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Hi I uh..im 🎃 and well..in my usual account I.. noticed i lost..contact with you..at first I hoped it was a glitch but..then I realized I couldn't even after months even look at your account and..I thought I could move on but..I guess when someone means a lot its a bit hard to ignore so I made a new..temporary account i guess for closure and well im..just idk what I want outta this maybe answers to why im not able to contact you or..maybe just..a chance to see your account..one more time or even just I guess I obviously do hope this doesn't mean we arent friends anymore but I guess id rather just have answers at least

-🎃

Hello 🎃 :) Don't worry we are still friends! if you want to be atleast, we may have just had a slight paranoia + anxiety attack around that time, and we blocked quite a few people, mostly fearing our Darling would be upset at us for the relations we were making, hence why we stopped using this blog entirely for a bit, and fearing a mixture of unreasonable thoughts like that our friends would steal our darling or one of our friends was our ex under a new alias, we also... completely stopped using discord during this time and only started to again now

we're very likely going to move onto a new blog now that we're out of... that...

but we're very sorry you got hit in the crossfire, we did want to warn you, but we didn't want to worry you either, we have these phases often due to our bpd, usually going from God i love people people are great -> people are out to get me i need to self isolate -> everythings pointless im so alone -> i need to make friends again and then loop

if you wish, we can give you our discord so you can stay in contact, we have a rule now that we can't block discord friends without permission from our primary protector :)

its @\walking.to.nowhere incase we don't open this account for a while again

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what’s your sexuality?

this was asked a month ago, but pansexual ❤️

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At first my self harm wasn’t too intense but now my razor blade speaks to me like green goblin.

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Why aren't you all mine... why must I share...

born to say “i hope they fucking die” forced to say “omg i hope you have funnn :3” whenever they go out with their friends

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born to say “i hope they fucking die” forced to say “omg i hope you have funnn :3” whenever they go out with their friends

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born to say “i hope they fucking die” forced to say “omg i hope you have funnn :3” whenever they go out with their friends

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born to say “i hope they fucking die” forced to say “omg i hope you have funnn :3” whenever they go out with their friends

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Guess who lives

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Let me adore you unconditionally, my little doll. nothing about you has to be changed or fixed to be worthy of my obsession. the way you love doesnt have to be watered down. your feelings dont have to be pushed aside and your standards don't have to be lowered. give me your softness and let me keep it safe. give me your attitude and let me match it. give me your clinginess and ill never let you leave my side.

they couldn't adore what was right infront of them, but i can worship all that you are.

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Like romeo and juliet.

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baby, i'm a stalker and u dont even know it. i found all of ur accounts and u still tease me about not giving them to me <3

my poor, sweet, naive darling <33

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"never kill yourself" ❌ passive, inhibitory, restrictive

"let's all kill ourselves" ✅ active, communal, actionable

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2 U R very afraid of being da annoyin

Ur trauma hs affected U in da followin ways number 1 U R annoyin

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how it feels to say the weird thing

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Why do you even need other people? I’m right here. I’ll do anything just please… rely only on me. Forget about everyone else.