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and its so fucking embarrassing

like yeah i DO hold a grudge for it

they didnt know about it, but i spent twenty years fuckin

waiting for that

i gave up so many dreams so i could get this one thing, put so much happiness on the backburner, just fuckin

ground myself out and gave everything to the cause with the expectation and every day i have to keep TOILING

how the fuck is that fair

hard to hold a grudge for people stealing my only freedom when it means im holding a grudge for me not dying

like how do you explain that.... sorry lived when i was supposed to die? sorry im mad at you because you still needed me when i needed to escape?

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hard to hold a grudge for people stealing my only freedom when it means im holding a grudge for me not dying

like how do you explain that.... sorry lived when i was supposed to die? sorry im mad at you because you still needed me when i needed to escape?

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they never talk about it but when you live your whole life with the expectation that you get to die off as a good guy at thirty and then have to live to thirty one its so fucking........

god i wish i could just kill myself

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god i wish i could just kill myself

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im full of an untamable rage that constantly seethes beneath my skin but im a real laid back dude dont worry about that

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ughhhh

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You can really tell I was neglected as a child

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why am i constantly punching down to have a fuckin conversation that doesnt turn to someone trying to get in my pants or emotional sphere when ive already said not interested

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if they fuck up one more time im just going to scream and leave

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nobody says it anymore but, and i mean this truly, shut the fuck up

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like what god damn balls on you to talk to me like that, its my blog i can bitch and moan and whine and drag my ass on the ground as much as i want, dont speak to me like that

like wowww so cool old man and shit im oooold

im fucking 31 and youre stranger enough to not even reblog a post and put a comment on it youre not even brave enough to speak to me dont call me old man we arent friends

"whats wrong this time old man" can you shut the fuck up lmfao

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"whats wrong this time old man" can you shut the fuck up lmfao

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not btw

would ruin my image as a fuckin

unobservant asshole who doesnt have time to deal with a kid brother

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i should call him

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makes me sick sometimes, my poor little guy, sorry im a shit older brother, sorry you DO have to hold that shit against me for ten fucking minutes of my time sorry i steal the power from you by telling you to just post it man im busy

living together and hes blackmailing me to stay home so he can retain some power in this madly fucking imbalanced relationship we maintain and im smashing the scale and fucking with his head by just

not letting him do it

letting him know i know hes doing it

anyways

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like damn! this guy aint it fr

can you just emotionally manipulate me into staying home by levying divulging my private feelings and habits to the public?

its easier

this suuuuuucks

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like i can deal with not being what dirk wants me to be, ive basically been an idol image in his mind since he was 15 some untouchable craft that will idk

shatter if it gets too close if it cares too much

something he knew was wrong but took for granted anyways

but kind of sucks shit to do it twice

this suuuuuucks