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Goodbye forever to this blog

Edit: okay, I've had my say, now goodbye for real

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When you see anti-feminists commenting on several of your posts with the same old tired “arguments”:

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This is to Rory: when I was talking to you, it was clear. Most of my posts are talking about you too because you treat me the same way as everyone else, you just mobilized a huge squad of Tumblr followers to do so. I got on here to be your friend again, it looked like a good way to reach you, that stopped eventually and it became a place to go to

You. Are. Abusive. As are Alli and Troy probably, but like they stopped, troy even led me through the steps of “if someone treated me like how I supposedly treated you, I would not be there friend anymore”.

You are going to virtue signal your way out of this by saying I am lying. You have mobilized a mass of followers, and people in real life to perpetually obsess, analyze and basically stalk my behavior. My number one most clear boundary was stop testing me.

You make me afraid. You psychoanalyze me so much. Go die in a tire fire you piece of shit. In what world was doing this alright? Forming a giant web of a puzzle to see if I could figure it out? Do you think I couldn’t? Was that the test? If I could I’m not Autistic cause I could figure it out? Shiiit that’s dumber than I am.

Do you remember the night I learned “sniff” can be used to communicate?I started smiling because I thought I had picked up on a code that few new. It quickly turned to terror. You perpetuate that terror regularly. I fucking hate you. Why would you do this? What was possibly so bad that you and your friends all have to constantly talk about me and my behavior? You orchestrated a test in the house that was everyone doing shit to fuck with me. It was so crazy making because WHY WOULD PEOPLE BE SO OBSESSED WITH ME

This was not okay. Now go virtue signal to say why it was all justified in the end.

Edit: you offering me rides when I reimbursed you for gas money is not exploitation. Posting stuff in hopes you might like it is not exploitation. If empathy is an exploitable commodity, then the world, and you, exploit me, or attempts to, constantly through lies “oblivious humor triggers me”

i reimbursed you for taco Bell. I gave you gas money. I stopped asking you for rides to shit and walked 2-3 miles home regularly. Tell me how I abused you plz or you’re talking our your ass. Not every person you are friends or acquittances with then turns sour is exploiting you. Espescially when you keep offering, although make sure it’s known, i very quickly stopped asking. Any time we did stuff in the end, it was because you offered a ride, like to the homeless events. Hope you enjoyed all the free pot you exploiter /s.

Double edit: “I like hearing you talk”- words from when we still hung out after I asked about my rambles. Don’t try to act like that was some aggregious use of mental labor, although it was labor, but that’s what people who like each other do. But then you stopped liking me so it stopped. This is the same pattern as with Maria, but you made it sound like she got sooooooo many rides from you. Times you picked me up when we didn’t go out together: maybe like 5 but definitely under 8. I also gave you many tanks of gas for more than the 2-3 miles it would take to pick me up. But hey, who’s counting? You were. But it sounds like you counted awfully. You are a piece of shit who has to be better than everyone around you so that you are excused from effed up behavior

following the harassment onto the internet, is fucked up. inviting people into our place to have them mock me from the other room to see how I would I respond was wasso probably fucked up too. Telling so many lies I have to go back through and see how many there were, that’s fucked up. The moment I started figuring it out was when you said “yeah, j often don’t know when to stop talking”. Like you’re good at keeping your mouth shut. That should have been a larger red flag. I still trusted you. I trusted you on the way out I trusted you not to hurt me and to be honest, you did everything but that.

I just in general trusted you to not be such a fucking abusive asshole to get a gang of Internet followers to harass me, or passively post things regarding me (still probs harassment if it’s made to appear on my blog). I shouldn’t have trusted you at all.

Now what did I do? Exploit kindness from a person who was 1000x more kind to you, even in the end, now thaaats exploitation

Tripple edit: all boundaries you established I respected, because it’s easy to never contact you again (until yesterday when you really stated fucking with me). Everyone watches me too much but this takes the cake. I never blocked you because you could always just Google my blog, and after seeing how much people stalked Me, the number of blogs you could ha e follow me to report to you, well I was right in thinking it would be futile

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If you are paranoid only some of the time, people will dismiss you when you know ezac what's going on. I haven't felt crazy in a while. I don't rn. I know what's happening but I don't have a short way to describe it. Is this what stalking is like? What if it's a group?

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When you see anti-feminists commenting on several of your posts with the same old tired “arguments”:

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A person has organized a massive string of people to analyze my behavior, determine how I feel, reduce me to an object, and just straight up stalk me in general. Even if they aren't, actively posting about me, in reference to me, or in some way to report back to HQ is fucked up. I cannot describe the extent to which this is happening. It is astronomical. People are obsessed with my behavior. I could do 1 v 1 or 2 or a group, but they are organizing. This isn't just a follower, it is a person I lived with to get the whole house to make noise whenever I did a single thing just to see if I would notice. They then blamed me for getting mad at the most aggregious test yet. I don't get mad often, but that taught me I should get mad sooner. The number of followers they have had reach out to me, all silently, is absurd. I think it's more than ten at this point. I'm not sure, I wasn't keeping track. Posting about me is one thing, ORGANIZING YOUR FOLLOWERS IS A GROUP TACTIC. THIS IS ABUSIVE, PARANOIA INDUCING, AND JUST GENERALLY CREEEEEEEPY Massivelimestonecube is a stalker basically, and a gaslighter, liar and manipulator. They know I am vulnerable as a gullible, traumatized autistic person. Even if this is about self preservation, it's fucked up and awful

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I just want friends or to be left alone. You can excuse your self.

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Trust is bad. I spent​ so many years doing painful things to my cat. But like I suddenly realized a lot about their behavior and we're on better terms. As am I with all of my pets, although the dogs and horse baffle me.

re: bubble carrier. I have the messenger bag version for Rex and she loves it, she goes in it on her own and it’s her favorite nest spot. It has good ventilation but does seem like a small fit for a cat, however the large version of the backpacks in the post you reblogged to get positive reviews by cat owners. It’s by a company called U-Pet.

This is super cute! I fully support this use. 

I’m glad it gets reviews from cat owners, but I’m not sure I trust the general public to be able to actually tell if the cat enjoys being in this - I would assume they’d know if the cat was desperate to get out, but might not notice the cat shutting down or just being generally stressed. 

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I’m posting this every Wednesday. 

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just a word to anybody who is active in the stim community, especially neurotypical folks. anybody who likes slime, or mixing paint, or watching somebody put frosting on a cake. whatever it may be!

there is one thing you are not allowed to do. you do not get to freely indulge in visual stims, and then turn around and mock people who stim in other ways. by flapping, rocking, humming, using pressure, wiggling their fingers, and much, much more.

because if you openly embrace one part of the stim community, then you sure as hell better be as welcoming to those of us who stim in other ways as well.

i mean, sure, i can’t really stop you from reblogging that pretty gif with the sea glass slime or from making a stimboard for taako from the adventure zone if you only accept the “pretty” side of stimming.

but i can let you know that you are not welcome in our community. and i will be judging you for every second where you’re unable to accept that there’s more to stimming than the visuals.

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‘Fool’ (Official Video)

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Lmao if you can’t say you’re antiblack and throughly think about that, I’m saying you’re antiblack. Comparisons are contingent and erase the point. What did all of your in person friends look like the last time I checked?

Did you even readdd the wilderson article? It’s a good one, now have fun saying you’re less awful so you feel better

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If this were one v one, it would be different, but it’s a crowd of spectators behind a one way mirror, the thing is, when I’m looking into the mirror, You don’t know if I’m looking at myself, the silhouette created by a double pain, or if I can vaguely make out shapes in the other room

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Why block people? They're already talking about you anyway, I know that for sure