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I’ve lost 15 pounds yay

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Ykw I noticed something.

Theres three introverts in my cosmetology class. (That’s what I’m going to school for) that consists of me and two other girls.

They both are perceived as “soft spoken” and “cute”

They’re both skinny

I don’t get talked to at all. I’m 230 pounds

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I wolf cut my curly ass hair yesterday because I was bored.

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So. I’ve been…hiding from the world again. I’m starting over. I won’t fail. Got bullied for the first time today and these words, whew they cut deep

Ugly

Fat

Fat.

Fat.

Fat.

Ugly

Fat

Fat

Ugly

Fat. FAT.

This was the first time someone has said that to my face and…it cut deep…real deep.

I’ll starve until i die. I have nothing to live for anyway

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Me: scrolling through the top Ed posts.

*accidentally hit the search bar*

……*sighs*

*vigorously scrolls to get to the place I was at*

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I saw a lot of other people make these so I think I will too-

Hi! Okay so I think I’m gonna keep my name hidden but you all can call me ✨Elizabeth or Liz✨

🍄starting weight🍄 241 lmao.Disgusting-

🍯current weight🍯 234 last time I did this I lost ten pounds in one week. And then gained 4 after 5 months

🌸goal weight 1🌸 200

🌺goal weight 2🌺 150

🌼overall goal weight🌼 130 I’m 5’7 so-

Anyways, stay safe everyone! Don’t die!❤️

Bye loves~

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•*. ~ Happiness is something I can’t really achieve if I’m still a pig ~ .*•

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Alright everyone, here is din din

2 ham and cheese sandwiches, toasted on wheat bread with ranch. And who can forget the best Monster flavor ever~?

Everything together - 1,112 calories

Monster-200

Each sandwich (not combined)- 456

What I ate

I only ate 1 sandwich! I’m so proud of myself because I’m just getting back into my ed. I was totally expecting to eat both. And don’t worry guys imma switch to zero ultra monsters lmao.

This is a full update since I didn’t eat breakfast or lunch. I also didn’t drink anything either-

Total calories consumed - 656

Yea I know still a lot but it’s better than like, 2,000

Stay safe everyone. Don’t die ✨bye loves

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Lmao how can I love cooking but hate food ?

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Bro I just walked up the billion of stairs at my school and now my knees feel tingly/ feel like there’s a lot of pressure on them ?

✨Weird ana things ig✨

Anyways I’m tired 🙄

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Hey guys. Been a while huh? This always happens to me. I tell myself “you’re gonna eat again, might as well start now.” Shut the fook up. I can do this. I am the one in control. I can do this…right ? I lost my ana buddies so I need new ones :( anyways. Weight update.

Okay so it’s strange cause I was expecting to be 250 because of how big I feel…but strangely I only gained four pounds- so I’m at 234 . 230 was the last weigh in. Aiming for 225 on Monday ✨ anyways I usually do calorie calendars but like…the month ends in a week so what’s the point? So I’ll start one in November ><

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June 8 2021

So I was thinking of fasting today and then I got hit with a craving for a mc chicken.

Breakfast- fast

Lunch- 1 1/2 mc chicken (530)

Bevrages Diet Coke (0)

I’m not gonna eat anymore so yeah. Imma try to fast the next three days ;) well. Not try. I will

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I’m gonna go ahead and do this now since I know I’m not gonna eat anything else.

June 7 21

Breakfast- yogurt with granola (200) black olives (50)

Lunch- Chinese dine in (1,000 maybe ?)

Im gonna count this as a binge cause I feel so full and disgusting but I didn’t really have a choice to not eat cause it was expensive and I didn’t want my make my guardian upset. I was only gonna have the yogurt and olives :/

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June 6 2021

Breakfast - skipped

Lunch- skipped

Dinner- guacamole chips with salsa 200

Desert- rootbeer float 510

Bevrages- sprite 150

Altogether- 860

I worked five hours today so I probably burned maybe 100

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Hey guys!! I’m so proud of myself !! I weighed in at 241 LAST WEEK and now I’m at 230!! I can’t believe it!

Love you guys- P

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I’d really like some Ana friends so we can talk about it together.

What I ate

*nothing*

Beverages- Sprite 150

Burned- (I went swimming so maybe all of it)

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June 4, 2021 Ana calendar

Breakfast - fast

Lunch- fast

After school ‘snack’ - 2 oatmeal cream pies (660) I nutty buddy bar ,it was nasty, (312)

Dinner- 1 1/2 mini street taco (108) cream soda (170)

Desert- rootbeer float (510)

Burned- idfk. Probably none.

Calories consumed- 1,832. I feel so fat…I am fat.

Current weight 240 as of yet. I weigh in every Sunday. Better results.