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[daughterofhypnos]

hunched shoulders

short breaths 

this is my legacy 

[daughterofhypnos]

I wish you shared here more often. Your writing is great.

this is so deeply important to read for me i can't believe someone sent this . thank you .

[daughterofhypnos]

[daughterofhypnos]

We live in the same city But different States of Mind I have no time for anybody Any body No body

[daughterofhypnos]

Drift into Time - exhibition view, Maiko Kobayashi, 2012. 

[daughterofhypnos]

You are not a concrete building 

You are not stuck 

Dear feather, you do not have wind

But you are carried 

You will go mad with the heights 

and believe you are falling into air with the ground looking more like 

the sky 

But tumble and fall 

Destinations are for suckers 

Get worn down and where you disappear 

You have arrived

[daughterofhypnos]

the howlers

the growlers

the wailers

you have holes in your shoes lighting stuck in your throat fingertips soft like velvet voices tunnelling through the fog I hear your truth spinning out of your hands I light a candle but you don't see me you just see fire and run I understand sometimes heat can be cruel but the heat between your hands and my neck have never scared me away I run into the heat eat away at the coal and ash leaving smudged prints carrying the weight of your fear I carry it for you so you can run faster

[daughterofhypnos]

jagged writing of thoughts

i have a bleeding heart and it pumps

rage and sorrow on the floor and i'm

walking in circles 

there can be the sea 

as long as i can reach it

there will always be pain

so long as humans have no wings

can only sing

all in circles 

the water seems solid i wonder

if i could walk on its surface

would i drown, or be enlightened? 

show her pouring muscles 

straining pulses 

heaving hands

and take close attention 

to where she wants to go

if it's in circles, leave

[daughterofhypnos]

part 3

my hearts sits at the top of my chest like a raindrop

until it swells and drops

down down d o w n 

and ripples 

[daughterofhypnos]

part 2

rip my roots

the seeds of my mind are not reaching water

let go 

of certain ideas of self

you are a plant

an ember

never consider yourself anything

until you remove doubt

you are not yourself with poison in your heart

this poem means nothing 

[daughterofhypnos]

quick postings of poems I don't remember writing part 1

soothe my quivering nerves 

reach out towards my hunched shoulders 

there is weakness in me 

a touch would cure me 

of wounds that i love 

help me stop loving the things that make me ugly

i love being ugly 

i deserve ugly 

i am ugly  

[daughterofhypnos]

you're found 

buried under daily routine

in between the lulls and silences of life 

i can't keep finding you there 

this guilt mimics my pulse 

in an offbeat undercurrent 

always flowing unnoticeable 

until i remember

the waves push up against my self esteem 

you're awful (i know)

be ashamed (everyday, i promise) 

[daughterofhypnos]

My friends don't know me

because I've never been sober around them

I've been in a haze of drunken 

self hate

fear

doubt

warping who I am

like a bar napkin

folded up 

crumpled, discarded.

[daughterofhypnos]

a razor blade as a bookmark because the words I write down when I think of you are physically painful  I mark the page of you with the sharp blade  Closing our story doesn’t stop it from leaving it’s tracks Bloody  On every page I’ve tried to write since  Some days I’ll write just to feel the small ache of remembering  But the more I wrote  The further I got away from you (us)  And I can’t remember properly anymore All I know is  a dull pain of  Where we used to be

[daughterofhypnos]

my body and the similarities to my mind

i am soft and

easily bruised

with some awkward curves 

there are shadows of scars speckled on me

some occurring by accident,

childhood mistakes, lessons learned

some chosen to be there, feeling heavy and full of static 

where my waist is smallest

where i am the most vulnerable 

fits the perfect space for you 

[daughterofhypnos]

worn out

i silence myself so you can't take my words

and drag them dirty on the floor

until i apologize for ruining the carpet 

i am not afraid of you 

not at all 

my eyes do not meet yours anymore because i know

my gaze will leave you haunted

with the choices you made 

(i hope you're happy)

when you sulk around the house

in a house that is just  

the lingering echo of a potential home

Fuck you. 

where were you in the beginning of the year? 

you selfish asshole 

i once screamed at you and the next day you called it a 

"great beginning to further conversations" 

you don't understand every time i look at you

i see a liar and a coward

i see you now 

but not in my future