despair-tea
despair-tea
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"Reality can destroy the dream; why shouldn't the dream destroy reality?"Fennel, 33, fem. (she/her)Blue Mage / Red Mage IRL. I'm just a small part of this world.(BUT NO ONE CAN BREAK ME)押しかけ女房系 My supercool blog where I post daily fight game clips: @lars-canyon
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Bunny Bridget by Buttercream RobotKisser ⋆˙⟡ COMMS OPEN!! (2/3)@supacreamss
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ちょっとインパクトがあった出来事
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despair-tea · 3 days ago
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you greedy little pig. i saw you overextend your attack string. you deserve to get punished by the last giant stomping its dirty toes all over you.
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despair-tea · 4 days ago
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Talim drawing, because I want to manifest a Soul Calibur announcement at Evo.
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Boogiepop Phantom (2000) Opening
Yuudachi by Shikao Suga
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despair-tea · 5 days ago
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Running on 3 hours of sleep energy
(I dont smoke anymore but GOD the urge has been strong lately. Anytime i get real stressed and depressed it hits. Living my worst life vicariously through this heh)
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despair-tea · 5 days ago
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Last night and the night before I've been having some manic dreams that were full of a whirl of images clearly related to stuff that's been on my mind lately (why did Nobbu appear on the terminal at my job to represent my birthday... I mean I get that my boss in the dream was obsessed with fgo from other evidence but-). That's pretty different from usual. Maybe a more human-poi type of dream?
Last night in particular there was a moment where I was trying to figure out what some strange people wanted with me and my wife, it was early morning at the restaurant I worked at in the dream, and my clothes were all covered with soot from some adventure I'd just had. And while I'm occupied with that, I turn around and there's a 40-top group that just arrived and I'm the only person in the restaurant. Like fuck, dude.
Last week there was a moment at the end of a dream that stuck with me - I was in a room full of friends, we were doing karaoke or something. And there was a girl who was stalking me standing in the doorway. She hadn't seen that I was in the room coz of where I was, but she was just standing stock still in front of the door. So I motioned to a friend to shut the door. But I got the feeling that this stalker hadn't gone away.
For whatever reason, this was a door with a window and a curtain, like a house's front door, so I got the idea to sneak over and peek thru the window from below the curtain. And she was still there, standing stock-still, nose pressed against the glass. At first, she didn't notice me.
And then we locked eyes - I felt a shudder hit me thru the base of my spine as I woke up.
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I feel like Marie-chan from My Dear Marie, haha. After 20 years of not having any dreams, I wanna just gush about every little image that passes through my head at night. It's such a novel experience still.
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despair-tea · 5 days ago
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Critically acclaimed visual novel Fate/hollow ataraxia (sequel to critically acclaimed internationally bestselling visual novel Fate/Stay Night) is releasing on Steam and Nintendo Switch with English Chinese and Japanese language options on 7 august 2025 JST
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despair-tea · 6 days ago
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Well, maybe that's true. But I can still visit you now.
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I will. See you tomorrow. Let me lay my gripes on you next time. You don't have to listen but it would be nice if you did.
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Es, I'm tired.
#maybe i was wrong to try to get closer to other people. maybe i was better off alone.#do you ever feel this way?#lately i've been thinking this myself#but i know i can't make it by myself#maybe that's a gutless way to be#or maybe it's true that no one can truly live alone#i just feel wrapped up in stuff that's got nothing to do with me sometimes#other people's expectations or their sore points i can't keep up with#it's difficult for me to navigate#i still want to be honest and kind. i want to be forthright always#but maybe i'm tired of it a little. maybe my sails are flagging#a little while ago i was tired of myself so i retreated#but lately i'm impatient with other people - dismissive and avoidant where normally i'd try to be open and caring#maybe i'm tired of everyone else a bit#i don't know how to reconcile that feeling#it's not that i love the people in my life any less or less genuinely#but my battery keeps running dry#...no- i'm doing better than last month for sure#you don't have to worry about *that*#i even got back to studying like before#i don't know what's really wrong... or maybe nothing's wrong and it's okay to call like this a bit#it doesn't have to be forever but i can be grumpy for now#thanks for listening es#i missed you. sorry i don't make time to see you like i used to.#still#i keep a spot for you by my side always#just the whim of my selfish heart#if i could have perfect mindfulness like the goddess of fortune...#well#i guess there's no sense trying to be exactly like that
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despair-tea · 6 days ago
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Commission for @crystalblisters!
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despair-tea · 6 days ago
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Was a little irritated so I had a hard time falling asleep
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despair-tea · 6 days ago
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TODAY!
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Armored Core for Answer [Hoshino Kouta] — Someone is Always Moving On the Surface
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THE GUNDAM SISTERS 🔥🔥🔥
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despair-tea · 6 days ago
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clutches my cursed arm to prevent it from typing out a message to a straight trans girl that says “I need to kill your boyfriend”
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