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On Grief

or, On the Best Friend You Met in Middle School who will Never Graduate College

giuliano macca / wendell berry / janice / kate elizabeth russell / langston hughes / benjamin alrie saenz / gustav klimt / @ whitealbum / @ robertszombie / beau taplin / stephen king / theodor kittelsen / @ nebulaahh / arch budzar (taylor swift) / @ inanotherunivrse / unknown / @ nebulaahh

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George Russell & Max Verstappen - BLUE by Billie Eilish

"two sides of the same coin"

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lando norris, the guy who plans his own strategies. lando norris, the guy who gets said strategies done or at the very least puts his all into it before his own team nukes all his attempts. lando norris, the guy who manages his tires beautifully all the way through each time. lando norris, the guy who’s parking a faulty car on the podium race after race. lando norris, the guy who owns up to mistakes yet wears his achievements lightly. lando norris, the guy who’s never not thanking his team and engineers for their constant hard work. never shades his teammates’ performances. never says a bad word about about his team. never undermines his rivals. never not stopping to show love to his young fans. lando norris who has one home race and that’s silverstone. lando norris, your villain of formula one.

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It really is wild that some politicians can stand there and say "yeah we're getting rid of a program that keeps quite literally millions of people alive specifically so we can cut taxes for people who are already richer than god" as if it's a normal political stance and not so cartoonishly evil I'm legit shocked perry the platypus doesn't break through the nearest wall the minute the words leave their mouth.

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I'll add it to the list of words I use to try to figure you out

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I heart prey animal rage I love when characters are fucking insane with terror

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An 'Israeli' hostage kissing the members of the Resistance goodbye - 😂 - but sure keep talking about how Hamas parades around dead kids or whatever racist ass agenda you all have.

(video from @ihcentoo on X)

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I imagine healing for ctommy having more to do with him being able to connect with who he used to be: loud, rambunctious, annoying, as opposed to any dreams of softness. I see ctommy softness as being confused with him gaining maturity he doesn't want to have, developing a level of articulation and also sadness that forces him to slow down. to me, true healing for ctommy has nothing to do with softness, but that does not imply that he's not safe. at his safest, ctommy is pulling pranks and cursing people out. a mode of healing in which he isn't doing these things rings a little hollow to me. I think the desire of ctommy softness comes more from what people want from the character instead of what actually represents him best. anyway is anyone else seeing those chappel roan billboards pop up they're so cool right

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While I'm not sure it's actually that deep, a majority of the rookies favoring Lewis over Nico probably comes down to one thing above all the others:

None of them are in a position where they can ever imagine being able to walk away from the sport that has taken their blood, sweat, and tears.

None of them can imagine winning and walking away.

To them, and to many, Lewis Hamilton is Formula 1. He is what it means to commit yourself to a sport, to give up everything in order to have this one thing. He himself has talked about how he has no partner, no children, no truly separate life from the sport. These 18 - 22 year old kids can't seen any problem with that because, well, it worked for Lewis Hamilton, didn't it?

This is also further reinforced by the other driver on the grid the longest, Fernando Alonso. Fernando is also a multi champion who did everything he could to come back to the sport and stay.

These are the drivers this class of rookies remembers. Michael Schumacher retired within the first three years of these rookies lives. They almost certainly watched his old races, but the ones they were sitting down to every weekend were Lewis and Fernando and Jenson, and Daniel, etc.

To them, you don't leave Formula 1 until Formula 1 leaves you.

And yes, is Lewis the one that is interacting with them now, the one who gives them advice, the one who congratulates them and mentors them? Of course, and that's almost certainly the other key factor.

But the truth is, even now, I don't know that I would be capable of making the decision Nico Rosberg made.

And I'm not sure any of them are either.

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Exile cTommy drives me crazy bc his themes are so deeply about isolation and an abuse victim having to save themselves. Which, is really powerful. Especially for people who don’t have support networks, who can’t be rescued, seeing it’s possible to do it oneself.

But also. Because it’s so effective. Because it hurts so much. I WANT to save him. I’m begging for him to be rescued. For anyone at all to hear him scream. Tommy isn’t a damsel, he is capable of saving himself, but he shouldn’t have to. Those fics are a different sort of comfort to those hurting. That someone will care, that they’ll be rescued. That he deserves to be.

In some sense I’m certain the reverse would be true if canon and those types of fics were reversed. That is how fandom functions, teasing apart the whatifs.

Still I’m endlessly grateful that cTommy wasn’t rescued. Especially with the bedrock bro healing after. Tommy isn’t looking for help when he goes to Techno, he’s literally living under the floorboards. And even when he’s discovered Techno is so deeply not equipped to play therapist for a traumatized teen. He’s still bleeding, but it was him who pulled out the blade.

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@creatorsofcolornet event 21: family (x)

@lgbtqcreators creator bingo: quotes

everything everywhere all at once (2022) // i remain in darkness, annie ernaux // poplar street, chen chen // original writing (@scorpiogays) // electra, sophocles (trans. anne carson)

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Joy Sullivan, "Teeth", Instructions for Traveling West

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Anyway if nothing else matters then I hope people remember that Pope Francis used his last public address to call for a ceasefire in Gaza and call Israel a terrorist state:

"I continue to receive very serious and painful news from Gaza. Unarmed civilians are subjected to bombings and shootings. It is terrorism."

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This is nauseating

Venezuelan prisoners held in bluebonnet prison (TX) who fear being sent to CECOT form SOS in the prison yard. Photo taken by Reuters who flew over the prison in a small plane after being denied entry to the prison by ICE.

https://www.reuters.com/world/americas/sos-migrants-held-texas-fear-notorious-el-salvador-prison-2025-04-30/

Please read the article. Do not let these people be swept under the rug and forgotten in two weeks. The injustice here is horrifying.

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@ryebreadgf / The Truth About Grief, Fortesa Latifi / bone deep, m.v.e / Sidewalk, Richard Silken / unknown / 60 hours, m.v.e / @itsblackleader / Salt, Nayyirah Waheed / @heavensghost

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on lost childhood friends

noah kahan, alice hoffman, frank ocean, taylor swift, chloeinletters on tumblr, olivia rodrigo, lorde

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okay is she being actually immature or is it just a woman over 30 expressing a human experience you find to be immature.

like yeah. at certain ages... let shit go. im not defending the real immature shit. im not defending the karen you're picturing. i worked in retail i hate those people too. (once somebody got mad at me because she didn't like how our winter window decor was a snowman smoking a pipe. i wish i was joking).

but men at 57 will write books about how 17 year old girls are soooo sexy. they will invent worlds where women have to be naked for "armor reasons." they will write songs that treat women as objects. people rush to defend them. meanwhile a woman at 35 will be like "heartbreak is hard, actually" or "i feel betrayed by a friend" or "i am struggling with something emotionally." immediately people will say stuff like this woman is 35 by the way. by the way this woman is SO OLD to be experiencing this. BY THE WAY.

im 31, almost 32. the other day a poet was blasted online because at her "big age", she had written a poem about feeling unloved. top comment was "this woman is 29 by the way." this woman is too old to still be useful, by the way. she has to behave better . maybe if she was a good wife and mother she could stop existing loudly, and the story could continue on without her. this woman has served her purpose, by the way. she's so cringe, by the way. at 29 - so old! - she still hasn't figured out that her existence should be one of shame.