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Now you see me

"The closer you look, the less you see."

And you're there... always there... right from the start.

I hate you!!!

...cause you made me cry!

But I also thank you...

...cause you made me realize how stupid I am.

I can see and feel how you protect and take care of me. I know you love me. Yet, I became blind. Blinded by our "just friends" relationship.

I badly cried. Overwhelmed? Touched? Guilty? I have mixed emotions until now. But I guess, I feel the guilt more.

Sorry if I ever made you feel tired. I am really so sorry. :'( Thank you so much for always being there for me. Through happiness, sadness, kilig moments, heartbreaks, private/personal talks, hardships, growth, downfalls... In sickness and in health... You're more than a lover to me. Thanks for being my bestfriend!

I promise to take care of you more from now on. :)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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"The Principle of Attitudinal Healing" by Gerald Jampolsky

The essence of our being is love.

Health is inner peace. Healing is letting go of fear.

Giving and receiving are the same.

We can let go of the past and of the future.

Now is the only time there is and each instant is for giving.

We can learn to love ourselves and others by forgiving rather than judging.

We can become love finders rather than fault finders.

We can choose and direct ourselves to be peaceful inside regardless of what is happening outside.

We are students and teachers to each other.

We can focus on the whole of life rather than the fragments.

Since love is eternal, death need not be viewed as fearful.

We can always perceive others as either extending love  or giving a call for help.

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GUITAR COVER by MAC JACOB BADAL of PUEROS CASUS 

All Shall Perish's The Day of Justice from their 2006 album, "The Price of Existence"

(cr) Nuclear Blast. All Rights Reserved

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We watched Porno and The Diplomat Hotel today. It's so incredible how a simple Pornographic video correlated three different stories of three different people and how a horror movie changed my perception about the cliche mainstream horror movies. It has the good quality of sounds. Very Maindie. :)

IN THE PICTURE:

Mr. Mon Confiado is with us, also the mind of The Diplomat Hotel, Direk Christopher Castillo.

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"I have learned that you make your own happiness, that part of going for what you want means losing something else. And when the stakes are high, the losses can be that much greater."

Something Borrowed

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CINEMALAYA 2013

A great Indie experience! <3 Purely made from creative juices.

Quick Change as a "New Breed" film is a bang! Very realistic.

Amor Y Muerte prod. artistically established their film. Good metaphors! :)

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It’s not as easy as we think it is

I LOVE YOU.

Right from the start. From the moment we looked at each other and smiled.

Hindi ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataong masabi sayo ang lahat. I became coward. Natakot akong baka hindi tayo pareho ng nararamdaman. I cannot utter any word when I was about to tell you everything.

When I already had the courage to tell you, you already have someone in your life. Masyadong mabilis. Ano pang magagawa ko? Nasaktan ako! Sobra, sobra! Hanggang ngayon kapag naaalala ko kung paano ako umiyak noong nalaman kong kayo na, pakiramdam ko nadudurog pa rin ako.

Ginawa ko ang lahat makalimutan ko lang yung nararamdaman ko para sayo. Nagsimula ako noong S.Y. 2012-2013.

I dated a guy whom I don’t like. Just trying my luck. But it failed. May girlfriend rin pala siya. Ang saya, di ba? Someone fooled and hurt me. Ang masakit doon, hindi ko naman siya gusto.

Here comes a cutie orgmate. MY IDEAL GUY! Pero kaibigan lang din naman ang turing niya sa akin. He likes other girl. Naging sila. Then, I have to distance myself again. It’s becoming shittier.

Everytime I check your facebook account, I can’t help myself but to fall in love over and over again. Specially with that smile of yours. Iwasan mo nga akong ngitian ng ganyan! Nakakapanglambot eh. But I was reminded that you still have her in your life. Ok, Nina, look around again!

I met this highschool friend again. Not bad! IDEAL too. Physically. We went out sometime. This time I had a chance to confess my admiration. But just to make our f*cking story short, he took advantage with my feelings. No real emotion, just fling and fun

 I have to end year 2012 with, “MOVING ON”.

Umpisa pa lang ng taon, may bago nanaman akong nagustuhan. This time, friendship came first. Naaaaaaaaaaaah! Friendship came WITH admiration. But we built a stronger friendship instead because he’s like a brother to me. YES, A BROTHER. END OF EVERYTHING.

NOTHING BECAME SUCCESSFUL THIS SCHOOL YEAR! Poor me. A LOT of LESSONS are LEARNED!

Summer vacation came.

Hindi ko akalaing magiging ganito kasaya ang bakasyon! Salamat sa PULP Summer Slam XIII!

Hindi na ako magpapaka-impokrita. Masaya talaga ako nung nalaman kong wala na kayo. I didn’t pray or wish for it. But I know it’ll happen. As the saying says, “What comes fast won’t last and what lasts won’t come fast.”

I wished to have a deeper friendship with you. I wished that we’ll have a lot of things in common so we can understand each other. Kung hindi mo nga alam, ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakinig ng Metal at Rock music at kung bakit rin ako nagkaroon ng interes sa Basketball. Hindi ko naman isinusumbat sayo yun. Di ko kayang gawin yun at wala akong balak gawin yun. Gusto ko lang malaman mo na ginawa ko ang lahat ng yun para intindihin ka. Para sa susunod na magkausap tayo, may masabi man lang ako sayo. Para hindi na katulad nang dati, nung magka-klase pa lang tayo sa isang subject, na isang tanong, isang sagot lang.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos na dininig niya yung mga panalangin ko. Naging magkaibigan tayo. We’re closer than what I expected to be. Sobrang saya ko!

  Until now, I still cannot tell you my feelings. Naniniwala pa rin kasi ako sa TAMANG PANAHON at ORAS (RIGHT TIME, BEST TIME). I cannot afford another mistake and lose you again, but this time because of impulsive decisions. Hindi ko kasi talaga alam kung paano ko sasabihin at ipaparamdam sayo. Ipinaparamdam ko naman ang lahat sa paraang alam ko. Ang masakit nga lang, baka tinitignan mo lang yun bilang “act of friendship”.

Hindi ko alam kung ako ba yung tinutukoy mo sa ginawa mong kanta. Isa pang bagay na siyang nagpapahirap sa akin ngayon. Baka kasi may iba ka nanamang gusto. I’m afraid that in the end, you won’t still like me.

I once told you that if you want something, “Take a risk” and if you want to know something, “Ask”. Pero ako talaga ang nahihirapan dun ah! HAHAHAHA!

Ayokong mauwi ang lahat sa wala. Patuloy kong ipaparamdam sayo kung gaano kita kamahal sa paraang alam ko, at may gabay ni Lord. God won’t leave us. He’ll help us get through this situation. Clarification will follow and we’ll be happy. Just believe. Ngayon pa ba ako bibitiw? He gave me another chance to be with you. I’ll cherish it.

NOBELA PALA? :D

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Ang kwento ng Bluetooth

GIRL: "Bukas na ba yung bluetooth mo?" BOY: "Hindi pa. Ngayon pa lang. Excited? *laughs*" GIRL: "Sorry na! *laughs*"

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GIRL: "Ang tagal? Bakit ayaw magsend?" BOY: "Ay! Ico-confirm ko pa pala. *laughs*"

.............. CONNECTED! :P

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I should be a drum set

Kailangan bang maging katunog ng China, Splash, Trash, Ride, Bell at Hi-hat o maging kasing ingay ng Snares ang boses ko para marinig mo ako? O baka naman kailangang maging Bass drum na lang ako para malalim ang impact ko sayo?

:"")))

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My schedules! </3

Ang sakit nun eh! Wala na lahat ng sched ko! Bakit ba kasi atat na atat sa downpayment? May Thursday at Friday pa naman, parang di babayaran! Sh*t nakakatamad mag-aral. Paano na ang future ko? Nandun ang future ko! CHAROOOT! Haissssst!

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Hi Enchong! :">

After a year, I got a chance to see my very own version of Enchong Dee and sit beside him on the bus. I still don't know his name. Anyway, I don't have a plan to know it. I just like him. That's all! I already have Chinito in my life. :"> ENOUGH.

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"When I saw you, I fell in love and you smiled because you knew."

William Shakespeare

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Nene pa rin. :)

Think young, feel young and live young. :D

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Adamson University's Silip@Lente officers with adviser, Mrs.Catherine Villar-Cequeña during Students and Parents' orientation.

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“Hope, it is the only thing stronger than fear. A little hope is effective. A lot of hope is dangerous.”

The Hunger Games

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Spikes and Skulls

Summer classes have ended! :)

It's time to unwind and give myself some rewards. :)

This was shot at SMX Convention center after Michael Cinco's Fashion show. The show was really stunning! I love his creations! Very elegant. Timeless beauty at 20. I was like "Oh my" when I saw Jasmine Maierhofer stepped on the runway. GOOSEBUMPS! Definitely the Goddess every Michael Cinco show. :) <3

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Pueros Casus LIVE @ BKB last May 11.

MEMBERS:

Japheth Madriaga on vocals

Sem Doble on Rhythm guitar

Gerome Cristobal on Bass

Mac Badal on Lead guitar

Andrei Marasigan on Drums

Producer: Obra Art Productions

Photographer: Nina Panganiban