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I dreamt I got sent back in time to when I was like 15 and it was a long dream and I was like oh damn I’m like kinda the coolest person here tbh like I’m secretly almost 25 mentally. Then I was like oh my god no I can’t believe I have to do this again. But I had more close friends bc I gave less fucks and it felt like actual days were going by and after a month I started telling ppl I am from the future and listed a whole bunch of future events and I also was trying to learn to ice skate. Some ppl were worried about college and I was like o lmao u turn out fine fr promise. So weird

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you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

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18+ 18+ 18+

( o ) ( o ) 🤧 visual under cut yk? Oh not like the nostrils the other one. super short hope u enjoy.

minors scroll away you’re so unwelcome

ngl im obsessed w the pink floral lace >////< when I tried it on I didn’t wanna take it off

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I think I conditioned myself into developing a mental block and I think I did that a long time ago without knowing what it is. Is this relatable? I’d just take physical action to make the urge stop in public settings all the time and the urge eventually just went away on its own forever (pretty much). Is that operant conditioning? Damn.

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cw for weed mention

I just realized like 💀 oh weird dreams and irritability and etc are associated w marijuana detox and I’ve gone from being a daily user to not at all for like 2 weeks? 3? 2.5? I think I had one cheat day during the last strep event bc I was fairly hysterical like HIIIISSSSSSS im going to develop rheumatoid fever (I didn’t 💀) oh well it’s probably on the way out tho idk how I didn’t put that together

awk 😬 but ig I finally reached a point where I feel like I can live with myself after like over 7 years of switching between dif self destructive behaviors. maybe.

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Thinking about how colds can cause inflammation and congestion that makes a person’s face tender, sore, and so sensitive to touch. Their nose feels so full, but no amount of blowing provides relief. If anything, it exacerbates the inflammation, and even touching their face with something as light and delicate as a tissue becomes too much to bear.

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i cant open any app without seeing mlm alex and wlw haley to edits of good luck babe is anyone else going thru this also the i take my whiskey neeeEAAAAtttt and it's like any character from the game?? i cant find my SCYTHE

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someone holding back a sneeze while trying to say they’re catching a cold/caught a cold

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hottest thing ever when someone’s nose already has post sneeze mess hanging from it but not even a few seconds later their eyes are already uncontrollably half lidded, their nostrils are flaring and their chest is doing that urgent rapid rise fall because they’re going to sneeze again

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happy lesbian visibility week to all my lesbian pals in this community 💕

(if you’re a lesbian and you like snz, you’re my pal)

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i was so frantic at one point for physical comfort when i was ill and to be loved and cared for and now im like. literally whatever i can just chill and watch tv and if i somehow end up dying it's not even my problem anymore so why am i so pressed. i already had like severe chest pain and low oxygen and outta control asthma until i took multiple steroids and anti bye byes and bounced back fine. like. (idk im havin an argument bc i wanna get my tonsils out bc ive had strep like 7 times in 13 months but uwahhh we dont wanna take them out but we'll see. ò.ó ) tbh im anticipating getting it again bc last year it was 4x and 4 is DEATH!!!!!! and after 4x i bet the bacteria will die but sure ill take an excuse to zone in and out to like anime or some soap opera

if heavens a one room apartment on the second floor im in like super heaven i have like multiple rooms and nobody bothers me and i have financial security to an extent and my landlord aint upping my rent and i have good insurance (if they fire me ig ill fr get a better job im looking 0.0) and it's like ok that i dont have the energy for someone else rn. i have an air filter that can diffuse essential oils and i live a cottage core life on my switch in my free time and i have good friends and i reconciled with family members i didnt think id be able to and like things are not that bad. if i feel suicidal ik it's not even serious and i can be like ok i think u mean this really sucks!!! damn!!!! im gonna go sleep it off or listen to c/razy p/eople (like the song it's a bop) and scream what the fuck over and over or something or rant about it in my room until i get bored and watch anime. it's like none of these things even matter. my job doesnt matter it's j a means to my own end

idk i feel like i needed things to be such a shitshow so id be forced to fix some stuff about my life. fingers crossed i dont like come home from work tmr like RAAAGHHHHH. idk if most things are rlly that srs tbh

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Where my snzfucker girlies who have crippling germaphobia irl at??

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i have so much respect for you. you have so much compassion and you’re so funny, i like seeing your observations of the world and i like how you stick up for both yourself and others. also in hard agreement that you’re the baddest bitch in the world for your ao3 contributions. i think you’re very poetic at heart

this is literally so sweet thank you 🥺💞

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🔥 and 👀 for the ask game ?💗

ahh i let this sit in my inbox for a while bc i didnt have fun answers rlly

🔥 - has a person’s snz ever significantly changed your level of attraction to them? (negatively or positively)

with my ex bf like..my attraction was kinda forced and i think comphet and id be like drunk a lot to cope but i rlly liked his snz and basically just that or being told that i was good at being a gf. so like i guess. i think i really only liked men when the kink was involved. i couldnt really think of other situations sorry anon. i guess one time i was really not into a guy and his snz was bad too and i was like j cringing bc it was someone pursuing me and making me uncomfortable

ig ive been like 👀👀👀 my eyes have been opened w some ppl i know like oh ok yea that was hot tbh but not much past that tbh, i havent had notable obs in a long time

speaking of the eye emojj

👀  - what is the longest sneezing fit you’ve ever witnessed?

tbh ive blocked a bunch of them out for various reasons but one i can think of is when i was in a target changing room and some guy sneezed like 8 times and it was cool bc i couldnt perceive him and he couldnt perceive me yk.

ty for the ask

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reblog this if you want anonymous opinions of you

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guys every time i take b/enadryl I have scary dreams like i dreamt I saw a scary movie about dolls that was 4 hours long and my group had to leave halfway thru and then after we left the dolls were real and were trying to attack us at a diner and we ripped open a ketchup packet to defeat it and it was so scary it was like WHY IS EVERYTHING. MADE. IN. CHINA. and then it fizzled out and died. and anyway im still tired so like idk was it worth it