man get off when he wants to!!!

Whatever. It's his job, it's his sleep. If he wants to let others dictate when and how long he streams, that's on him. But, where does that leave us??

This is the price of success.

And he is, he is successful. I am very proud of him. I may not say it any more, but that's only because I have already said it so much, it's likely not as meaningful.

Again, though, there is a price to that success.

Bottom line, though, I love him and I love me. If I can't spend time with him, I will focus on my wonderful self.

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He's just so precious. lol

never gonna get over this

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My favorite Tiktok she's ever posted. LOL

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Tuesday, November 12th.

Last night was lovely. Jon was still sleeping when I got home from work, so I had some me time to read, work out on the bike, go to the park with Pickles, and catch up on social media things just for fun. I had wanted to finish decorating my Christmas tree, but the lights Amazon was supposed to deliver last night didn't make it. Booooo.

When Jon woke up, he immediately jumped on a Discord call, but then I heard him yell out, "Baaaaaaabe! I want Indian food!"

So, he ordered some yummy food for us, which we ate together at our table before he showered and started his stream. In between him ordering the food and it arriving, we shared some snuggles and laughs together. It was nice... it felt as though Election heaviness has been lifted and we can kind of go back to how we were. Silly, playful, light.

I watched his stream for a little bit before falling asleep, and while I was watching and listening... Sigh. I love my guy.

I slept well, even if it was only for a few hours. He was still streaming this morning when I left for work.

I hope he sleeps well today. I likely won't get to spend much time with him tonight, but maybe tomorrow morning we can go on a breakfast date or something.

Or I can just sleep. LOL

[dangdaisy]

The Reputation Era. What a time to be alive.

When she turned to go home, She heard the echoes of new words "May your heart remain breakable But never by the same hand twice" And even louder: "without your past, you could never have arrived- so wondrously and brutally, By design or some violent, exquisite happenstance ...here." -- reputation (2017) by Taylor Swift

[dangdaisy]

Everything's fine.

It's this tricky time of year. I want to be festive, I want to be social, but the lack of sunlight inhibits me somehow, as does the longing for warm weather.

So far, it's not so bad. October was remarkably warm and November thus far is trending the same. If anything is going to bring me down, it's Election results, although I feel like I have already successfully overcome that disappointment.

Now, I'm just angry. It helped to take that anger out and delete people whose morality simply did not align with my own. Just don't need them, you know? There are plenty of people who care like I care, and those are the people I prefer to have in my life.

Anyway...

The days lately have been beautiful and sunny, but my sleep schedule is so fucked up that I haven't been able to take full advantage. I sleep in way too late, after staying up way too late. I hate it. I lament missing out on mornings.

Jon's sleep/stream schedule doesn't help. Co-habitation has its pros and cons for sure! I want to be supportive of him, and dammit, I have been. Since day one, I have been his biggest cheerleader, I've been so proud of him, I encouraged him before everyone else came on board. Excuse me for needing some peace now.

I'm just tired.

Where do I go from here? I do the things that make me happy. Spend time with friends, read, write, run. Dance. Find creative outlets. Stay aware and stay present.

It's fine. Everything's fine.

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happiness.

For the last two years, I have been consistently happy, consistently making the most of life. Traveling, trying new things, spending time with the people I love and who love me back, enjoying all the little moments, focusing on what I want from life.

I have it figured out.

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Can't believe it's been nearly a year since I met him.

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baby come back

I want everyone to come back to Tumblr. tiktok is great and all, but I miss Tumblr so dang much.

Remember just popping my laptop open and typing away? I want to do that again. Especially now, in this moment, life is so good. It's been good.

My 30s have been a journey, lots of loss, lots of learning, but also, my absolute biggest accomplishments, becoming my best most-confident self. Changing and traveling the world. It's been wondrous. I should have documented it more. I suppose I did, with photos and short videos. Not with written word, though.

Time to start again?

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Realizing that Taylor wrote and rewrote her meeting and falling in love with Joe over and over on each album because she was desperately clinging to the hope that the magic and golden love would come back, but over the years it never did.

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I was born in 1989.

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Forever a Joe stan. <3

The way our fandom terrorises this man simply because he’s Taylor’s ex is reprehensible. He’s the one who actually has a moral backbone and is brave enough to take a stance on Palestine (all while being sent death threats from Swifties).

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This is real? This is an actual photo? I can't handle it.

BYE

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LOL

I just remembered why I quit tumblr... Because it was all porn on here! It was the only social media platform that allowed it for a while, and I just got tired of seeing it. They eventually did away with it, obviously, but by that point, I think tweeting sufficed for me and my then need for self-expression.

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Jon and Pickles are moving in this weekend. It feels a little crazy, a little exciting, a little weird. But I am happy. I love them both oh so much.