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I spent half of my christmas eve crying and most of christmas crying. I'm still crying. Stayed in bed all day. I hate the fact that my christmas is so grime no matter what I try to make it better. I wonder if its everything that's been weighing on me that came out last night and never stopped. My eyes are so puffy from crying. I look like a puffer fish. I haven't cried this much since the time I turned on my dad's phone... Merry Christmas I guess.

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My boyfriend randomly says on the escalator, "don't let anything bad happen to you okay? the way i'd be a wreck if something did." This man 😭 He treats and cares for me so gently and lovingly that sometimes it makes me think "Do I deserve this?"

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you know what slightly annoys me? now that my extroverted friends understand and feel what anxiety is, they talk as if it's the hardest thing to endure and feel in the world and trust me it is but when I used to shut down or isolate due to high anxiety when we were younger or even now, I would always be told that "I should get over it. it's not that bad. " Now that they have it, I have to empathize and I do because I know how it consumes you. it's still annoying at times because why do I have to understand when they never did? I'm kind of cursed with doing things, knowings things, and feelings things before others. It sounds stupid and it probably is but i'm tired of always being the one who understands sometimes. I'll still be there for my best friends no matter what but it's just thoughts. I'm glad I now have someone to lean on when everything gets too much for me.

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the way I was surprised today. bf tells me during our earlier days of dating that he hates wearing "couple type shirts." I respected his opinion and went about my day since I never really cared for it that much too. Fast forward to today he randomly says, "Hear me out.... I'm going to say something corny." while holding onto my hand. I'm here all like confused. Proceeds to tell me that he wants us to wear coupley shirts for each disneyworld park (when we go on our vacation trip) and i'm like AINT NO WAY he just said what he said. I love how he becomes so corny and cute with me. this man is understanding, compassionate, patient, grateful, generous, sweet, impressionable, chivalrous, and so much more. I don't even have to beg him to be this way. He treats me this way because he wants to. The way he treats me is so soft too. His little random hand and forehead kisses. Caressing my hair gently whenever I lay my head on his lap.

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i still cannot believe that i am loved wholeheartedly by people. i don't have to apologize for existing i can just let myself live and the people in my life love me for me 🤧

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I’ve always allowed so much in my life because I live from a compassionate place. I want to understand everyone and see the humanity in their pain and their actions. I know now that I can be compassionate and understanding and still not allow certain things in my life. That if something doesn’t make me feel good and I’ve exhausted all avenues of change then I can let it go, and that too can be an act of love. And everything that is let go of, everything that falls away leaves space for what is meant to come next. No use squeezing any opportunity or person into a spot that they’re not meant for. Let everything be what it is supposed to be for you.

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Marenzi.foto on Instagram ♡

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breaking news: if you establish boundaries, the world does not explode and you are not placed into horrible people jail

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best feeling is when you just naturally click with a person. talking all day, every day, no forceful conversation, laughs, attention

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"Knowing how to touch her, without physically touching her, really touches her."

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Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena // Alain de Botton, Essays in Love // Eden Robinson, "Writing Prompts for the Broken-Hearted" // Chloe Liese, Always Only You // Anne Carson and Euripides, An Oresteia // Two—Sleeping At Last // Studio Bones, SK8 the Infinity // Trista Mateer, "is it okay to say this?" // @moodylilac // D. H. Lawrence, "The Rainbow"

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I’m very private, if I open up to you, that means you’re special to me.

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From "We speak the same longing"

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men’s tummies. you agree. reblog