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As an autistic person, you can literally tell someone "I mean this genuinely and literally and this is all genuinely good faith. I mean this all completely neutrally, I'm not implying anything else and this is all extremely literal and good faith" and someone will still misconstrue you in ways you never thought was possible.

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His nonchalant murder and slut waist have captivated me

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i cant express how much i hate fucking bees 

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Hit the hay so hard last night that i found the needle

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Maybe people would like me more if I was a dog with simpler needs that I didn’t have to voice

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Hey maybe if I knowingly push myself past my limits and collapse from exhaustion and sickness surely then people will realise how fucked up my brain is right and maybe then ill get some actual care and understanding from my neurotypical mates who just don’t. Get it

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Autistic trauma is so devastating and yet so corny. You'll be doing everything perfectly normal in public but someone will sneer at you and you'll spend an hour agonizing over yourself like "fuck what if no one told me it was Don't Wear Yellow Thursday"

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the thing that always gets me ESPECIALLY about autistic representation in media is that we are universally portrayed as happy-go-lucky, whimsical children, completely oblivious to the fact that the world constantly judges and scorns and HATES us.

We notice. I noticed. The reason I am as messed up as I am today is because i spent 20 LONG years in an environment where every day i was subjected to that. To noticing.

what an absolutely neurotypical view of us. Coddling themselves, getting to act like the way they treat us is fine because we don't understand that our peers dont respect us. Why would we? We're so subhuman to them, it's like asking if your cat notices you playfully insulting it.

Every autistic person I've ever met is on some level bitter and angry and TRAUMATIZED at their upbringing. Of having to go through school as the laughing stock, as the weirdo with no friends who no one wants to talk to, as the animal in the corner you can make do cheap tricks so they can experience some Simulacra of what genuine human connection is.

Now tell me, does it sound like I didn't notice?

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Adults: Following rules is good, not following rules is bad

Little me: Okay :] *follows a rule*

Adults: Oh my god look at this loser. He doesn't know that this rule is Secretly Okay To Not Follow. Dumbass. Let's all laugh at him

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served my duty as an autistic artist and made a bunch of autism creature reaction images

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i just need to have more rules for myself. more rules and limits. surely that will help me

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autism is not a horrible disease that ruins lives and tears apart families. elon musk, who is autistic and an evil billionaire who doesn't pay taxes, has ruined thousands of lives, and whose family hates him, is a statistical outlier adn should not have been counted

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when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

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“Why’d you do that?” Please remember that I am using what I’ve seen in humans to mimic them

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my first favorite hobby is yapping. second is being extremely quiet and not talking ever at all ever.