darkestforestsoul

[darkestforestsoul]

at my start of drug use, one time while high (only times I get good ideas) I picked two shops cards and declared: these will be my designated cards for making lines and I'll use them until all the words and color is worn off!!!

And after 3 and a half years of heavy drug use it happened

One is completely black and the other white

Yin yang ☯️

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Can't wait to experience so many new things with the love of my life and growing old together and building the most loving home and family ever

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life is really a gift!!

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I hate when other fellow artists (worse if younger) ask me if I'm doing any exhibition of my art

No dear I never did and never will~~

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51 questions

1. Zodiac sign 2. Sexual orientation 3. Relationship status 4. Someone you miss 5. Person who’s arms you’d like to be in 6. What you find attractive in Men/Women? 7. How tall are you? 8. What you love about yourself? 9. What you’re doing tomorrow? 10. What are your future plans? 11. Your last night out in detail 12. Your favourite book 13. All of pets you’ve ever had 14. Something that changed your life 15. Do you remember your last dream? 16. What your last text message says? 17. Do you respect your government and the way your country is run? 18. Where you would like to live? 19. Your  favourite flavour of ice cream 20. Last thing you ate 21. Which swear word do you use the most? 22. Your plans for summer 23. Any upcoming concerts? 24. Something that you’re proud of 25. Do you still talk to your first crush? 26. What language do you want to learn? 27. Where you  have lived before? 28. Eye color 29. Favourite style of clothing 30. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 31. Where did you go today? 32. Where are you right now? 33. How many countries have you visited? 34. Something old 35. Something new 36. Something inherited 37. Is death more scary than life? 38. Experience you’ll never forget 39. What’s your favorite part about today so far? 40. Who is your hero? 41. Are you happy with where you live? 42. Do you like your handwriting? 43. What do you wear to bed? 44. Tea or coffee? 45. Chocolate or Vanilla? 46. Are you excited for anything? 47. How late did you stay up last night and why? 48. What’s your ringtone? 49. Did you have a dream last night? 50. What keeps you going each day? 51. Picture of yourself

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im diagnosed bpd, bipolar and schizophrenic + heavy drug use and anorexia and binge disorder

But I bet I could create a new illness

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Uh Oh it's getting bad again

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I tried hanging myself in some woods nobody ever goes to and a random man found me fainted with rope broken

I tried to Od on Lithium and almost did it but then got to the hospital

I jumped off a 10meter bridge with cars underneath but a big truck saw me and took up all the lanes to stop any car from running over me

I cut and sliced my arms so many times and they always stitched me up

I drank nail polish remover same as before = hospital

I've been partaking in highly dangerous stuff and the only bad thing that happened was getting beaten up

anyone got ideas

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ill never hate nothing more than my worthless self death cannot come any sooner

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the drugs are gonna end soon which is good 👍 because it's been way too long

Not good because is been way too long and now I can't stand even just thinking about being sober

I think ill turn so evil and empty that honestly I don't know what's gonna keep me alive

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thanks baggies now I have a raging addiction and acute mental illnesses

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🤮 🤮🤮🤮🤮

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honestly a big motivation to not eat is you get a prize!!!! You don't get to wash any dishes yayyy

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i hate the coquette esthetic, there i said it