dissociative-musings

[dissociative-musings]

Laios Touden x reader | the night before parting

Summary/writers note — hii, I’ve never written one of these, but I wanted to attempt to turn one of my little daydreams about domestic moments with laios into a reader insert. This one in particular being about the night before he has to go off on one of his dungeon dives, leaving you to wait for his return.

Content warning — none! Sfw. Very fluffy.

You shift your weight under the thick blanket, nuzzling your nose into Laios’ shoulder. The warmth of his skin radiates comfortingly over your own, as you take in a breath of his familiar sent.

He hums softly, stealing his warmth away from you for just a moment as he turns himself to face you under the blankets. A content and almost dopey expression of fondness on his face, which you’re sure is reflected on your own as you watch him settle beside you.

You stare wordlessly at each other for a moment, stewing in a comfortable silence and the warmth of each other’s presence. It’s a grounding and almost overwhelming feeling. Of safety. Understanding. Care. And love. An unfathomable amount of it.

Your face falls only slightly, as you resist that familiar feeling of sudden tears threatening to burst from your eyes.

“Im gonna miss you” you whisper, exhaling a deep and shaky breath that you’d subconsciously been holding.

You scan Laios’ face, trying to etch every detail into your psyche. His blonde eyebrows scrunch together, an empathetic downturned smile gracing his lips. His warm legs brush against yours as you feel his hand rest on the crook of your waist, his thumb rubbing grounding circles into the skin.

He whispers as he leans in closer “I’m gonna miss you too… but just think of all the trinkets ill bring you…” he places the gentlest kiss on your lips before pulling back with a smile “I’m gonna find you something real good this time, I promise”.

You huff out a short laugh from your nose, smiling sadly as you nuzzle your face under the crook of his neck. “I’ll be honest Lai, all I want is you to stay” you say, voice muffled by the fabric of his shirt.

“I know” he sighs, resting his chin snugly atop your head.

You stay silent for a minute, contemplating your options. You shift slightly before gently muttering “You know, I’m getting better at retaining mana.. I think i’ll be able to come with you guys soon… You could always use another healer I’m sure.”

Laios is quiet. His chest softly rises and falls against your cheek as you close your eyes, awaiting his reply. Uncertain if one will even come.

The topic of you entering the dungeon has always been a bit of a sore spot for Laios. And to be fair, not many of your skills are suited for such a dangerous environment. You had asked Falin to teach you basic healing spells, but you weren’t particularly gifted in that realm either. Although your tolerance for mana sickness was getting better…

While milling over all your insecurities in your head, Laios’ voice interrupts their flow. “You know, I would love for you to come with us… sharing the dungeon with you would be a dream…. But i… selfishly i guess. I don’t think i would be able to handle it if you died down there” he admits, a noticeable shift in the tone of his voice. A hint of fear, at the thought alone.

You lean back to look him in the eyes, and notice his expression of frustration and sadness. He doesn’t meet your gaze as he says “I know you could be revived, if it does happen. But the thought that I could even let it happen… or that you would have to feel the pain… it keeps me up at night sometimes” he lets out a short and pitiful laugh, before his expression falls back to a somber one, his downturned eyes rising to finally meet yours.

“Hey” you say as you slide your hand over his, lacing your fingers together and gently squeezing. “I get it… I really do. I imagine the shit you have to face down there sometimes and the thought of you having to experience pain, let alone DYING? It messes me up too… so I can’t really argue…. But… I don’t know. I think we just have to accept that we’re both terrified, and then do it anyways.. even if it’s only once.”

You smile at him, hoping to brighten the mood back up “I wanna understand why you love it so much. And I want to experience it WITH you… and to see all the monstersss.”

He chuckles at that, and the warmth that his laugh blooms in your chest is a sensation that you’ll never tire of.

“Plus” you grin childishly at him “we’ve been practicing that damn siren song for so long, I refuse to rest until I get to see it in action.” He immediately perks up at this, a big grin plastered across his face “ oh, I don’t know if they’re ready for the power of our rendition.” You both giggle like kids at the thought, snuggling in closer. Savoring every moment you get with each other before Laios departs in the morning.