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rory.

Rory winced slightly at the sound of wine. “I mean if you ever want to schedule a crying time with me that’d be okay, I don’t know if I’d cry as well?” He shrugged before laughing. “I’m sure it looks amazing, especially since I’ve seen what you can do with kristen.”

declan’s face contorted for a moment before he shook his head. “ god, no. crying time is an individuals only event, no company allowed. no offense or anything. it’s just not a good look and i can’t expose myself like that. ” he nodded once. “ it does. i’m basically all of the fab five from queer eye combined. ”

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@deanrchrdsn​

it was a pretty rare occurrence that declan and dean were both home at the same time, especially with both of them being awake. for some reason, it felt like it was cause for celebrating of some kind. partially because he wasn’t really in his usual mood to relax with a book in his down time and partially because he hadn’t really spent any time with dean in quite some time. “ hey, do you want to come out with me tonight ?? ” he asked, lifting his gaze from the wig he was styling to meet that of his roommate. “ or—should we stay in and order takeout or something ?? ”

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rory.

Rory laughed quietly as he shook his head. “Scheduled crying time? Should I bring you ice cream this weekend? I’ve never had it but that’s what people always say on twitter and stuff right? They want to cry and eat ice cream?” He shrugged and smiled at him softly. “Thanks… it means a lot. And I’m not talking about the tasteful decorations either. I just… don’t like closed spaces.”

“ i mean—people do eat ice cream when they’re sad, yeah. but scheduled crying time usually just calls for a bottle of wine and a bubble bath, since it’s planned and all. ” he shrugged, as if it was just some common thing that everyone did. meeting the other’s gaze, declan’s lips curved into the tiniest of smiles. “ of course. the last thing i want is you make you uncomfortable about anything. but the tasteful decorations really should mean a lot to you. i worked hard on that place, you know. ”

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rory.

Rory rolled his eyes. “Why do you think I spend 3-4 hours a day in the gym? Every day… The only emotion I’ve ever been allowed to show is rage until I was 16. It’s the only emotion I knew for so long.” He paused looking over at Declan. “Till now….” He looked down at their hands and slowly intertwined them.  “Next time… just….. Can we have the windows open at your place? Or at least like all the lights on? New places freak me out.”

declan let out a soft groan, head leaning back against the couch. “ no !! a man needs to cry, rory. you’re gonna cry and it’s gonna feel amazing. trust me, i have scheduled crying time every sunday night and it keeps me youthful and gorgeous and stops me from having breakdowns in the middle of the day. ” he met the other’s gaze, smile forming on his face as their fingers tangled together. “ sure, windows open, lights on, whatever you need. it’s very tastefully decorated, i promise. ”

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rory.

Rory frowned at the boop looking at the finger as if it personally offended him. “I told you I don’t cry, I didn’t even cry when my MMA career ended.” He stated. “But yes… I will cry on your shoulder if the need arises.” He shook his head rolling his eyes. “Do you want me to go to the store and get you salt and butter?” He asked as the menu for the movie looped in the background. “Because I will… for you…. but if you tell anyone I did it I’d have to hurt them.” 

“ that’s what i’m saying. you can’t keep your emotions all locked inside for that long. they’ve gotta come out eventually and i bet this is gonna be the movie that does it for you. good, though. ‘cause my shoulders are perfect for crying on, you know. ” he cracked a playful smile. “ god, no. i mean—i am pretty high maintenance but i’m pretty sure i can live with plain popcorn. so, your secret is safe with me. don’t worry about it. next time you can just come to my place because i have better snacks. ”

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rory.

Rory stared at him. “I haven’t cried since I was eleven.” He stated. “But okay, plus that means you can cry on my shoulder.” He winked softly before putting in brokeback and hugging play. He sat down next to Declan taking a small piece of popcorn and cautiously putting it in his mouth. “This tastes good.” He stated. “It’s gotta be horrible for your health.”

“ well then you, my friend, are in for a lovely emotional cleansing, ” declan cooed, giving the other a boop on the nose as he leaned back into the couch. “ pretty sure you’re gonna be the one crying on MY shoulder but i guess we’ll find out. ” leaning forward, he grabbed a couple of pieces of popcorn to pop into his own mouth, biting down with a loud crunch. “ nah, it’s actually not bad when it’s plain like this. ”

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rory.

Rory laughed as he took Declan’s hand and led him to the couch. Putting the popcorn on the table he looked at the movies and then held them up. “Which one should we watch first? The wizard of world of oz or the tent movie?” He asked hamming it up a bit. “I’m totally down for either but which one do you think we should watch first.”

following the other back to the living room, declan was quick to plop down on the couch, crossing one leg over the other and spread both arms across the back. “ uh— ” it was a pretty tough choice, his nose scrunching slightly as he thought it over. “ i guess that depends on when you want to do your crying. i recommend the wizard of oz second to lighten the mood because brokeback mountain is depressing as hell. ”

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rory.

Rory smiled into the kiss as he felt his cheeks heat up. Why was he feeling like this? He had no idea, but somewhere deep inside he knew it was a good thing, and that terrified him. Good things never lasted. Hearing about two guys fucking in a tent he frowned slightly. “That sounds very uncomfortable, but if it’s as iconic as you say I’m sure I will enjoy it.” He grabbed the popcorn out of the microwave and looked at it. “So this is what popcorn smells like?”

another laugh escaped declan’s lips at rory’s reaction to the brief review he’d given. “ it is, but probably not in the way you’re thinking. the tent is the least uncomfortable part. anyway—you’ll find out. ” he waved a hand dismissively. “ that is indeed what popcorn smells like. smells good, huh ?? it tastes better if you put like—salt and butter and shit on it but since you have no FOOD, we can just—eat it. ”

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rory.

Rory looked up at him slightly. “I’m an asshole.” He stated. “I fully admit that I am a horrible person…. but you’re not you’re smart and funny and you do things like make sure I know what the wizard of oz is even though I still don’t have a clue… I will probably still ask, but it’s nice to know that I don’t have to with you.” He smiled softly before tentitively taking his hand. “Now that you know probably more than you wanted… can you show me why broke backed mountain?”

it wasn’t really a funny situation, but declan found himself letting out a little laugh anyway, head tilting back. “ no you aren’t, rory. not to me, anyway. ” he dropped his hand back to his side. “ although, i am smart and funny i’ll give you that. everyone should know the wizard of oz. it’s one of the greatest stories of all time, you’ll understand soon enough. ” declan held his gaze for a moment before he leaned in again, placing another gentle kiss to his lips before leaning back against the counter. “ brokeback mountain is—iconic. it’s a classic love story filled with sexual repression and heartbreak. and jake gyllenhaal and heath ledger fuck in a tent. so, it’s amazing. ”

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rory.

Rory smiled and walked over placing a short brief kiss to his lips before pulling back and looking down at the floor. “I… i guess I should start from the beginning.” He said softly. Rory told Declan everything, from the time his uncle took him till the only person he’d known as his father passing and everything in between. After about ten minutes of his story he wrung his hands awkwardly unable to make eye contact. “You’re… the the first person I’ve ever kissed properly.” He whispered. “And it’s also the reason why I will always ask you if it’s okay.”

declan ducked down slightly to meet the other’s lips, smiling through the short kiss. as rory went on to tell his own life story, declan listened intently, leaned back against the counter with his arms crossed. he was definitely more of a talker than a listener, but he wanted to hear all rory had to say. once he finished, he was pretty speechless, quite frankly. what could he say, anyway ?? there wasn’t much. “ hey— ” he spoke gently, stepping forward and placing a finger under the other’s chin, lifting his head so their eyes could meet. “ i’m sorry that happened to you. no one deserves any of that. you’re a good guy. and, i will reiterate, you DON’T have to ask. ”

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rory.

Rory stared at him for a second. “Because I don’t know how to cook?” He said simply. Looking down at the movies he bit his lip before tossing brokeback gently on the counter. “Look… I feel like… I feel like I should tell you about what happened to me… all of it… but… can I… can I kiss you again? Before? I don’t… you might not want to after I tell you what happened.”

“ well, i’ll have to teach you how at some point, then. or you could just watch the food network that a normal person. anyway, you should still have food, ” he clicked his tongue, shaking his head slowly. as he listened to the other’s nervous words, his brows furrowed slightly. “ what—like right now ?? you know you don’t have to ask, right ?? ” he cracked a tiny smile. “ but hey—you can tell me anything. i’d never judge you for whatever happened. ”

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rory.

Rory walked into the kitchen slowly with the two movies in his hands. He was still trying to read the back of the wizard of oz while he walked. “Sorry.” He said softly. “Still trying to get used to the whole being a human thing.” He said softly. “Why are there pictures in black and white?” He questioned holding out the case. “And I have no idea what a spice rack is. I don’t think we even have food here.”

brows rose as rory joined him, reaching out to take a look at the movies he’d chosen. “ wow, i could have sworn you would have picked bring it on, honestly. ” he shrugged once. he liked all of the movies, considering he had brought them over himself, so he had no problem with any choice he made. “ it’s actually sepia, not black and white. and it’s ‘cause that’s what the beginning of the movie is. the rest is in technicolor, don’t worry. ” he waved a hand dismissively. “ you know—where you keep all of your seasonings ?? how do you not have food ?? ”

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rory.

Rory froze when Declan put the movies on his coffee table. He hadn’t even heard of any of these movies and he had no idea what he would even like. When Declan walked away he picked them up slowly trying to read the backs of them. It was no secret he wasn’t the best reader, he hadn’t learned until he was 16. “Um…” He said as he picked out the wizard of oz and brokeback mountain. “What’s popcorn taste like? Is it healthy?” He questioned.

“ i mean—it can be healthy, but it tastes the best when it’s NOT, ” he called, opening the microwave to throw the unpopped snack inside. “ you gotta stop asking me to describe flavors for you and just trust i have good taste in food, okay ?? ” delcan huffed out a little sigh, leaning against the counter while he waited for it to pop. “ you got a spice rack hiding in here somewhere ?? i gotta know what i’m working with before i make this masterpiece. ”

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@rory-lewis

“ okay, so— “ declan paused, dropping a stack of dvds onto the other’s coffee table without a word of warning after he had been let inside. “ it’s come to my attention that you’re seriously uncultured so i’m forcing you to watch movies with me. these are some of the best movies of all time and i’m not leaving until you’ve watched at least TWO of them. i’ve got carabet, the wizard of oz, bring it on, gone with the wind, carrie, legally blonde, and of course, brokeback mountain. ” his brows rose as he turned on his heel, headed towards the kitchen. “ you pick something, i’ll make the popcorn. ”

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elliot.

“cool, man! consider it a date! she also filled you with haterade, don’t try to cover for her. sounds like something a son would say to cover up his mother’s shady past to me. dude, you should make some memes! i’m sure you’d be a good meme maker.”

“ i will not consider it a date. and i’m about to fill YOU with haterade. that kind of sounds like it could be a sex thing but i promise it’s just an empty threat that has no meaning whatsoever. anyway—no. i’m artist and a performer and a creative genius, not a meme maker. ”

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be honest: hottest person in tallow other than yourself

“ i bet you thought i’d pick a dude but kiko is one hot bitch. ”

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elliot.

“dude, smoke weed with me, we’ll have fun, i promise. i’ve got hella’ snacks and the cable hook up. damn, i can’t believe your parents filled your baby bottle with haterade, you’ve been a hater from the jump. i like bark wahlberg–holy shit, barky bark and the funky bunch! barky bark is good.”

“ sure, i mean—i’ll smoke weed with anyone. i’m not going to turn down free snacks or anything so i’m totally in. hey man, my mom did nothing but fill me with love. she’s an angel and knows nothing of hate so shut your mouth. of COURSE it’s good, because i’m a creative genius. puns are my specialty—they’re my art. ”