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On the fourth day of Aro Week, I’m here for my fellow loveless aros: a collection post of my short stories with either loveless aromantic protagonists or protagonists whose experiences of attraction, closeness or connection aren’t contextualised with that overly-used four-letter word.

Because I am a loveless allo-aro, many stories contain allo-aro protagonists. Likewise, as a loveless allo-aro who generally considers myself non-partnering, many stories depict the experiences of non-partnering aromantics.

(“Non-partnering” and “loveless” are, of course, no more synonymous than “loveless” and “never experiences any shape of attraction”. I’ve just been writing the stories I want to read!)

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I have more themed fiction collection posts, including:

Aromantic-focused

Allo-aro protagonists

Autistic aromantic protagonists

Transgender and non-binary aromantic protagonists

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To any trans man who needs to hear this: When they say they “hate all men” or want to “kill all men,” you don’t have to just accept that. It’s okay to feel hurt, it’s okay to feel unsafe. It’s okay to recognize that they are either othering your manhood or demonizing you for it, and to call them out for it if you’re in a position to. If they have trauma around men, they can work on that in private instead of expressing harmful sentiments around their marginalized male friends. You deserve love and safety. I love you and I hope I can help you feel safe.

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“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

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For those that don't get it: when alloaros (or other non-ace aros) complain about asexual posts in the aro tags we're not talking about aroace posts

We're talking about posts that have nothing to do with aromanticism being tagged as aromantic just because it mentions asexuality

We're talking about posts that have nothing to do with asexuality being tagged as ace or aroace just because it mentions aromanticism

We're talking about posts made by alloaros about being alloaro being tagged as asexual/aroace

If you are aroace and you make a post about your experiences then you're allowed to tag it as aroace

If you reblog someone else's post about being aspec and it's not tagged as ace and has nothing to do with asexuality and you tag it as ace/aroace then that is the problem

If you make a post that's for all aros and it's something that all aros can relate to then it's okay to tag it as aroace, but tag it as alloaro too. Make an effort to include all aros when you talk about being aro

This isn't just word semantics or us making an issue out of nothing. Alloaros often have no idea that they're aromantic because they feel sexual attraction and assume they can't be aromantic because they aren't asexual. They think this way because every single aromantic experience is immediately assumed to be an aroace experience. Our community is tiny and we have trouble reaching people because they think they can't be aromantic without being asexual.

Even in real life, out there in the world, people assume we're asexual and refuse to believe otherwise when we come out as aromantic.

Our identities are being erased and a majority of people who fit the definition of alloaro don't realize that being a non-ace aro is even an option.

This is happening because of the way that aromanticism is treated in the aspec community. If your aromanticism is inseparable from your asexuality then that's fine, you just need to stop treating aromanticism as a whole as inherently tied to asexuality.

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Something just occured to me. Circling through each beautiful moment in the campaign, I noticed a pattern. Gillion never initiates hugs. Every time, no matter if he is the one consoling or the one being consoled, he never is the first person to offer an embrace. And I think it says something.

When Jay wants to hug Gill, she always asks first. She opens her arms as an invitation and always gives him a clear sign that she wants to be close to him. And any time she offers, anytime Gillion gets permission, any time he feels like he is allowed one, he clings to her desperately and fully, starved for it, finding himself unable to let go too quickly, savoring it like he isn't sure when he is going to be allowed to have another.

Chip's hugs are unprompted and usually done with just as much desperation. They are completely controlled by emotion, and are a form of a language that Chip uses when love and appreciation cannot be expressed by words anymore. Chip never asks for hugs, he takes them. He needs them, so he is scared to ask like Jay does, cause asking means risking to be denied. It is safer to steal it. In contrast Jay is still asking cause she is still afraid of taking love for granted.

But they both, in the end, ask for hugs and comfort in their own ways. Gillion doesn't. He wants it, he needs it so often, but he never dares to ask for it. Cause he still treats love as a reward that he needs to earn, that he is not allowed to ask for, that can't be had, unless he does something that makes him worthy of being loved. Affection and love is a currency and Gill was taught that he needs to fight for it. That it's something he should never dare to request on his own.

How many times on their journey did he need to feel someone else's body close to his, but his lips were sealed, suffering in silence, thinking he Has not done well enough to be given the privalage of being comforted? How many aches and worries did he swallow down and burried deep inside? How many old wounds is he trying to fill with every single hug he receives, when someone else offers it to him? When he dares to take it, when he grips their clothes in an iron grip, trying to make the best out of it before it's gone? Cause who knows when someone allows him to have that again?

The only person Gill ever hugged first was Edyn, the first time in Allport. It was done with the same ferocity of a hurt child, of a little boy who Has been going through hell and his sister is his only remedy. The only person that always lets him have love for free. The only one he knows he can hug for sure. One who for so many years has been the only source of comfort.

The rest of the world is uncertain and even with Chip and Jay, Gill still strives to fulfill the unsaid cryteria of when he is worthy of their affection.

But I know that with enough reassurance and care, he will be able to ask for love himself and start treating his crew as people he can fall back on. And just so you know, the moment in which Gillion is the first one to hug Chip or Jay is going to make me cry like a little baby.

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Edit: more thoughts occured

Did you notice that Jay always seems to match Gill and Chip when it comes to hugging? She never asks Chip for hugs and takes them the same way Chip does, no matter if she is the one seeking or offering comfort. And the same goes with Gill. Regardless of whether she is the one in the need of comfort or she is the one comforting, she always verbally communicates a desire to hug first. Like she kinda feels that this is what Gillion needs from her to accept it.

So maybe Jay is actually always trying to search for the most effective way to get a hug, to increase her chances. She believes she has to, cause she cannot take love for granted anymore, not after Ava's death. She took her for granted and now she is gone. So now Jay struggles to freely express her own desires and instead clings to all the ways that she thinks guarantee her the affection she needs, an act of desperation in its own right. A silent plea for acceptance.

Each Captain on this ship treats each embrace as a treasure to savor and protect. It's a result of their past and their fears, but also a proof of unyielding love they have for each other. It's beautiful and one day the same love that they still dread to take, will heal them.

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good point !

however :

trad goth viv weylin

glam rock vex weylin (i will also accept new romantic or visual kei)

goth viv weylin

punk vex weylin

do you see my vision!!

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OH YEA RIGHT ITS THE WISP TATTOO I FORGOT ABOUT THAT ONE

wait charlies got a tattoo ?? since when

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wait charlies got a tattoo ?? since when

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gonna be honest with yall, i do not mind charlie slimecicle calling me baby

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In London, I found an old sketch a street artist did of me back in my youth, and Jerome helped me ‘digitize’ it. I thought some of you might find it interesting. It’s a bit dirty, faded and burnt, but here.

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pd fans will be like "this is just like when will and vynce held hands and dakota and ashe listened to music and ate pizza ^_^" and suckening fans will say "what if i strapped you to a table and surgically removed your large intestine, sexually"

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instagram story from ranboo!

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This will make you cry.

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im putting the official sprite release on patreon to good use

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Jrwi riptide makes me feel an emotion that doesn’t exist

what did they put in that podcast?!??

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gonna be honest with yall, this has kinda gotten exhausting, if anyone wants the account, ill give it away, but rn im probably leave it be, maybe occasionally posting when i see something cool

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Name idea : Chthony (Cthony works too)

It’s like Tony but eldritch. ‘Chthon’ comes from the ancient greek ‘χθών’ (khthṓn), which means ‘ground, soil’, and is often used to refer to the underworld.

Best served by someone with a really thick italian-american accent and a cult.