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RIP Champ. My friend's kid "TANU" from my village died of Rabies at the age of 3. On the same day, 12/06/2007. 10 years ago my granny expired. My granny was aged. Don't know exactly but She might be in her late 70s or early 80s. I loved her more than anything else in these world. I was her favourite in all of her grandchildren. I miss her. A lot. But this kid. He was only 3. And he died of Rabies. How?? How can a kid die of rabies? Are we that backward that we can't cure Rabies? Or we can't inject vaccines to stray animals? A family's life, a father's dream, a mother's only hope died because of a stray dog. You and me can only talk about it. We will do talk for few days and we'll forget about it but can we imagine what they are going through now? What they will go through? How they will cope with it? How they will survive? How they will pass each day without their only child, on him their whole life was dependent? A mother's love. Whom she kept in her womb for 9 months. We can't feel the pain she had while giving birth to her baby. And now the greatest pain, losing their child. Their only son. A mother's life revolves around her son. How she will sleep tonight? And the coming nights? Till today she used to milk her son and then make him sleep. Then she used to go to sleep next to the baby. If he wakes up in the midnight, she will again milk her and sing a "Lori" to him and try to make him sleep again. But from today onwards, how will she sleep on that bed, on which she used to sleep with his baby boy. And what about that father? A father's dream is his son. Father sees himself in his son. The things he didn't get, he wants to give it to his son. Everything he never got, and never got to do, he wants to give it to his son. The toys, the clothes. Every little thing. What will happen to that father when he will see the clothes he bought for his son? Whom he will earn money for? What about his dreams? He wanted to make his son a doctor or a football player or something else? What he will go through when he'll see other's kids going to school. The school bag he bought for his son, what will happen when he'll see that. Oh god! This is the biggest pain for the parents who see their child die. I can't imagine how they must be feeling or going through now. This kid. Hell of kid. I don't know how many kids are there in my village of that age but this kid. He was something else. God made him to make all of us cry. When we used to go to the ground to play volleyball. This kid used to come with his dad or his uncle. What energy he had. You can see it in this picture. He use to play with us. We use to call him 'Missile Man'. He had this special bond with everyone in the ground. I never seen him crying. He came to this earth to make everyone cry. Otherwise he wouldn't be that special. God. I don't know what to say. May his soul Rest In Peace. 🙏

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Big battle day : Ind vs Pak & ?

Today, it's a big battle day. It's a war day between 🇮🇳 & 🇵🇰. And 🇮🇳 are winning it. But there's an another battle going on. Much larger than that. And nobody cares about it. It's not between two countries, or two nations. It's between 'my heart' and 'someone else's luck'. And a small between 'my heart' and 'my mind'. My 'mind' says to 'heart' that let "someone else's luck" win the the battle. But 'heart' is not ready for it. 'Heart' also wants to win. Because after all its about 'heart'. I also don't want that my 'heart' loses but if you see from my mind's perspective, you have to let the 'mind' win. There's a lot of jumble going on inside me. A huge & way bigger rivalry going on than 🇮🇳, 🇵🇰 's match. (I know there's no bigger contest than that but trust me, there is.) I'm not sure who will win over whom but 🇮🇳 have won the match. "Chalo yaha ka to pata nahi but kahi aur to apni jeet huyi" I'll never ever forget this match. Because it's a decider of my life, my fate and my future. This will turn around my life upside down. I'm shivering inside. I'm so scared. Pls don't let it go. I want it. Pls stay a little longer. Pls. I don't want it to end. Not this sooner. I had so many things planned. Don't ruin it again. I know it happens with me every time but this time I really want it. Pls. I beg you. I won't be able to face it & will not be able to come out of it. So pls. Pls don't ruin my life. Pls god. Do something. Pls. 🙏.

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Numb? Cold hearted?

I don't know what I'm feeling right now. Why am i writing this? I don't wanna do it but there's no other place to go. There's no other person i can share what I'm going through. I'm trying to avoid it. I'm trying to escape it from last few days but now I can't. I can't avoid or escape it anymore I have to face it Every time i think about it, there's a strange feeling. Like something is missing Or like "kuch to chhut raha hai mujhse" Like that feeling when you know that "This is it" it's not going to be the same again. This feelings only giving me that shitty vibes then I can't imagine how will I cope with it. How will I overcome? From tomorrow onwards it will never ever be the same again. One big and precious chapter of my life has come to an end. From tomorrow onwards I will not be the same. My life will not be the same. I don't know what will happen next. What I'll do next. Where I'll be headed next but one thing I know for sure that I'll miss this. This feelings. This thing. All that happened to me. The good, the bad the ugly. I'm gonna miss it a lot for sure. Every little bit of it, the days the minutes the precious seconds I've spent. I'm gonna miss it terribly. Hope everything happens smoothly and without any chaos. Ohh gosh!!! I'm already missing it. God. Pls be with me. Pls!!! 🙏

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Father: Happiest person in the world?

Hello Friends. I went to a park near me last eve. I was seated on the bench gossiping with my mates. I see a father in his 50s, coming with his teenage son who might be in his 20s with badminton kit. I was noticing them and They were playing very well. The father was very good at it. By the way the father was playing I can say that they might be coming everyday. Every time the son scored a point, the father was laughing and smiling. The best laugh or smile after a baby's smile. He was smiling because he was loosing but he was winning "the time"of his son. The best time of his life. He was the happiest man on the planet acc to me. "You go hangout with your friends and buddies, hangout with you dad. He'll get to know where his son spends most of his time." "You go movies with your GF, go for a movie with your dad. He'll get to know about latest trends and new comers." "You go out to have dinner with workmates, go for a dinner with your dad. He'll learn what his son likes to eat." "You take your GF to shopping, buy your father a shirt and he'll wear that shirt to every wedding he attends." "You go to trips with your college mates, go to a short trip with your dad and He'll tell every single person he meets or in your society that 'he saw this and he did that' with his SON." "You spend hours on your phone, teach a thing or two to you dad and he will show to his friends like a boss." Every minute you spend with your dad. He'll never ever forget it. He made you, whatever you are today to make his after life good and happier. All he asks is our time. Nothing more. And I think he deserves our time. So all I ask is spend some time with your parents. It will make them Happy and That happiness can not be described in words or can not be compared with anything else in the world. Thank you. 🙏

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First Rain ☔️

Few questions, if anybody has the answers pls comment down below. Why first rain is special? Why so many emotions pops up in the first rain? Why we love the smell of wet soil "Mitti di khushboo" ? Why we miss the person we love the most in the rain? "Pahli baarish aate hi kyu bahut saare songs, emotions, pyaar umad aata hai? Kyu hamara mann bhi us mor ki tarah baadal dekhte hi apne premi ki yaad me gungunate lagta hai? Why there are lots and lots of songs on rain or "Baarish" on the first place? Why rain is so special for lovers? Why?

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I cried.

She always wanted to seem me cry for her. She always used to say “magarmachh ke aasu” or “crocodile’s tears”. But today for the first time. I cried for her. I had tears in my eyes for her. There was something breaking inside me. I can feel it. Why every time it happens to me only? Why? First in school. Then in college. Why everyone I love leaves me? Is it there fault or mine? I used to think that it’s there fault only but now I can realise that no!! It’s my fault only. There is a pattern. I can feel it. It always happens similarly. These time also it’s the same. Because I never did anything. And these time too I’m not able to or I’m not willing to do anything so. She is going. She’s leaving me. And I’m seating here and letting her go. How can I? How could I? Why I’m not able to stop her? Why I am doing it to myself? We had so many dreams together. So many plans together. We wanted to lots and lots of stuff. But all seems like a dream which will be there in our dreams only.

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Youtube channel with your buddy? No. Don't.

Hello friends. Before starting today’s topic Prayers for Vinod khanna sir. May his soul Rest In Peace. 🙏 So yeah! Let’s begin. So I’m gonna tell you a story. A story about a YouTube channel. Can a channel be a reason to “friends turn foes ”? Yeah it can be!!! A big reason. So my buddy or my bestie or mera jigar ka tukda mera bhai mera dost mera yaar… (infinite) had a YouTube channel. He started posting some cartoon videos and some songs and etc. And it started doing well. No money (because it was not original) but very good amount of views and subscribers. Within a year or less than that he got around 5k subs. So we thought that we’ll make some original videos and we’ll upload it and we’ll be YouTubers! (In my mind I was already a star 😂) So on the launch day of Iphone 7 I didn’t sleep whole night and made a video about it’s specs & little information and stuff and uploaded it. Obviously it didn’t do well. And after that I left that city. He was in a different city and I was also in a different one. But every time we used to talk we were making plans that we’ll do this and that.

And one day I told him that bro I’m sending you this pics. Choose one for our channel and upload it and change the name of our channel from your name to this new name. (My friend’s real name was the name of that channel) So we came up with a name and finalised a pic and told him to update it cause I didn’t have the password. He told me that sure. I’m busy right now I’ll do it later. Few days passed. He didn’t. Asked again, he said I’ll do it don��t worry. I said okay. Few more days/weeks passed. He didn’t. Then he said that if I change it we’ll loose subs and views. I said how can we loose something, we never had. The subs and views are not for our original content. After putting original we can’t change cause people will find it difficult to recognise and remember our channel. But as usual he didn’t. Months passed. One day he made a new channel with the name we decided and kept that picture I sent him as a profile pic. And sent me all the details. I said okay. Cool. I thought we’ll experiment few videos on the new channel and if it gets positive responses then will put it on the old channel. He started uploading cartoon videos to both the channels and the new channel too started growing well.

So one day I came with an idea of a video. I shoot it. I uploaded it. Like that I started posting random videos. I knew that I sucks and I need to improve but I was trying. And we were experimenting so it’s okay. By time we’ll improve and told him to post the videos on both the channels. 2-3 videos he uploaded and after that he didn’t. One of our video went good. Within 3-4 days it was viewed 2-3k time. I told him to upload it immediately on the old channel but he did after 2 days. I was pissed. When I started uploading he guided me that do this and do that. I tried and I was improving. But after few days there was no call no message. I was waiting. I was spending hours on each video. Because I was shooting, editing and uploading by my phone. But no words from him. He thought I was doing shit. I sucks. I also knew that by time I’ll improve man. After a week or two, I called him. Because I was not able to login on the new channel too. He was outside somewhere. Told him to call me back when reach home. He didn’t. Next day in the morning I posted one video. He called me in the noon and started speaking shit about my videos. I listened. I didn’t react. He talked a lot about my videos. I didn’t react. After he cut the call. I deleted all the videos I made (except the one with 5k views). I was pissed a lot. I was burning inside like hell. Because you can’t see how much efforts I was making in each of my video. I was trying hard dude. Can’t you see? No one is perfect from there first video. Every one has to improve themselves. I was also trying. But he, my friend wanted everything perfect. No perfect then no upload. So I followed him and deleted all. I called him all launched all my missiles on him. Told everything I wanted to. Lashed out all my anger then cut the call. He texted me after few hours that you really don’t wanna make videos anymore and all. I replied few times. Ignored most of the time. It all happened yesterday only. So i was thinking that let him suffer for two days then I’ll talk to him. Today he was texting since morning. I called him after noon. And said that whatever you wanna say, say at once now and finish it I don’t want msgs and all. So say it and end it. Because I was frustrated of his messages. I don’t know what he thought of it and said that no reply me on text I won’t tell you on phone. I said, look say it otherwise I’m not replying you. He said okay don’t reply. By that he cut the call. And then he texted me that you think I’m gonna follow you? And blah blah and said fuck off. That’s what I was asking him, that say it on my face why you saying it on messages? Say it on my face or on call. I called him back. He didn’t receive. Around 15 times I called but he didn’t. Even I didn’t have any mistake in all this mess (acc to me) but still I called him for 15 times cause I believe in talking on face. Whatever you wanna say, say it on face and finish it. Don’t know what he believes. Texted him good bye. After that too I called him 4-5 times. But… After all that shit I was so fucking not stable. I was frustrated, I was sad. I don’t know why But I was not feeling well. Whenever someone I’m close to doesn’t talk to me or upset with me, it makes me sad. Until I’m back with that person It doesn’t feel good to me. Thought I’ll write it down then I’ll feel relaxed. So here I am. Feeling like a guy who is ditched by his girl. 🙏

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Chemistry professor 👨‍🏫

Helloooo everyone. How’s it going? It’s been a while since I wrote. I know there are very few waiting/reading this or none may be 😜 but who cares?? Fuck it. I’m still gonna write. So. Where am I? At Jaipur. What am I doing in Jaipur? Actually, i don’t know. I’ll definitely tell you when I’ll figure it out. 😝 Theoretically I’m preparing for government exams at Jaipur to become a teacher. But practically I’m watching videos on YouTube all the time and sometimes porn too (once or twice a week, cmon man don’t judge me “utna to chalta h”) 😝🤐 I don’t know where am I headed. I’m still not able to find out. I’ve sent a few mails to AIB for job/internship/peon/jhaaduwala/chaaywala but they aren’t responding. They don’t know my “chaay” skills and my “jhaadu” skills man. At least they should have invited me for a demo you know. By demo only they will get to know my talent. But anyways it’s there loss, not mine. 😝 (Inside me I’m like, pls yaar ek reply to kar do meri Zindagi savar jayegi. Tumhe paap lagega if reply nahi kiya to bhosdi walo 😢😥)

Meanwhile I met this Sir. I won’t name him. Because he’s a professor of some big college. So I don’t want him to get in any trouble. (Trouble to tab aayega jab tera post koi padega, chutiya saala 🤣) ae kon bola? Kon bola? (Andar se: sach hi to bol raha hai 😂) So yeah I was talking about this sir, He teaches Chemistry in a big reputed government college. He’s a college professor. I’m also a chemistry guy so we met through chemistry. First when we met, I thought he’s a student or something. After sometime I found out that he’s a professor and guys you won’t believe what a man. What a man. I’m a big fan of Hrithik but after meeting this Sir. Hrithik shifted to second place. He got way better persona than Hrithik. After inquiring about him (so i have a big “keeda” in me, everytime I meet new people I wanna know everything about them. Like EVERYTHING) I found out that, He was selected for army but because of some family issues He left that job and after that he started to train policemen and prepared for college professor and got selected. And that’s not it, He runs a dance class too. And you won’t believe me, he’s just about 35-36 years old (don’t know exactly but I guess). So a college professor who give training to policemen and go to college and then after that he goes to teach dance. Like what kind of combination is this? Have you ever seen this kind of combo? Cause I haven’t. You must be thinking that why am I talking about this guy? Am I a gay? And the answer is NO (I have a GF for god sake, which is getting married soon 😢😥😭). But seriously. I’m talking about him because I wanna be like him.

Who would not want to be like Hrithik or better than him. And trust me this guy is way better than Hrithik. (A fan of Hrithik saying that so trust it.) I mean who does that. They are stars, they maintain that kind of physique and persona but the real “Hero” is the person who is a common man and keeps himself equal to stars or better than them. So for me this guy is a real inspiration. Till date I didn’t have any idol but today this guy/professor is for me. The other day I texted him after thinking thousands of times in my mind, that I want some guidance from you sir. He didn’t reply. I thought he must be pissed. I was scared. In mind my I had millions of thoughts, like “Am I a free vella person to guide you? Don’t I have any other work to do? I am a fucking college professor. You think I have opened a career guidance office?” I was so fucking scared. So we were done discussing chemistry. When he was about to leave, my heart beat was faster than that bullet train of Japan (India me aayegi, aayi nahi h abhi tak 😠). He was crossing me and said “Deepak, come.” I was like “what? Fuckkk. Seriously? Are you talking to me bro?” I was following him & thinking “what the heck I did? Why did I text him? What the hell am I gonna say or talk to him? If it’s about chemistry even that time also “fat jaati h meri” this time it’s about me? What will I talk. Fuck. Why did I text him?” All this bullshit was going on in my mind and then He said, yes say. I was like. Sir. Actually. I don’t know. This. Class. (I was fumbling like shit). Then suddenly I said sir this thing (government teacher shit) I’m not able to do. Actually I don’t wanna do it. He asked, where you see yourself then? (Fucked it again, what now?) Like that our conversation started and after few fumbles I started talking and told him about my career plans. And he guided me very well. Without saying my thoughts he understood and guided me very very well. And thanks a lot for that Sir. Actually the real scene was something else. I wanted some advice related to my personal life. Relations and how to handle the status of my personal life which is going through hell at the moment (I’ll talk about it on some other day) but I couldn’t speak about that and all of a sudden I brought the career topic. And he helped me so well with that. But right now I’m thinking that why I wanted to talk to HIM about my personal life? Why would someone go to his teacher or a professor with his personal life issues or GF related problems. I’m still wondering. Don’t I have anyone else to talk about that? Do I? Or not? That’s a big question. But to you sir, I don’t know whether you’ll read this (of course not, cunt) or not but you truly are an inspiration to me. And thank you for your guidance. Hope we will talk about some personal issues as well on some other day. Hope you read this some day. Thanks a lot. 🙏

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Friends 🤔

So!!!! The very first week of New Year is about to end, and I've already lost two of my best friends/ buddies/ bros/anything you name it. I used to value them before my family, and my gf (I'm single rn btw😜). But they , i don't know what they think of me??? Is friendship real?? I doubt it. Because as much as I've experienced, all my friends were/are there with me for convenience only. For there convenience I think. Because I've always lost something never gained anything. I've lost my family time, I've lost my emotions for them, I've lost my gf meetings. For them I think, I lost a lot. Every time it happens to me but I never understand it. It happened before also, it's happening rn and may be it will happen in future too. I don't know when I'm gonna understand the real concept of friendship, in which I don't have to loose anything. Or may be someone will understand me and spare me, thinking "he's a nice guy, I better shouldn't disappoint him." May be someday. Some another day. Not today. But I believe that "Everything happens for a reason" so may be this is also happening for a reason. Let's find out what's the reason behind it. Till that time keep wasting your time and emotions for the peoples who doesn't deserve it. PS: I want my friends back. They are far more precious to me than anything else in the entire world. Hope they'll understand it. 👋

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HNY2017

Helloooo everyone!!!! A very happy new year to all!!! It's been a wonderful 2016 with lots of ups and downs, especially downs. Lost two of my family members. Cried a lot. Laughed a bit. So over all a good with lots of bad. So about New Years Eve. It's been 6-7 years in Mumbai but never been to a Pub, never slept on a railway station, didn't do any night outs. I did this all in one night. It's been a great experience. First time went to partying, 10PM-3AM I was just dancing. Gosh!!! Hell of a night it was!! Lots of happiness, dancing, booze 🍷 (I don't drink btw) and girls. People say party means alcohol 🍺. Without alcohol there's no party. But I don't agree. I went to a party but didn't drink and enjoyed a lot!! There were few like me, like my bro and few others. So there were two couples and one stag (that was me 😢). But enjoyed more-than them. They were busy in each other but I was busy with all the girls!! 😂 That's the benefit of single life you know, you can checkout any girl you want. And enjoy yourself. You don't have to pamper anyone, you don't have to care about your girl like how much she's drunk, if she's drunk then 'to' you are gone. Like I've seen lots of guys who were just taking care of their girls. At the end of the party, most of the guys were carrying there girls to home. Because they weren't awake, or they were drunk. I was like what the hell. What about the guy's new year ?? You ruined it girls. Ruined it big time!!! So that's the beauty of being single. Anyways. So that was it. Came to Mumbai for New Year and was thinking about that "is it worth to waste that much money?" But hell yeah!!! It was worth. Best New Year Ever!! Thanks bro!!! It was all because of you. I couldn't think of all this without you. PS: Thank you Dad. I spend money, because you earn it!! So thank you so much for allowing me to do this all crazy stuff!! Love you 😘.

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#morningbeauty #powailake #awesomemumbai

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#ktm #ktmlover #rideordie #wanderlust #trippyowl

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Beauty of mumbai!!! #auto #wanderlust (at Mumbai Pune Expressway)

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When will i take off??? #airports (at Jaipur International Airport)

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Dad

I love my dad more than anyone/anything else in the world. Like he is "the" best father in the entire world. Since childhood, i always wanted to be like my father. Like SRK in KKKG. 😜 But seriously, i want to be like. And i want him to be known by every single person I know and by every single person I don't know. I want to make him famous. Like, jab bhi wo kahi jaye baahar to log unhe bole ke Deepak inka ladka hai!! That much famous I want to make them. I don't know how to do it. I still couldn't figured it out. But I will. One day definitely I will. Can anyone help me to figure it out what should I do which interests me! Not like "bhed-chaal". I'm not sure what I'll do. But one thing I'm sure about is that I will make him famous. PS: I love my Dad!!! A lot!! Like more than this entire universe.

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Fuck it!!! I'm going!!

I wanted to go to Mumbai. I was thinking about it from past few days. But today I finally decided. Fuck it! I'm going!! I've booked my tickets and I'm going!! Mumbai I'm coming!!!!!!!! Wooohooooiooo I don't know why I get so much exited whenever I plan to go to Mumbai! Ajeeb si khushi hoti h Mumbai jaane ka naam lete hi. And I'm getting those feelings right now. Nervous to meet my family. Because my Pops doesn't know I'm coming. 🤞🏻 So yeah!! That's it!!! I'm goooiiinnnggggggggg!!!!!!! So happy!!!!! 👋