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That day, I sat in silence, reflecting wondering whether everything I had fought for and let go of was truly enough, truly over. Not a single day passed without my thoughts returning to it. I closed my eyes and exhaled deeply letting the memories spin and swirl around me once more and when I opened my eyes,I looked straight ahead toward the radiant sky above as if the universe was gently affirming that the path I chose was the right one, and that it, too, approved.

Perhaps the fight really was enough, perhaps the sorrow had run its course. Stop tormenting yourself, don’t let the darkness creep back in. It is at this very point that everything becomes clear, what has passed was never a waste but a vital lesson a reminder to love myself more deeply. No one will rescue me but me.

“Thank you for having once fought with everything you had. Now it’s time to close that chapter and start writing a new one.. one more beautiful, and more full of joy than the last.”

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I remember that day too well, something about it felt… off. The usual felt unfamiliar like we were pretending things were normal when they clearly weren’t. Everything was a mess. Voices louder than they should’ve been. Arguments flying across the room. No one listened. No one cared to calm down. Only shouting, blaming, swearing.

And I just sat there. Still. Quiet. Like if I moved, I’d shatter.

Even now.. I’m stuck in the same loop,

What really happened that day?

Why did they walk out with no answers?

Was I meant to be left in this place?

Was this my story all along?

I don’t have it figured out and maybe I never will, but damn… it still aches.

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Between the Silence.

The apartment never felt truly empty.

Pagi itu ia berjalan menuju dapur untuk membuat sarapan, namun belum sampai sana, langkahnya terhenti saat ia melihat lebih lama ruang tengah yang ia lewati.. dalam keheningan, ia hampir bisa merasakan tawa mereka masih menari-nari di dinding. Jejak samar dari aroma ruangan favorit mereka masih menggantung di udara.. memudar namun menolak untuk benar-benar hilang.

Setiap sudut ruangan menyimpan sisa-sisa keberadaannya. Sofa tempat ia biasa duduk masih menyisakan lekukan, mug retak favoritnya masih bertengger di dekat jendela. Bahkan keheningan di dalam ruangan terasa bukan seperti kekosongan, melainkan kehadiran yang tak berbentuk.. sebuah kesedihan yang diam dan sangat menyakitkan.

Saat dirinya sudah berada didapur, ia kembali diam memperhatikan setiap sudut ruangan itu, benda-benda kecil seolah membeku dalam waktu. Gelas anggur yang hanya tinggal satu, sweater yang tergantung di kursi makan, dan foto mereka yang sengaja dibalik seakan tidak ingin dilihat namun tak sanggup disingkirkan.

Pintu kulkas masih memajang sisa-sisa kehidupan yang pernah mereka jalani bersama. Daftar belanja, catatan kecil, coretan spontan, semua ditulis berdua. Sebuah bukti diam dari rencana-rencana yang tak lagi terwujud.

‘What about the plans we made?’

Kini ia berdiri sendirian disana, diselimuti keheningan yang penuh makna.. tanpa sadar airmata menetes dari kedua sudut matanya, membuat ia semakin membeku dihantam rasa sakit yang luar biasa.

Ⓒ Varlo Calderón.

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What once bloomed in vibrant hues has withered into spectral remnants I now sift through alone—our love, once luminous, deteriorated not in a blaze but a slow, imperceptible fade.

: It’s about thinking everything is fine without them, but over time, you start to realize they’ve always been in your thoughts and heart. And that’s when you truly understand they mean everything to you.

: The song reflects the feeling of being quietly haunted by memories of a past love. No matter how much you try to move on, some memories still echo in your heart.

: It reflects the aching desire to turn back time, to make things right, and the painful realization that some things can’t be undone. It’s a quiet confession of love that came too late filled with longing, regret, and a hope for one more chance.

: The song reflects the quiet ache of loving someone you know you’re about to lose. It’s about holding on to the final moments, wishing time would stop before goodbye becomes reality.

: It tells of a love that left too soon, yet still lingers in the small corners of your day. The pain is not just in the loss, but in how much of your soul still waits for what’s gone.

: The song conveys the sorrow of realizing you’ve hurt someone you loved, and no matter how much you regret it, the damage can’t be undone.