diaryofagirlwhoknows-not

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guys u can unfollow me just gonna start venting on here.. i have no body else really, just men. i’m so far away from my family i can’t even describe this past few months after i escaped him, o was lost, i was at war in my mind, i could be with him,i’d be exhausted i’d have to do a lot every day, i don’t wanna constantly sleeping with men, even if i’d have the best stuff, i already have nice stuff and i’ll be patient but the quick money is addicting sometimes. idk. it’s hard my dads dead and the dad i knew as my dad is a pedo and also moved far away. my siblings don’t talk to me, my mother hates my guts and abused me most my life, i have some help from the governemnt. i’m dealing with obsessive guys and it triggers me to break down and isolate. i just miss having normal relationships. i miss the positive, healthy 15 year old girl i was, she’s still in here. i ain’t let life chnage me but srudd is hard right now. im trying so hard

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being a bad bitch on the side might not appeal to fools like u

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this isn’t just gonna be an ed blog imma be ranting here. ugh i’m so fucking done. i just miss my ex who was like 6’4 and serbian

and spoiled the fuck out of me and understood me.

went on a date, yea he got me flowers ( bare minimum) but yelled at me to stop being so fucking autistic ( we argue a lot, cuz i always ghost him)

i miss u bebe you would never 😢

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musings on July

"NW" Zadie Smith, "the Hands of Friendship" in Yerevan (@metamorphesque). "Jane Eyre" Charlotte Brontë (@flowerytale), Franz Kafka’s Diaries (@hungryfictions), "Summer night by the beach" Edvard Munch, "A Magic Mountain" Czeslaw Milosz (tr by Czeslaw Milosz and Lillian Vallee), "Answer July" Emily Dickinson, "Four Sunflowers Gone to Seed" Vincent van Gogh, The Diaries of Franz Kafka (@shisasan)

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the realization this brought me made me cry actual tears.. [not mine]

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me fr

cred: kendollisms on insta

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ur girl is getting skinny again yay

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No one gets them like I do

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i missed school again cuz i’m so tired