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Attention

Given immediately to whoever needs it the most

You want it

Eveyone does

They crave the sight of going 'viral' or gaining popularity

Some say

'Fake it till ya make it'

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Others bully those around to lift themselves up

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Even more just go with whatever is 'trending'

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Why bother

Is the attention worth it

Being the center of the spotlight may seem fun

But what happens if the light gets too bright?

Too hot?

Too eyecatching?

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Pain, loneliness, fake friends, fake personalities, fake everything

Trying so hard to just keep going

Never stopping

Always needed to do the next thing

Helping others with injures before looking at youself and your broken and twisted body

No hope

No thoughts

Just breathe

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Lonely

A common feeling people tend to have

Being left home without anyone

Being a only child

Being single

Having no friends

No one to talk to

Drives people crazy

Talking to themselves to hold the shred of humanity left inside them

So many are out there

At the touch of out fingertips,

Yet they linger knowing that if they hit send

That they would break

Crack and a wave of tears and emotions would pour through

Pour through the walls that you built so high to protect yourself

To make sure that no one is able to see the true you

So they hesitate

And wait for the brain to make a choice

But the brain is conflicted too

No message was send

Because you dont want to worry or involve others for if they saw who you really were

They wouldnt stay

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Jealousy

Am i jealous of her?

Her looks, her fashion, her talents?

Do i look up to her?

Am i jealous that she is dating someone else?

Ive been longing for so long

All my friends have been in at least one

But yet

Here i am

Alone

Hopeless

Sad

And

Jealous

All brewing

In me

The mixing pot of life

My own little storm cloud

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Alone

A feeling that is so familiar

Yet we hate

Being left out

Forgotten

Gone

Tears, flowing like rivers

Starting nowhere

Ending nowhere

Alone

I hate it

We hate it

Everyone here hates it

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I miss the old days

Not worrying about failing or success

But just walking around with you

Listening to your complex world of imagination

Yet its been years

We rarely talk

I miss the old days

I miss hanging out with you

I miss talking with you

I miss you

My friend

I go back to those days of old when im sad

I remember almost everything you said

But its useless now

I have new friends and you have none

I miss the old days

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We played together

We sang together

We walked together

And yet

When you said you liked me

I felt happy

But now

Youve changed and are not

Yourself anymore

I find myself questioning it

If saying different things would have changed anything

But no

I cant control who you became

I can just miss the old you

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Lost

Looking for knowledge

From afar

Too lost to go back

Why did I choose this path

I mean

How can you continue

If your so far away

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But what is the point

To search for something

So far away

So lost

Why not give up?

Throw it all away

Let these thought but nothing but that

Thoughts drifting in the plane of the mind

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Long forgotten to time and ruin

Lives a story not yet told

But when I get my hands on it

Oh the power I will hold

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Stories

Collections of books stacked as high as I can see

Stories long forgotten come back to life

Stories some wish to be forgotten

But me?

I am in search for one

One that brings the past, present and future

To life