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You don't enjoy it, do you?

Being seen as the problem

But you just accept it anyways

Because no one understands

All the shits so well more than you do

You try to keep it real

But people just don't want it

To hear the truth

They aren't ready for this deal

They don't believe in you

Because you hate to prove yourself

And you ain't wrong with that

But there were days

Mostly when people misunderstands you

They don't get the logic

You despise it

But you can't help yourself

Comparing yourself to others

Not really comparing though

But sincerely pleading

For answers to that question

You always ask yourself

"What's wrong with me?"

You aren't insecure

Actually you truly are proud of yourself

It's just that why things aren't falling into places

When you are right

When you are who you really are

Why people hated you so much?

And all these are left unexpressed

You are suppressed

I don't know

Maybe it was the principles you believe in

Or you don't want to see people that you are weak

Or you don't allow yourself to be vulnerable

Or you don't trust people

Or maybe, just maybe

Life's been treating you so bad

You cannot believe there are people who cares

Who give a damn about your problem

'Coz yeah why will I give them a part of me?

It doesn't matter anyways

People come and go

People misses you

But you push them away

I don't know more than you know

You are the master of keeping it all in

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TROLLS

Social Media is a coward's dream come true. To spread lies and hatred, face to face when slapped by truth you know they can't argue. I'm pretty sure they talk crazy just to widen their reach. They hide beneath an alias and a funny picture but like a cult they could preach! They have different narration but can't be found in the records of history. Factual evidence should be used as your shield to parry. Worst is that they don't mean what they say, all they do is cap. Leave them with truth, no need to argue with a fool. Instead, focus on the onlookers who may not be able to tell the difference. The troll already wins, when he have you become belligerent through personal attacks. Who'd ever think the world come to this. People that haven't ever accomplished nothing, always confident to criticize and to disrespect. The sad part of it is that people make a career out of doing so. No need for diploma, all you have to do is to put sense into something you do not know. Why nowadays, posting like this to raise awareness, when I debunk lies, and condone propaganda feels like a sin? They wrap this act as if you are the one who spreads toxicity. When I see thirst traps and ignorant post, I continue to scroll. Time is of the essence, why waste it on a troll.

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In search of the unknown

I've read books to the back searching for something that I still haven’t found.

And maybe the answer were few pages past the place that I stopped in one of those other books, the ones that I got halfway through and decided that I knew better.

And isn’t it interesting to break it down to each pages you turn, like it's a decision to spend a few more moments in the mind of some author?

Maybe a gamble because maybe this one has something to say.

And you know what’s worse?

To labor through every tedious word of a volume completely void of substance or to shelf a book that contains all the answers a few pages too soon.

Is this a game?

[dicojib]

ISTORYA NG KORAPSYON SA GITNA NG PANDEMYA

Kailan nga ba sisigasig at tatalino ang namumuno sa kanilang pamamahala, lalo na sa gitna ng pandemya, sa ating bansa?

Mahigit isang taon na ang nakalilipas magmula ang unang natamong kaso ng COVID sa Pilipinas at nananatiling hindi makabuluhan ang mga patakaran ipinatutupad. Magmula sa barikada ng motorsiklo, pagsasawalang bahala sa transportasyon pampubliko na walang probisyong alternatibo, mga huling-minutong pagaanunsyo ng quarantine status, pagsasabukas ng malls, arcades, at sinehan na wala man lamang ang mga pamantasan at eskwelahan sa listahan ng mayroong konkretong plano upang maibalik ang mas makamasa at mas natatamasang kalagayan ng edukasyon sa ating bansa.

Kung babalik tanawain natin bago pa tayo tuluyang lumubog sa krisis na ating kinahaharap sa kasalukuyan ay una munang nadawat sa kaliwa't kanang kontrobersiya ng korapsyon ang bansa mula sa PhilHealth, eskemang pastillas ng Bureau of Immigration at wholesale drug smuggling sa loob ng Bureau of Customs. Bakit noong pumasok ang pandemya nalusaw nalamang ang mga isyung ito na hindi man lamang napapanagot ang dapat managot?

Noong mga kaunahang buwan kasagsagan ng krisis ay nagkaroon rin ng isyu ang distribusyon ng SAP o Social Amelioration Program. Sobrang nakakapuyos na napakaraming tao ang nangangailangan subalit hindi natatamasa ang suporta na naaayon para sa kanila. 

Ilang araw rin akong nakinig sa mga kwento sa mga kasama ng DSWD upang maglibot-libot sa aming barangay at ito ang kanilang naging obserbasyon.

Marami sa mga nakakapalitan ng maaanghang na salita ng mga DSWD ay ang mga nagtatrabaho subalit hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin nakatatanggap ng ayuda mula sa DOLE CAMP program.

Mayroon pang pamilya ang makatatanggap sa CAMP program na may kasamang senior, PWD, buntis, nagpapasuso at mismong solo parent na syang dapat rin ay benepisyaryo ng SAP (subalit hindi maaari dahil makatatanggap nga sa CAMP program/ gayon din sa iba pang programs).

Mahigpit ang tagubilin na kapag ang isang myembro ng pamilya ay nagtatrabaho (may agency, may company, patuloy na nagtatrabaho sa gitna ng krisis) ay hindi mapasasailalim sa programa ng DSWD.

Ano ang marapat na salitang gamitin upang maipaintindi sa pamilyang kumakalam ang sikmura na hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin nakatatanggap mula sa DOLE? Dapat ba silang masakop sa DSWD? Ano ang assurance na makatatanggap sila mula sa DOLE? Gano katagal silang magiintay? Hindi natin masisisi na ang mga nagtatrabaho rin ay umiiyak ng suporta, dahil sila rin ay apektado. Sa kabilang banda, ang mga DSWD workers ay limitado ang form na maaaring ipamahagi kaya't mahigpit ang pamimigay nito ng SAC kahit na ang forms ay under validation pa rin. 

Nakita ng dalawang mata ko ang malayong pinagkaiba ng kalagayan ng mga mahihirap na walang-wala sa mga taong may pribilehiyong manirahan sa isang maayos na bahay. Nakita ng mga mata ko kung paano ang mga taong naghihikahos ay mamalimos ng SAC upang mabigyan ng tsansa na makatanggap ng ayuda. Kaya't hanggat posible ay binibigyang prayoridad sila sa programang ito.  Kaya't paano? Sa kaso ng barangay na ako ay kabilang 2500 lamang ang forms. Ang kabuuang pamilya na naninirahan ay 11,000 (hindi kasama ang bilang ng pamilyang naiwan sa barangay matapos ianunsyo ang unang lockdown).

Sa kasalukuyan, ang bansa ay may hiram, utang at nakaalokang perang tumataginting na tatlong trilyong piso upang masugpo ang krisis sa bansa. Kung bibigyan ng libreng bakuna ang kabuuang papulasyon sa bansa, 120 milyong Pilipino, sa dalawang mamahaling dosis na nagkakahalagang limang libong piso ay aabot lamang ito sa 600 bilyong piso. Kumbaga, libre na ang lahat sa bakuna may sukli pa. Sa dami ng numerong ito, nasaan na kaya ang pera? Sa dami ng nangangailangan nasaan na kaya ang ayuda?

Sa kabilang banda ang pribadong sektor ay gumawa ng hakbang upang makapagaabot ng tulong, sa polisiyang kahindik-hindik na sa bawat isang dosis ng bakuna ay isang dosis ng bakuna ang ilalaan bilang donasyon sa gobyerno dapatwat ay pinangangatwiranang ito ay hindi pa aprubado ng gobyerno.

Ngayong wala pang bakuna ang marami sa mga Pilipino, nasaan na ang pera, nasaan na ang ayuda?

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Night worker's perspective

poem by Alec John Bandivas

What a scenery

Gone after work

On my way home

The crisp morning air

Swallows up every vapor

Of this cold thin air

That slightly breezes

This maroon sweatshirt

Dancing to the rhythm

Of morning rush

Billowing from the tailpipes

Of warming vehicles

And somehow remains fresh

Hear it horn and screech

As it chug away

People are getting ready

For another busy day

Headed off to distant

Places of employment

Carrying countless tired workers

Marching down the streets

Like allied soldiers

Charging toward some common villain

There's a certain camaraderie

As individuals make their ways from home's comforts

Into frigid places of opportunity

If you look around

Next time they'll stop

For routine morning coffee

Like my own scheduled puff

Of this calming cigarettes smoke

You will see in every face

A certain familiarity

Some impossible bond

As strangers simultaneously recognize

That the people around them

Are in this with them

All fighting

Different instances

Of the same ancient battles

Everybody you encounter will know exactly

How difficult it was for you

To drag yourself out of bed

They know how much

Of a tired cliche

Your job is

They get it

The impossibility

Of it all

And they realize that today

For one more day

Like fresh morning air

Taking in toxic fumes

You took your daily dose

Of the poison

And you aren't dead yet

Striving and surviving

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MINSAN, KASO MINSAN

isang tula ni Alec John Bandivas

May mga pagkakataong

Gugustuhin mo nalang

Maglakad sa gitna ng kalsada

Alinsabay sa rumaragasang sasakyan

Imbis na baybayin ang gilid

Laan sa mga pedestero

Kaso aberya pa sa makasasagasa

At dadampot sa aking lustay na bangkay

O di naman kaya'y mabilis na magmaneho

Pasalpok sa isang malaking puno

At maiging tumilapon

Kaso bukod sa sayang

Wala rin naman akong sasakyang ibubundol

Pwede sigurong bala

Kaso marami pang maaring

Pag gamitan ang armas na baril

Kung lalaklakin ko naman

Itong sandamakmak na gamot

Marami pang may karamdaman

Ang mas mangangailangan

Hindi pa kabilang

Silang akin ay nasaktan

Madami pa namang nagmamahal

Sa kabila ng pagkukulang ko

Ang nakakaloko lang

Ay hindi ko alam

Ano ba 'tong lungkot na bumabagabag

Ang masakit pa

Ay hindi ko alam

Ano ba ang masakit

Ang hirap magpatuloy

Kung ang mga bagay na mahal mo

Biglang naging gawaing pangaraw-araw nalang

Ang mga taong mahal mo

Biglang nakakapagod nalang

Siguro ayun

Yung salitang nakakapagod

Ang magandang lahad sa nararamdaman

Pagod na lang sa lahat

May pag-asa pa rin naman

Pero ang mahirap doon

Hindi ko alam

Ano ba ang aasahan?

Siguro kung mayroon

Akong tatlong kahilingan

Hindi ko alam kung ano hihingiin ko

O siguro ang malaman ano ba ang dapat kong hiling

At hindi ito patas

Para akin ay damdamin

Ngayong maraming tao

Ang nagpapahalaga sa'kin

Para ang mga araw araw magpatuloy

At sumabay sa agos ng buhay

Kahit nakakapagod

At paulit-ulit

Andito pa rin ako

Nakaupo sa kwarto

Nagsusulat ng madramang litanya

Sa bintana sumilip

Ang tanglaw ng buwan at bituin

Sa ngayon, ako ay magpapatuloy

Dahil sa kinang ng kalangitan

Naisip 'kong mabuhay kahit ilang minuto lang

At syempre

Bago matapos ang gabi

Ang nagbigay ng saglit na kasiyahan

Hahanap akong muli

Ng dahilan para mabuhay

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BUNDOK, DAGAT, BUWAN AT BITUIN

isang tula ni Alec John Bandivas

Mabilis kong binaybay ang kabundukan

Upang sa wakas ay marating na rin ang tuktok

Tumakbo ng nakapaa habang tumatangis

Dahil hindi na kaya pang magunitang muli ang gabing nagiisa

Impis sa galit at humihingi ng awa upang may makasalo

Gayong ikaw 'tong nagmungkahing

Sabay nating lalakbaying ang matayog na daan

Upang madali nating sungkitin ang mga bituin sa kalangitan

Ang mga pangarap nating tayo lang ang nakakaalam

Mabuti at may awa yaring Siyang may likha

Ngayong aking binabaktas ang rurok

Ang makinang na bituin ay maliwanag

Sapat upang gisingin ako sa aking ilusyon

Ihihinto at ititigil na, ayaw ng umasa

Dahil nang minsa'y masipat ang mukha

Sa aninag mula sa mababaw na pangpang

Ng tahimik na ilog na dumausdos mula tuktok

Ay hindi na makilala ang sarili

Minsan na akong nagbago

Ibinalik ng alon ng malawak na karagatan

Imbis na lumalim

Itinapon ako patungo sa dalampasigan

Ngayo'y nandirito ako muli

Mahirap pilitin ang paglalakbay

Pero kung meron man na gusto ako samahan

Malamang sa malamang kung nasaan ako ngayon

Ay doon din natin sisimulan

Nakaupo sa buhangin

Nakatingin sa ganda ng asul na dagat

Rurok ng berdeng bundok

Ganda ng bituin at buwan sa kalangitan

Habang ating paguusapan ang lakbay papuntang hinaharap

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The Filipino First Policy was introduced and implemented by the administration of President Carlos P. Garcia. Under this policy, Filipino owned businesses were prioritized over their foreign counterparts. Locally made products were promoted over imported products as well. This policy was institutionalized under the second paragraph of Section 10, Article XII of the 1987 Philippine Constitution which states: “In the grant of rights, privileges and concessions covering the national economy and patrimony, the state shall give preference to qualified Filipinos.” Do you agree that the Filipino First Policy of the Constitution prohibits our country from participating in worldwide trade liberalization and economic globalization and from integrating into a global economy that is liberalized, deregulated and privatized?

It was on the first of January in 1995 that the World Trade Organization were established to deal with the global rules of trade between nations which includes the Philippines. Several years during our participation to global economy in 1999, the Philippines was one of the members that was able to review its trade policy. As it was concluded that “continuing liberalization helps the Philippine economy become more competitive and resilient”.

In a press release on the twentieth of September in1999, the new WTO Secretariat report, along with a policy statement by the Philippine Government, will serve as a basis for the Trade Policy Review of the Philippines which will be conducted by the Trade Policy Review Body of the WTO on 27 and 29 September.

In spite of the fact that the Philippine constitution tends to disregard the liberalized, deregulated and privatized nature of global economy, in compliance with our membership with WTO certain interventions has to happen. The report notes that progress in the privatization of state corporations has reduced the degree of state intervention in the economy. In the services sector, for example, privatization and liberalization have made significant headway in raising the competitiveness of domestic producers.

Moreover, there is no comprehensive law, nor central government agency overseeing the implementation of competition policy, and the report suggests that a comprehensive competition law would help ensure that limited market competition does not dampen the full benefits of investment liberalization and privatization.

It was also noted that the Philippines is not a party to the WTO Agreement on Government Procurement. In its procurement, the Philippine Government generally favours the purchase of domestically produced goods and services and applies certain foreign ownership limitations to suppliers.

Hence, I agree that the Filipino First Policy of the Constitution prohibits our country from participating in worldwide trade liberalization and economic globalization and from integrating into a global economy but certain provisions may invalidate and water down the said policy in our constitution making it possible for us to participate and integrate.

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The countries of Armenia and Azerbaijan are currently locked in a shooting war over the disputed territory of Nagorno-Karabakh in the South Caucasus region of Europe. Turkey decided to back Azerbaijan by providing military assistance in the conflict. The United Nations Security council responded by drafting a resolution punishing the Turkish government for their active military involvement in the region. The resolution called for an economic and military embargo against Turkey. The 15 members of the Security Council took a vote on the resolution. Fourteen members voted in favor and 1 abstained. The People’s Republic of China, a permanent member of the Security Council, was the only country to abstain. Was the resolution calling for an economic and military embargo against Turkey passed by the Security Council?

Chapter V, Article 27 number 3 of the Charter of the United Nation and Statue of the International Court of Justice states that,

“Decisions of the Security Council on all other matters shall be made by an affirmative vote of seven members including the concurring votes of the permanent members; provided that, in decisions under Chapter VI, and under paragraph 3 of Article 52, a party to a dispute shall abstain from voting.”

Here we can say that The People’s Republic of China is a party to a dispute regarding the call for an economic and military embargo against Turkey. Though it was very evident that all other members of the Security Council won by an affirmative vote of fourteen.

However, it was worth mentioning that Chapter VI, under paragraph 3 of Article 52, states that “The Security Council shall encourage the development of pacific settlement of local disputes through such regional arrangements or by such regional agencies either on the initiative of the states concerned or by reference from the Security Council.” shall be met. This will impair articles 34 and articles 35 under Chapter VI which states that:

Article 34

“The Security Council may investigate any dispute, or any situation which might lead to international friction or give rise to a dispute, in order to determine whether the continuance of the dispute or situation is likely to endanger the maintenance of international peace and security.”

Article 35

“1. Any Member of the United Nations may bring any dispute, or any situation of the nature referred to in Article 34, to the attention of the Security Council or of the General Assembly.

2. A state which is not a Member of the United Nations may bring to the attention of the Security Council or of the General Assembly any dispute to which it is a party if it accepts in advance, for the purposes of the dispute, the obligations of pacific settlement provided in the present Charter.

3. The proceedings of the General Assembly in respect of matters brought to its attention under this Article will be subject to the provisions of Articles 11 and 12.”

Basically, the resolution calling for an economic and military embargo against Turkey were not passed by the Security Council and shall recourse to Article 52.

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Rodrigo R. Duterte was elected President of the Philippines in 2016. After assuming office, he wasted no time lambasting the policies of the United States (US) towards the Philippines. At the same time, he also showed, through series of positive acts, his government’s pivot towards the People’s Republic of China (China). In terms of economic development, do you think President Duterte’s pivot towards China (and away from the US) will be good for the Philippines?

President Duterte’s pivot towards China will never do good for the Philippines. Like how it is often said, “Learn from the past, history repeats itself.” China has a very bad reputation with regards to their relationship with other country especially for countries that they “befriend” and “supported” through financial loans. With its economic success in global trade, China launched its ambitious $1 trillion Belt Road Initiative (BRI or New Silk Road). However, it has become clear that China has been using this mammoth project to entrap struggling economies into debt traps by corrupting the local officials respectively.

China's Belt Road Initiative victims includes:

(1)  Ethiopia, a victim of the BRI, is now essentially a Chinese colony for practical purposes. This also ties to China's influence in the WHO, as the current Director-General is from Ethiopia.

(2)  Sri Lanka forced to give up Hambantota port to China for a 99-year lease while the debt is still in play. Sri Lanka also now sports "World's Emptiest International Airport" which made Sri Lanka indebted to China more than ever.

(3)  Pakistan, giving up Gwadar port as part of the CPEC initiative which was contested as an illegitimate project as it passes through India's Kashmir.

(4)  Djibouti, which now owes so China much of its GDP that China was able to build its first military base in Africa there, even taunting a nearby US military base.

(5)  Montenegro, now owing China more than its 80% of GDP, poised to become a Chinese colony in Europe.

(6)  The Maldives, a country strategically located near to India, now owing China 100% of its GDP.

More than 70 countries are on track to be part of this modern colonization program. As a result, all of these countries essentially now have no choice but to support China in international forums, including the UN, the WHO, and the IMF. Most of these territories and Ports are now being used as Chinese naval and military bases, like how they established their own on our territory the West Philippine Sea.

To finally summarize this essay, Rodrigo R. Duterte as the president of the Philippines has the accountability of forwarding the sovereignty of our country. Therefore, we should not choose between the current “superpower country”, the United States and the upcoming “sleeping giant” the People’s Republic of China, but to advance our independence instead and to maximize our economic potential by avoiding risk and taking advantage of the globalization. It is not a choice between black and white, there’s a gray part where we can cooperate with globalization with security and safety nets.  

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How did globalization hasten the growth of the Filipino diaspora?

Filipino diaspora is one of the positive effects of globalization in our country. Basically, since globalization is characterized as liberalized, deregulated and privatized the process of migration towards other countries became easier and simpler as well. Globalization causes migration and migration contributes to the intensification of socioeconomic and political relations across borders. Globalization has indeed dislocated millions of people and set in motion population movements. Globalization has introduced a third set of motivations called "network" factors, which include free flow of information, improved global communication and faster and lower cost transportation. While network factors are not a direct cause of migration, they do facilitate it. Since we entered a mutual understanding towards other country as we globalized, countries who are part of this accord became accepting for us Filipino.

One of the positive impacts of globalization is that it gives the country more opportunities to increase employment which also accounts for the hastened growth of Filipino diaspora. Most of our countrymen chose to work as Overseas Filipino Worker(OFW) for a better career opportunity and to help their families here in the Philippines. Although there’re variety of reasons that lie behind migration. People may migrate in order to improve their economic situation, or to escape civil strife, persecution, and environmental disasters. Traditionally, the reasons encouraging an individual to migrate were categorized as "push" or "pull" factors.

As well as encouraging migration, globalization also produces countervailing forces. For example, as businesses grow and become more internationalized they often outsource their production to developing countries where labor costs are lower. This movement of jobs from developed nations to the developing world mitigates certain economic factors leading to migration. In other words, in a global economy jobs can move to potential migrants instead of migrants moving to potential jobs.

The impacts of migration are complex, bringing both benefits and disadvantages. Immigration provides a supply of low cost labor for host countries, while remittances from emigrant workers can be an important source of foreign income for sending nations. On the other hand, immigration can stoke resentment and fear towards newcomers in receiving states, as immigrants are discriminated against, accused of lowering wages and associated with crime, among other complaints. For the economies of sending nations, emigration leads to a loss of young, able-bodied, well-educated and otherwise economically valuable citizens.

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What do you think are the positive and negative effects of globalization in the Philippines?

It is true that the Philippines were able to take advantage of the positive effects of globalization, though it brought colossal negative impacts towards the country in the long run.

Globalization has opened the doors for international standard benchmarking and linkages that reinforces what we had today in the Philippines, including our relationship towards other countries. Examples for this are more opportunities to increase employment, we were also able to adapt to stricter and more demarcated international standards with regards to health, safety, education, researches, parliament, etc., and of course, technological advancement and modernization as we are able to connect and collaborate with developed countries.

However, the problem starts when we realized that this liberalized, deregulated and privatized characters of globalization is highway for the ideology of imperialism. Weaker and poorer country suffers a lot from the concept of globalization. The Philippines for example is naturally rich in resources and supposed to be a sustainable country. We have every raw material we need, but we chose to immerse with global markets. We allow ourselves to sell cheap raw materials that is used to make iPhones (through mining), chocolates (from our agricultural produce), and as such, that we buy at a very expensive price. Because of our accord with the World Trade Organizations, farmers of our country are becoming poorer as we allow rice importations from without to little or less tariffs – which made imported rice available at a cheaper price – that is intended to compete with our locally produced rice.

We aid the problems in global market, the lack of resources to produce materials from each developed countries’ industries, while we are being taken advantaged by them. Instead of building our own industries that will reinforce the economy and that will serve our countrymen we still chose to sell what they need. On a side note, the performance and contribution of agricultural sector in the economy is dictated by the global market needs, and not by the country. For example, a thousand acres of land, owned by an elitist in our country was asked by an international business partner for clothing lines that they will be needing cottons few years from now. Now the owner of the land will invest in cotton to be planted, so that it shall be harvested few years from now and finally to profit from the produce. For years our country has less demands in cotton and currently experiencing inflation which caused increased in price of major commodities. In that scenario, aren’t we wondering why the owner still chose to serve their international business partners instead of contributing to solve high inflation in the country by increasing the supply of major commodities?

Even our Education sector is negatively affected as well. As we thrive to keep up with ‘globalization’ many Filipinos, especially those that are marginalized, suffer from this sudden, unprepared, and wasn’t even studied drastic change in our curriculum. Again, the objective of K-12 is to produce skilled individual that will provide solution towards the problem in ‘cheap labor force’ for the global market. We chose this, instead of producing fine graduates of any chosen program and help in nation building. This is how globalization functions in an under developed country.

The most common connotation when people hear “globalization” is that we are trying to catch up, we are keeping up with developed countries. We are developing, and this is a push forward towards modernization. If we think that globalization only helps us without other agendas, we have to think again. Just how my grandpa told me, “World war III is a battle of economy.”

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The unrecognizable has become recognizable. Slowly permeating through relationships of all kinds. Slowly rotting the core that once thought to be filled with love. The silent hatred brought to you, us, me. Words can just be thought of as carbon dioxide spilling out of our mouths. But the intent will poison us like the inhaling of that unfiltered air. Actions taken, dreams were lost. Silent hatred brought subsequently by the piece that you picked. Make thyself endearing, not hated, once again.

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Why do I feel so alone?

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The Future

He's younger than I am

And I had forgotten

How much the weight

Of the future was

Before him

Somewhere along the way

I laid down

Some of the dreams and plans

That I used to carry around

Everywhere I went

Worry is a heavy thing

And I had to put it down

So that I could carry

All of my regrets

Young people worry

About their future

The way a kitten

Chases its tail

And it's incredible

The amount of energy

One can expend

On impossibilities

But we all reach an age

Where we have to choose

Whether to allot our energy

On the future or the past

There are those of course

Who cannot decide

And begin living only

For the moment

But these are mad

Because backs are made to carry

And brows were designed

To furrow

And some would stay young

And carry nothing

And they are not

Alive

But he's younger than I

And he still likes

To chase his own tail

And that's ok

He doesn't know like I know

That in the morning

The night's regrets

Will only weigh as much

As my eyelids

And I've been to the future

And I try to explain to him

That it's nowhere near

As heavy as the past

But he doesn't get it

And I'm left with no choice

But to take his hand

And take him there

So he can see for himself

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PATULOY

Ang hinagpis ay mananatiling sasambulat sa ibutod

Ang mundo nya'y walang hanggang nagniningas malimot

Ang labang itinatuwang tapos, itinatakdang simulan

Isang matapang na pabalanging hakbang pasulong

Sa hindi malamang tyempo patungong kawalan

Binigyang hustisya ng katagang, "...tuloy lang"