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Just trying to love myself more and more.

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Tumblr still feels like my safe place after so many years

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Finally moved in to my new place. It's surreal being here and I can't believe how much has changed in a year. Can't help but wonder how much more is about to change. How much will I change? I hope I can keep the parts of myself that I love.

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Hey, it’s been a while. I don’t really ever know who happens to see my posts but hope whoever’s reading this is doing well :) Last year I quit my job with zero idea what I was going to do next. I was terrified and excited. I put myself out there to try all kinds of new things and now I’ve set myself up for the next big stage of my life. Met someone who I truly love. I got a new job in a totally new space and with pay and benefits that I couldn’t have even dreamed of having. I started seeing a therapist. And for the first time in my life I’m going to be moving out and living alone. Of course, I still have my family, friends and girlfriend close by but still! It hasn’t even sunken in. So much has happened this year that it’s difficult to fully process everything. I’m moving out next week and I’m trying to savor every last bit of this moment right now. This room where I’ve spent countless quiet mornings and nights feeling stuck in life and trying my absolute hardest to break free to the next stage of my life. I will remember it so fondly. But now it’s time to move forward to the next chapter. If you’re reading this and can relate to me in any way, I’m rooting for you! Rooting for all of us. Thanks for being here :)

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depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

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Aimless drives with someone you vibe with 🖤

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little break

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Life is moving pretty fast and its about to get faster. But I’ll always make time for chill drives. 🖤

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At ease 🖤

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Reminding myself to take it easy 🖤

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2am nightdrive

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In the wee small hours of the night 

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With everything going on, I’m just grateful for photography and friends to turn to. I hope, to whoever happens to see this, you’re hanging in there too