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okay i have remade this blog and followed the people i want to for now, mostly their main blogs but either way, this blog is now inactive! 

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also i’m remaking soon bc i have too many people i never talk to and it just stresses me out i won’t be giving out the new url here 

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a reminder that if you write akali, draven, darius, aphelios or kayle and you follow me i will not be following u back as i already have developed relations with ophelia’s versions <3

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑    𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐒    .  

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟏    :    𝐓𝐇𝐄    𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄    .

NAME:  valarie durare EYE COLOUR:  crimson HAIR STYLE / COLOUR:  cut softly somewhere between their jaw and their shoulder  ,  with a gentle natural wave to it  .  a dark brown that appears black in most lighting  ,  they nearly always appear with some kind of flower attached to it  . HEIGHT:  5'6" / 167cm CLOTHING STYLE: valarie’s style isn’t the easiest thing to define  ,  those mostly dark or neutral coloured shirts and trousers  .  sometimes they’re more covered up and sometimes they lean towards more feminine attire  ,  depending on mood and situation  .  a constant is the accessories of gold necklaces and earrings  .  they avoid bracelets and rings  ,  though have taken to wearing a silver ring band to stay in contact with li sen  .  before their hair was cut short  ,  they’d have it braided with a silk scarf looped through  .  they’re never seen without the hilt of a retractable weapon either  . BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE:  from their own perspective  ,  they believe their eyes are their best feature  .  the way that they pull the right people in and push others away is their favourite thing about them  .  though a clear marker of what they really are  :  a vampire  ,  they don’t mind the target that the colour puts on their back  ,  they’ve faced the claret orders before  .  

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟐    :    𝐓𝐇𝐄    𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄    .

FEARS: losing omen  ,  emerei or li sen  ,  facing velvet again  ,  going too far to save one person  ,  becoming selfish GUILTY PLEASURE:  classic literature  ,  poetry  ,  theatre  ,  long car rides with no destination in mind BIGGEST PET PEEVE:  people that hurt others for their own gain AMBITIONS FOR THE FUTURE:  find a way to be happy again

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟑    :    𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒    .

FIRST THOUGHTS WAKING UP:  they never get the luxury of being able to sleep  ,  or rest  .  their mind is always active  .  after whatever form of rest they can take  ,  though  ,  currently it’s how to deal with the issues they have  .   WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT MOST:  as of the last session i had in diamond city  ,  all they can think about is the fact velvet poses a clear threat to the party  .  and keeping li sen safe  ,  whatever that action might require  .   WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT BEFORE BED:  whether everyone is safe  .  and if not  -  what could they have done to change that outcome  .   WHAT THEY THINK THEIR BEST QUALITY IS:  their loyalty  .  they would do anything for the people they care about  ,  even if it leads to something morally questionable  . 

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟒    :    𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓’𝐒    𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑   ? SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: single TO BE LOVED OR RESPECTED: respected BEAUTY OR BRAINS:  brains DOGS OR CATS:  cats

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟓    :    𝐃𝐎    𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘    …

LIE:  sometimes  ,  more so nowadays  .  as of three days ago in campaign  ,  they’re indirectly responsible for the death of a hundred and sixty civilians  .  as if they could tell their friends or li sen about that  .  BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES:  not often enough  ,  especially not at the moment  .  omen almost died in their arms and they were entirely helpless  .  and valarie gave up their theoretical soul to save li  .  BELIEVE IN LOVE:  yes . WANT SOMEONE:  two people . omen being the first  ,  they regret ever breaking up with him over something that could have been discussed  ,  and then their pride being too great to back out of their decision  .  but they love him  .  and they wish they had fixed it sooner  ,  because now they’ll never get the opportunity  .  at the very least they know they’ll still have him in their life as their best friend  .  and li sen is the second  ,  it is tentative and shaky  -  mostly because of their feelings for omen  .  they don’t want to commit to something and hurt him when it turns out they just love omen more than they can li  .  they enjoy him as whatever they are now  ,  but they have no idea if they can ever give him what he wants  .  

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟔    :    𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄    𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘    𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑    …

BEEN ON STAGE:  nope DONE DRUGS:  yes  ,  most recently omen and val spent a day with the chainsaw gang  CHANGED WHO THEY WERE TO FIT IN:  when valarie was younger  ,  they had no choice to try and be subtle with what they were  ,  with the lack of control they had  .  nowadays  ,  they are entirely unapologetically themself  ,  they don’t often try to hide their vampiric features either  .  they’re not too afraid of what could come after them  ,  as long as they don’t touch their friends  .

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟕    :    𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐒    .

FAVOURITE COLOUR:  dark blue FAVOURITE ANIMAL:  cats  ,  though they’re partial to rabbits too FAVOURITE BOOK:  jane eyre FAVOURITE GAME: they’ve never really played games  ,  probably something omen showed them once

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟖    :    𝐀𝐆𝐄    .

DAY THEIR NEXT BIRTHDAY WILL BE:  18/02/2022 AC HOW OLD WILL THEY BE:  232

𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑    𝟎𝟎𝟗    :    𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇    𝐓𝐇𝐄    𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄    .

I LOVE:  having time alone I FEEL:   guilty I HIDE:  the mistakes i continue to make  I MISS:  safety I WISH:  that i could protect them

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WE BELONG Dove Cameron, 2020

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i’m just thinking about how much omen changed valarie in simply two years of them being together .  three years ago  ,  valarie wouldn’t have risked trusting or allowing anyone to become close to them  .  and now they have a group of adventuring friends  ,  and someone they care for deeply (  other than omen  )  whom they only met a month ago  ,  and they would pursue something but respect him too much to hurt him with their unresolved feelings for omen  .

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@unholyshe   asked   :    “but i couldn’t… i couldn’t stop being around you, and loving you, and wanting you. i still can’t stay away.”   [   from omen   ,  to val   ]

        valarie was stuck at the confession  ,  they never expected the confession after the last months  .  they’d even come to accept it  ,  omen would always be their best friend  ,  no matter how many other people he loved  .  but it had been so long that they had wanted to hear words like this from him  ,  they had long come to know their feelings  ,  but was it too late to hear  ?  they weren’t sure .  but the silence had already dragged out for too many moments between the two  ,  they stepped towards him  .  their hand finding it’s way to his own as it had done many times before today  .  “  you make it sound like you wished you could have stayed away from me  ,  o  ?  “  they question  ,  that’s not how they really feel  .  but if their heart could beat  ,  it would be racing  .  “  i  -  you’ve waited so long to say all that  ?  “  a half  -  hearted laugh would fall from their lips  .  “  i don’t want you to go anywhere  .  i’m not me without you  ,  omen  .  “  

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a court of mist and fury sentence starters

“i fell in love with you, smartass, because you were one of us.”

“when you spend so long trapped in the darkness, you find the darkness begins to stare back.”

“there are good days and hard days for me—even now. don’t let the hard days win.”

“if you were going to die, i was going to die with you.”

“you’re a real bastard, you know that?”

“there are different kinds of darkness. there is the darkness that frightens, the darkness that soothes, the darkness that is restful. there is the darkness of lovers, and the darkness of assassins. it becomes what the bearer wishes it to be, needs it to be. it is not wholly bad or good.”

“i’m thinking… i’m thinking i was a lonely, helpless person, and i might have fallen in love with the first thing to show me a hint of kindness and safety.”

“i am broken, and healing, but every piece of my heart belongs to you.”

“i would have torn apart the world to get you back.”

“i’m thinking that i look at you and feel like i’m dying. like i can’t breathe. i’m thinking that i want you so badly i can’t concentrate half the time i’m around you, and this room is too small for me to properly bed you.”

“i hope they all burn in hell.”

“the issue isn’t whether they loved you, it’s how much. too much. love can be a poison.”

“many atrocities have been done in the name of the greater good.”

“did you enjoy the sight of me kneeling before you?”

“you gave up on me. you were my friend.”

“life is better when you’re around. and look how lovely your handwriting is.”

“i know you—more than you realize, i think—and i don’t believe for one damn minute that you’re remotely fine with being a pretty trophy for someone who sat on their ass for nearly fifty years, then sat on their ass while you were shredded apart—”

“come on. we don’t bite. unless you ask us to.”

“but i couldn’t… i couldn’t stop being around you, and loving you, and wanting you. i still can’t stay away.”

“i’d much rather you licked my wounds for me.”

“you decide your fate—your choices. not me.”

“i’m surprised there aren’t more mirrors in this house, since you seem to love looking at yourself so much.”

“i heard you begging for someone, anyone, to get you out. i heard you say no.”

“i will kill anyone who harms you. i will kill them, and take a damn long time doing it. go ahead. hate me—despise me for it.”

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❥     𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐀𝐑𝐓  𝐎𝐅  𝐃𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐓𝐘    [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

add context to your needs .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

“   it  seems  that  you  get  impossibly  more  beautiful  every  single  day .   ” “   walk  with  me  in  the  garden  for  a  while .   ” “   do  you  recognize  any  constellations  tonight ?   ” “   i  notice  that  you  keep  looking  at  my  lips .   you’re  criminally  unsubtle .   ” “   i  think  the  kids  are  awake  …   ” “   you’re  hogging  the  blanket .   ” “   you  look  too  beautiful  right  now ,   it’s  too  dangerous  to  make  direct  eye  contact .   ” “   i  painted  you .   ” “   i  can  feel  you  staring  at  me .   ” “   will  you  wash  my  hair  ?   ” “   stop  worrying ,   you  look  perfect .   ” “   you  always  smell  so  sweet .   ” “   i  can’t  do  the  dishes  if  you  keep  on  hugging  me .   ” “   well ,   you’re  extra  clingy  today .   ” “   nothing  will  hurt  you  as  long  as  i’m  here .   ” “   tell  me  that  story  again .   ” “   i  just  want  to  hear  your  voice  until  i  fall  asleep  …   ” “   here ,   have  my  jacket .   ” “   anyplace  with  you  feels  like  home  to  me .   ” “   i  just  can’t  stop  thinking  about  you .   even  when  you’re  in  the  next  room .   ” “   honestly ,   you’re  hopeless  without  me .   ” “   i  smell  something  burni—   are  you  trying  to  make  breakfast ?   ” “   i  ran  you  a  bath .   get  in  it .   ” “   this  necklace  reminded  me  of  you .   i  thought  you  would  like  it .   ” “   is  it  hot  in  here ,   or  is  that  just  you ?   ” “   can  i  rest  my  head  in  your  lap ?   ” “   i  love  it  when  you  call  me  that .   ” “   there’s  no  greater  blessing  than  looking  at  my  child   &   seeing  your  eyes .   ” “   let’s  just  get  in  the  car   &   drive  somewhere .   anywhere .   ” “   i  missed  you  at  work  today .   ” “   shh ,   just  stay  still .   let  me  hug  you  for  another  few  minutes .   ” “   do  you  remember  this  song ?   ” “   i’ll  give  you  a  massage .   ” “   you  can  just  say  that  you  want  to  cuddle ,   you  know .   ” “   let  me  braid  your  hair .   ” “   i  just  can’t  believe  that  you’re  mine ,   now .   ” “   no ,   you’re  not  going  anywhere .   you  have  a  fever .   ” “   do  you  still  think  about  all  the  crazy  stuff  we  used  to  do  together ?   ” “   every  time  i  wake  up   &   you’re  there  next  to  me ,   i  wonder  if  i’m  still  dreaming .   ” “   i  never  really  cared  about  impressing  anyone  until  i  met  you .   ” “   did  you  just  light  a  candle ?   ” “   can  you  zip  this  up  for  me ?   ” “   how  do  you  expect  me  to  cover  all  of  these  marks  you  left  on  me ?   ” “   you’re  so  cute  when  you  smile  like  that .   ”

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velvet  ,  unholyshe  . 

lips curl to form a careful , perfectly composed smile . for so long she has played the role of the bubbly , sweet maiden that it has become second nature to her now  ;  the actress plays her part to such perfection , it is difficult to doubt the intentions of one who believes her own lies . a honeyed giggle spills from her lips before the kiss , so sweet the taste that she lingers at the corner of val’s mouth to share in such bliss .  “  mmm , i do suppose you’re right about that . how long has it been since her last spree in the diamond ward  ?  ”  idle chatter makes time for her hands to meet in the small of valarie’s back , holding them close . they melt so easily into her touch that it is difficult to feel remorse for her actions  –  it seems they are so desperate , anyone could lull them into such security .  

“  i shall let emerei know that we are otherwise engaged , then ,  ”  she hums a soft laugh , before pulling two fingers briefly to her temple . utility magic has always been her go - to , so much so that a simple message takes no more energy than it might take one to blink .  “  there , the night is ours . and… since it is still so young , might i invite you for a drink or two  ?  there should still be champagne in the fridge , i had bertram bring some up before i slept .  ”

         crimson eyes struggled to move from her face  ,  they were so captivated and held by her presence  .  they were certain that even an a crowd of thousands  ,  velvet would be able to command their attention with little effort at all  .  valarie was shy  ;  less so now  ,  but sometimes they wondered whether they should have so blatantly worn their heart on their sleeve for velvet  .  they would think that surely they bored someone like her  .  and yet  ,  despite these doubts never being vocalised  ,  velvet always quelled them before valarie could even give them further thought  .  “  i truly cannot keep track of where she buys all of this from  ,  vel  .  what matters is it keeps her distracted  .  “  they’d laugh  ,  one of their hands coming to rest against her cheek  ,  gently caressing to brush her hair backwards  .  

“  i cannot deny you  ,  vel  .  i’ll join you  ,  “   they’d murmur  ,  eyes only just sliding away to look towards the fridge  .  they might have sighed at the idea of having to leave velvet’s closeness for a short while  ,  had they not known they would have her to themselves for the rest of the evening  .  “  it seems like you’ve started to fit in here  ,  hm  ?  no complaints from him to bring it up  ?  “  they’d ask  ,  slipping out of her grasp to fetch the bottle and two glasses  .  “  i knew you would of course  ,  but he’ll still complain even when i ask for him to do something  .  “  they’d give another gentle laugh as they slide a full glass across the counter  .  

“  where should we go first  ?  “

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angel 💕

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velvet   ,  unholyshe  .

“  oh , valarie  !  ”  a shock of pink appears at the top of the stairs ,  “  emerei told me to remind you about the gathering tomorrow evening . she said you absolutely can’t wear what you wore last time , or the time before .  ”  the light tapping of slippers against the stairs rings through the otherwise silent penthouse , mood lighting changing with the flick of a wrist to announce velvet’s arrival . she’s hardly used to waking up late in the day to accommodate valarie and emerei’s schedules , but her energy remains the same nonetheless . beaming , she approaches her partner and wraps a hand around their waist .  “  would you rather go shopping , or borrow something of mine  ?  ” 

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           they don’t even look up from the journal at the first sound of velvet  ,  words were scratched down with passion  .  what was velvet if not their muse  ?  only when the familiar presence is closer are the pages closed  ,  the words left on pause as they turn to offer full attention toward her  .  their arms didn’t hesitate to slide over shoulders and their hands clasped behind her neck  .  “  what  ,  my clothes aren’t alright anymore  ?  “  they complained as if it weren’t obvious they weren’t the stylish one  .  “  if we go shopping  -  emerei will insist on coming and then we’ll be stuck there all day  .  unless you’ve a plan for that too  ?  “  valarie would ask  ,  fingers absently playing with strands of her hair  .  “  because i  -  “  they would pause to steal a gentle kiss  “  -  would love to spend the day with you  .  “

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DAVIKA HOORNE in A WAITING BRIDE (2018)

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valarie is constantly haunted by their past decisions regarding a particular ex-lover. it affects them daily and they’ll never get over it, because the sire bond keeps them almost wanting to protect and provide for her.

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Davika Hoorne

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inspired by @unholyshe hc about omen  ;  i think it must be pretty evident that undeath has a negative effect on a mortal mind  .  where omen faces neutrality in emotion  ,  as valarie was once alive and turned into an undead  ,  valarie faces a repulsion to remember their mortal life  .  i believe they insist on feeling so much because they remember those feelings  ,  and it’s getting harder to remember  .  everyday longer spent in undeath mottles the feelings they have and they struggle to remember how to feel them  ,  and the memories attached with them  .  once those memories were tinged in colour  ,  they slowly become greyscale  .

they have a journal to write things down that feel important or made them feel intensely as they cling to the mortality it gives them  .  and yet it still slips through their fingers as the memories slip away  .  one day  ,  they probably won’t even remember their life before their undeath as the curse of vampirism finally steals what little they have left  .