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Man, when I was like 16 I got so sick of being made fun of for being the fat kid that I took an axe down inna woods, chopped down a tree, and started doing log-lifts all the time. I got strong as fuck, but I didn’t lose no weight. I actually got bigger.

Same thing happened when I got into fighting. I got even stronger, and I got *fast*, man, and nimble, like a cat. Still chubby.

Body-building culture is a bunch of crap, my dude. Functional muscle is not necessarily toned or lean. You can be swole as hell and still be heavy. And that’s cool.

Embrace your inner barbarian. And when fatphobic little gym twinks try to body shame you, you should DESTROY THEM with your MIGHTY AXE

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I know most people don't care about anything unless it has to do with the U.S. but can we please start talking about the Canadian election.

Please don't vote for Poilievre. He's basically the Canadian Trump and plans to put in place laws that harm trans youth, and lots of other shit.

Please vote istg this is the only way anything will get better. Poilievre has been kissing millionaires and billionaires asses. He'll make life even harder, and he loves Trump.

Reblogs are appreciated, especially if you aren't Canadian.

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Cory Booker has been talking in the senate for over 20 hours now

He’s not filibustering. He’s protesting the current administration.

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Today I learned that John Cena is not a fat girl hater. Suddenly I find him sexier than I used to.

These things are not mutually exclusive.

Unfortunately we are both married. Hahaha

That said, I’ve been struggling with turning 50 this year, with regaining the weight I lost, with feeling old and undesirable. And this made me feel so much better about being me.

I don’t feel like unpacking what that means. Probably something about internalized misogyny.

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Did an art today!

Made delicious dinner with extra veggies!

Got the January calendar organized - bought a new planner even.

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Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

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I really like julienned carrots. I know that makes me sound like I should have been making jello salads in the 70s, but I really like matchstick carrots.

I bought a massive bag just before Xmas and the past 2 days have been making carrot salad. Yesterday was carrots and pomegranate arils with a raspberry vinaigrette. Today was carrots and apple with a tbsp maple syrup and a tbsp lemon juice.

So that’s my life this week.

Other things I may or may not have mentioned because I’ve been avoiding this blog:

I’ve gained most of the 100lbs I lost back

I tore a bunch of ligaments in my knee about 2 years ago and ouch

My dad passed in December of 2023, leaving me an orphan

I quit my job and am working casual

I’ve applied to go back to university to get out of nursing

I bought myself a new bathing suit and prescription goggles for Xmas

I’m going to be 50 this year and am having a bit of an existential crisis about it

I think that’s all. I’m trying to log my food in fitness pal again and trying to make healthy choices but I’m not making resolutions because those suck. Also I accidentally put a poll in this post and can’t figure out how to delete it so enjoy the weird poll I invented because I can’t figure out how to get rid of it.

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In may I am driving to Vancouver Washington. I was born in Vancouver BC.

What tickles me more about this trip is that I am also going to make a side trip to Astoria where goonies was filmed.

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Made my SIL an apron for Xmas. That’s the freshly 18-year-old modelling it.

She made her Grammy and grampy a quilt for Xmas so we were trading turns on the machine tonight in almost perfect sync.

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being afraid of sex or intimacy because of the fear of your body not looking good enough is real and terrifying

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18 years ago today, I became a parent. My girl is amazing. Full scholarship to university. Smart. Funny. Kind. Compassionate. I’m am so proud of the remarkable woman she is. I wish my parents could see how incredible she is.

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Reblog and put in the tags, without saying WHERE you're at, the current temperature of the place you're at right now (but do include a unit measurement, Celsius, Fahrenheit, etc)

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I haven’t really seen any of the more recent U.S. election news hitting tumblr yet so here’s some updates (now edited with sources added):

There’s evidence of Trump cheating and interfering with the election.

Possible Russian interference.

Mail-in ballots are not being counted or “recognized” in multiple (notably swing) states.

30+ bomb threats were called in and shut down polling stations on Election Day.

20+ million votes are still unaccounted for, and that’s just to have the same voter turnout as 2020.

There was record voter turnout and new/first-time voter registration this year. We definitely should be well over the turnout in 2020.

U.S. citizens are using this site to demand, not only a recount, but a complete investigation into election fraud and interference for the reasons stated above:

Here is what I submitted as an example:

An investigation for election interference and fraud is required. We desperately need a recount or even a revote. The American people deserve the right to a free and fair election. There has been evidence unveiled of Trump cheating and committing election fraud which is illegal. There is some evidence of possible Russian interference. At least 30+ bomb threats were called in to polling places. Multiple, notably swing states, have ballots unaccounted for and voting machines not registering votes. Ballots and ballot boxes were tampered with and burned. Over 20 million votes that we know of are unaccounted for. With record turnout and new voter registration this year, there should be no possibility that there are less votes than even in the 2020 election.

Sources (working on finding more links but if anyone wants to add info, it’s appreciated):

FBI addressing Russian interference and bomb threats:

Emails released by Rachael Bellis (private account, can’t share original tweet) confirming Trump committing election fraud:

Pennsylvania's Centre County officials say they are working with their ballot scanner vendor to figure out why the county's mail-in ballot data is "not being recognized when uploaded to the elections software:”

Wisconsin recount:

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Multiple screenshots and images.

The first is a screenshot with a link and information for contacting the White House directly regarding election fraud. The instructions include choosing to leave a comment to President Joe Biden directly and to select election security as the reason.

The screenshot then instructs people to include any or all of the following information in a paragraph as a comment to the president:

32 fake bomb threats were called into Democratic leaning poll places, rendering polling places closed for at least an hour.

A lot of people reporting their ballots were not counted for various reasons.

This all occurred in swing states.

This is too coincidental that these things happen and swing in his favor after months of hinting at foul play.

Directly state that an investigation for tampering, interference, fraud is required, not just a recount.

The second image is from the FBI Twitter account that reads:

The FBI is aware of bomb threats to polling locations in several states, many of which appear to originate from Russian email domains. None of the threats have been determined to be credible thus far. https://t.co/j3YfajVK1m — FBI (@FBI) November 5, 2024

The next four Gmail screenshots of an email sent to Rachael Bellis from Chris T. Spackman that read together as follows:

Dear BELLIS, RACHAEL E., The Dauphin County Board of Elections received a challenge to your absentee ballot you applied for in the November 5, 2024 General Election. The challenge argues that a provision of the Pennsylvania Election Code takes precedence over the federal Uniformed and Overseas Citizens Absentee Voting Act (UOCAVA), which requires states and counties to permit U.S. citizens who move overseas to vote by absentee ballot for federal offices based on their last U.S. residential address.

The full text of the challenge that was filed appears below this email.

You may respond to the challenge in any of the following ways:

1. Call the Bureau of Registration and Election at (717) 780-6360;

2. Email a statement to the Bureau at Election election@dauphincounty.gov. Any statement you submit regarding the period during which you lived in Dauphin County, any family or connections that you still have here, and why you are now residing abroad would be read into the record.

3. Appear in person at a Board of Elections hearing scheduled for Friday, November 8 at a time to be determined in the Commissioners Public Hearing Room, 4th floor of Dauphin County Administration Building, 2 S 20d St, Harrisburg, PA 17111. The meeting is also likely to be livestreamed on Facebook on the Dauphin County channel.

Sincerely,

Christopher T Spackman

TEXT OF CHALLENGE BEGINS

Dear Dauphin County Board of Elections,

I am submitting this challenge to an absentee ballot application pursuant to 25 Pa. Stat.

3146.8(f).

25 Pa. Stat. 3146.8(f) Any person challenging an application for an absentee ballot, an absentee ballot, an application for a mail-in ballot or a mail-in ballot for any of the reasons provided in this act shall deposit the sum of ten dollars ($10.00) in cash with the county board, which sum shall only be refunded if the challenge is sustained or if the challenge is withdrawn within five (5) days after the primary or election. If the challenge is dismissed by any lawful order then the deposit shall be forfeited. The county board shall deposit all deposit money in the general fund of the…

The rest of the forwarded email is cut off.

The last image is a screenshot of the official statement from the Centre County, Pennsylvania Board of Commissioners released on November 6, 2024 that states:

Centre County Working with Ballot Scanner Vendor to Export Election Results.

(Bellefonte, PA) -Centre County Elections Office is working continuously to provide mail-in ballot data in order to post unofficial results.

To this point, all ballots have been scanned, including all mail-in ballots.

Centre County's Election team and IT team have identified that the data are successfully being exported from the mail-in ballot scanners, but that the data is not being recognized when uploaded to the elections software.

Centre County's Administrator, John Franek, Jr. stated, "We have not stopped working, and we will continue to work until unofficial results are posted and reported to the Pennsylvania Department of State."

As a next step, Centre County has begun working with the equipment vendor to adjust configurations to make the two systems-the mail-in ballot scanner and the elections software where data are uploaded -compatible with one another.

We will provide updates as we make progress.

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Further to the big changes:

Neither of the care coordinators I work with are speaking to me this morning.

One of them went so far as to look me in the eye, sigh, shake her head and walk away.

So #healthcaretoxicity for the win. I desperately hope my manager asks for an exit interview.

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I’ve been contemplating big changes for a long time.

Today I made one. I quit my job. Within an hour, I had an interview. An hour after that, I had a new job. It’s temporary but it’s not nursing.

This afternoon, one of my friends helped me with my resume. Hopefully within a few weeks I’ll be teaching.

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I have days when I get the the ADHD I was diagnosed with last year is a super power and other days when I understand it to be a curse. Today I’m feeling the curse