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being anti-divorce is so fucking bonkers to me like yeah i think you're morally obligated to stay with some shithead who you hate forever. this is a normal and healthy thing to believe. let's have kids together and force them to grow up being raised by two people who hate each other. yeah this might fuck them up mentally during the most formative years of their life but it's the morally righteous thing to do. if there's one thing god loves it's traumatized children. i'm getting into heaven for sure

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life update (shop opening, diploma, moving...)

Hey just a little update on what's coming in the next few months! For a short version, you can read the bold text only!

I'm currently finishing university, I'm super busy with my thesis and making my diploma portfolio (my thesis is about the representation of trans people in media btw! Unfortunately it's in Hungarian but google translate translates it pretty well)! My thesis defense is on June 18th and I'm very excited, even though no one will really read it since... it's in Hungarian. I worked so hard on it, it's over 30 pages and it came out so well :-(

Since university is ending, me and my partner (@/lonipacs) are moving out of college where we've been living in the past 4 years. Some of you who have been following me for a while might know that my girlfriend is homeless, since she was abused and had to escape from home (her father almost killed her and her family multiple times and threatened/phisically abused them daily) and she's been living in college full-time and has nowhere else to go. Now we have no choice but to move, but we don't have money at all for rent/food/bills etc. because we couldn't work in the past 1,5 years due to intership/university shit + both of us being chronically ill. Me and my partner together maybe about 700 USD which isn't even enough for one month's rent, so we will have to work extremely hard from July to keep the roof over our heads.

I know I haven't been very active lately on social media, but from July/August I'll officially start working as a full-time freelancer, and I'll be extremely grateful for any kind of support on my work! I'll focus all my energy on posting, shop opening and commissions! I'm very afraid that I won't be able to make a living from my art alone, especially in a country with the highest taxes and inflation :"-) The thought genuinely keeps me up at night, even more so since we don't have a "safety net" we can fall into if anything goes wrong (luckily we have some very good close friends who said we can sleep at their places in case we lose our home, if the worst happens). I wish I could have a "real job" but as a disabled/chronically ill person, I genuinely have no choice but to try make a living from my social media.

I'm genuinely shitting my pants, every day feels extremely stressful, full of tears, anxiety and sleeplessness, but I'm trying to stay positive! I feel extremely grateful for each and one of you who ever supported my work with a purchase, comment or like! I know it's very hard to build up an art account nowadays (not to mention the cost of living has been rising everywhere, and art is a luxury that only a few can afford), and I feel privileged to be in a place where I've already managed to build such a kind and supportive audience!

This is a very hard time for me and my partner, everything is very uncertain and changing, but I'm trying to hold onto my love for her and my faith in my work!

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DERRY GIRLS (2018 - 2022) I 3.06

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commission for @birdie-told-me, her tiefling tempest cleric Faustine! there's nothing that delights me more than getting to figure out some fun symbolism to include in a character's portrait 🫒 thank you for commissioning me 💜

commission info 🎨

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evil wizard voice: i too have a "doom scroll"

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HOT HEAD 7 color needlepoint on 10” mesh 12x9 inches Personal project

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i LOVE her

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Sinners is an excellent horror film for many reasons, but to me the most central is that it is horror with something interesting to say and ask. The film explores the ways in which colonialism, white supremacy, and racial capitalism impact how people form relationships, build community, create art, practice spirituality, connect to history, and value other people. It also has something interesting to ask about what it means to be someone who is part of a population that is considered ontologically always dying and already dead.

As you consider these themes, I would like to ask you to extend your thoughts to Fadel. Like the fictional protagonist Sammie, Fadel is a talented, kind, young adult who has dreams for his life and enduring love for his family and community.

He is a disabled and injured Palestinian in Gaza, part of a population who much of the world reduces to their suffering and deaths, as if their early death is an inevitability. It is not. It is preventable.

He is alive right now. You can message him, check in on him, extend your love and care to him ( @fadel-dani ). He needs some money to get to a hospital resourced enough to treat his injuries after a bombing. I know you can empathize with being in pain, with health care being inaccessible and stunningly expensive. You have common humanity with him. You understand him.

Fadel is not a story. His future is not fated or scripted or set in stone. The way his life unfolds is entirely dependent on the social systems around him and the decisions of people who have resources, especially people like us who are not in active genocide, who get pay checks every couple weeks or every month.

Your decisions matter. Please help him out.

His campaign is vetted by: @gazavetters list (#197) and @90-ghost and @a-shade-of-blue

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i think it's nice that people write books and it's possible to read them. often through the public library system

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Hello everyone. I'm absolutely terrified to open up about this, but I am having surgery on my thyroid to remove a goiter that has become very large / given me problems eating and breathing in general. My ocd is going crazy and catastrophizing;, I have been neglecting my health for five years until I experienced some symptoms that terrified me. My dr. Advised me that I will need two types of surgeons, one an ENT and one a thoracic surgeon. I am going to make a formal fundraiser very soon, but I was informed by my Dr. That the overall cost of this surgery (plus recovery) will be around 700,000 pesos- almost 13,000 usd. That is. My wages of three whole years. I am from the global south, in the philippines, and my wages are far smaller compared to my peers in the global north. My insurance is trying to cover around 40,000-80,000 pesos, I am unsure yet. Right now, I am unable to work all three of my jobs because I needed to do a ton of tests and resting, my new meds making me extremely drowsy as I was also diagnosed with type II diabetes and hypertension (?). I still am the only person in my family who can work- my mother is completely unable to move independently due to nerve damage from sepsis, she is legally blind and a full time wheelchair user. my father is very very immunocompromised due to heart disease and kidney failure, and my younger sister is autistic, with a low frustration threshold. Since Early April, I have had no income as I was in and out of the hospital; thanks to everyone's generous donations for my teeth that I am now allocating for this surgery instead, insurance, and my lovely friend Mango's large donation, I have been able to eat well, and cover about 12%-15% of my upcoming surgery's fund. Am trying to build up more breathing room for my gofundme, as it is common practice for philippine hospitals to prevent patients from leaving without having paid in full. I am humbly begging for everyone to please help me, Because I have not been working and will be unable to work for a couple of weeks. this is the most terrifying thing I have ever gone through, and I have been ignoring it for the past 5 years ♡ if you are blessed with disposable income and a generous heart, please send it my way! It means the whole world to me.

You can pick up a print from my inprnt here:

You can directly send a donation here:

*400+ exclusive drawings* on my patreon for only a dollar a month!

Please say it's going to ok! I cannot do this alone.

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Hello everyone. I'm absolutely terrified to open up about this, but I am having surgery on my thyroid to remove a goiter that has become very large / given me problems eating and breathing in general. My ocd is going crazy and catastrophizing;, I have been neglecting my health for five years until I experienced some symptoms that terrified me. My dr. Advised me that I will need two types of surgeons, one an ENT and one a thoracic surgeon. I am going to make a formal fundraiser very soon, but I was informed by my Dr. That the overall cost of this surgery (plus recovery) will be around 700,000 pesos- almost 13,000 usd. That is. My wages of three whole years. I am from the global south, in the philippines, and my wages are far smaller compared to my peers in the global north. My insurance is trying to cover around 40,000-80,000 pesos, I am unsure yet. Right now, I am unable to work all three of my jobs because I needed to do a ton of tests and resting, my new meds making me extremely drowsy as I was also diagnosed with type II diabetes and hypertension (?). I still am the only person in my family who can work- my mother is completely unable to move independently due to nerve damage from sepsis, she is legally blind and a full time wheelchair user. my father is very very immunocompromised due to heart disease and kidney failure, and my younger sister is autistic, with a low frustration threshold. Since Early April, I have had no income as I was in and out of the hospital; thanks to everyone's generous donations for my teeth that I am now allocating for this surgery instead, insurance, and my lovely friend Mango's large donation, I have been able to eat well, and cover about 12%-15% of my upcoming surgery's fund. Am trying to build up more breathing room for my gofundme, as it is common practice for philippine hospitals to prevent patients from leaving without having paid in full. I am humbly begging for everyone to please help me, Because I have not been working and will be unable to work for a couple of weeks. this is the most terrifying thing I have ever gone through, and I have been ignoring it for the past 5 years ♡ if you are blessed with disposable income and a generous heart, please send it my way! It means the whole world to me.

You can pick up a print from my inprnt here:

You can directly send a donation here:

*400+ exclusive drawings* on my patreon for only a dollar a month!

Please say it's going to ok! I cannot do this alone.

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'being obsessed with your ocs is so embarrassing' no it isn't. we're returning to our noble roots of playing dolls. stop self depricating and tell me about your guy.

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la demoiselle d’honneur

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Impermanence

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evil wizard fit check, go

robe

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the contract