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[dear-me--from-me]

I was almost going to sleep at a normal time tonight

I hate everyone

I wish I wasnt here

I wish I could confide in my family and they wouldnt judge me

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I trusted you

And you're ruining my life

[dear-me--from-me]

You're going to be okay

You've felt this bad before

You've thought about this before

But don't do it

People love you

This won't be your life forever

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[dear-me--from-me]

Tomorrow is my last day at work

I gotta say bye to all my friends

🥺🥺🥺

[dear-me--from-me]

You just messaged me

When I saw your name it took my breath away

I know you're not here

But it's nice to wish sometimes

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My heart can't let you go

But my mind says you've found someone else

I dreamt had a nightmare last night that you came to visit

You picked me up, we laughed, kissed, made memories

Then you told me you found someone else and this can't happen

I sobbed, I couldn't understand why you would do this to me

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I miss you so much it hurts

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I want everyone to leave me alone

I want to disappear for a month or 12

And find who I am

But I can't do that

You want me to be a better version of you

But what about the best version of me

Who is that?

[dear-me--from-me]

I feel empty

What am I supposed to do now?

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I feel like everything around me just crumbled

This year has really taken everything I looked forward to away from me

Can it be over yet?

[dear-me--from-me]

There are permanent and temporary people that come into your life

I learned that the hard way but now I know from the beginning how to tell if someone is staying not

But you

I can't figure you out

We both say we want to be permanent but I feel like you're on the tips of my fingers and I can't fully grab your hand to hold on tight

So, are you staying or leaving?

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:(

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I wonder if you'll make it down for my birthday...

You made sure you came back for yours

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Oh, dear life,

Why do you give some a thunderstorm of problems while others only get a few drops of it? Why do you give a deep ocean of sadness, worries, and mental illnesses to some while others get none of it? Why don't some people have to worry about what their next meal would be while you let others starve to death? Why do some get all their desires while others don’t even get their basic needs for living? Why do you do this? Why?

-lowkeyyalienn