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but also imagine you've spent 30+ years successfully repressing any trace of homosexuality from your outward persona and then the second you leave town everyone you know starts calling you a faggot behind your back when you can't defend yourself against the allegations. I'd be so pissed

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can't figure out which is worse... trying to date your dead wife's lookalike or knowing that you're that lookalike and coming back cosplaying her. 2 people who match each other's freak fr

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they’re the only couple to ever exist btw

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If you had to pick, what's the ONE trait in a fictional character that makes you immediately go "oh this one's mine"

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“I don’t matter?” “Not even to the most obsessive tennis fan in the entire world.” “I’m not talking about tennis.”

CHALLENGERS (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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“i need that to matter to you” one thing about the 911 couples is that they really do know each other. down to the nitty gritty, to the core, to the good and bad. the love is always so real. they all love each other so much. they see each other’s fears and insecurities, know exactly where they’ll self sacrifice and know, also, exactly what to say to make sure they fight to come home. “i love you” bobby said twice, once on automatic because he always loves athena, and one with so much intent behind the words because she sees him and knows him and loves someone he thought was unlovable for so long.

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“i would always sense charles in my mind, not invading, just a presence, i was in his thoughts… he in mine” yeah super platonic thing to say erik you’re doing an amazing job

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I would rather wait two weeks between episodes, have multiple hiatuses a season, or delay episode releases if it will create better working conditions for the show's actors and crew than have someone die as a consequence of rushed shooting schedules. getting your weekly weewoo show fix is never worth more than someone's life

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Chenford + We went from this: // To this: ❤️

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what if i cried

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so fucking irritated with the narrative of “two men can be close platonic friends without romantic feelings” in regards to buddie because 1) you can be friends and in love 2) men are friends on this show? chim and buck, chim and bobby, bobby and michael 3) point me to this so called plethora of male slowburn friends-to-lovers canon ships that exist in media so i can watch that instead

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look who i made today!!

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Can’t wait for buddie to give other side of the door energy in their divorce era 2.0

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requested by Anon: Bobby + holding the baby in 7.07

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i need them to make it public that ryan will be renewing his contract after season 7 because i am half a panic attack away from fully convincing myself that eddie will have a big awakening by the end of the season and leave the 118 to move back to el paso forever

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Here's the thing. I don't want this cheating arc to culminate in a buddie thing. I don't want a revelation, I don't want a confession. I sure as shit DO NOT want a kiss. I dont want buddie to be tainted by this cheating arc and I do not want Eddie Diaz to make a twice-over cheater out of Buck.

When things blow up between them - because it will. It's inevitable - I want it to be because Buck is finally seeing Eddie as he is: a flawed, fucked up, traumatised man with layers of guilt so dense they've solidified into an iron cast around Eddie. I want it to be because Eddie has been lying to him, USING him to get free time to see his sidepiece, using CHRIS as a bargaining tool to keep Buck quiet and out of the way. I want it to be because Eddie just needs someone, anyone, his BEST FRIEND to tell him that he's not horrible for this. That his actions are wrong but understandable. That Buck is going to have Eddie's back in this like he does for everything else.

And when it's proven that Buck isn't going to back him, I want Eddie to lash out. I want him to drag up the Lucy of it all, I want him to make a dig at Tommy. I want him to fight dirty about it and I want Buck to fight right back. I want it to be explosive and heated and insane. I want them both to say things they don't mean, and I want BUCK to be the one who walks out.

I want Eddie to crash and burn with the guilt of it and confess to Marisol and Kim, and I want them to drop him faster than he can apologise.

I want him to try and come clean to Chris, only for Chris to get mad at him too because "You keep doing this! You keep trying to find me a new mom and I don't want one! I don't need one!" I want him to be angry and hurt because what Eddie does in his personal life affects Chris too, and Eddie CLEARLY isn't thinking about that right now.

I need it messy. I need it agonising. I need it raw.

I do NOT want this to be the lead-in to buddie or even a queer awakening arc. I need this to be THE wakeup call that Eddie has been in dire need of since Shannon died. I need this to be the moment where Eddie realises that he doesn't need to be a boyfriend or a husband to be happy.

(And then I need someone to drag him kicking and screaming to Frank's office and put that man back through therapy because CLEARLY he needs more of it.)

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he has the sadness in his eyes you only see in eastern european gay porn