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Note to self.

It will always get better. You will always feel better. Life is too short to overthink, to cry yourself to sleep and to overdramatize things that do not matter. IT WILL ALWAYS GET BETTER

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I feel like I am always the problem and the reason for why my friendships struggle

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Sometimes I don't really feel like I belong anywhere. I feel lost and alone more often than not.  I don't really have comfort anymore or anyone who loves me unconventionally besides my family. I feel very much alone all the time. I guess, I have to be just content with being on my own.

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Sage Advice

Sweet Sage Camila,

This one is for when you’re older. My mother used to say that her mother told her ‘love would come knocking on her door’ this is true ! Love will always find its way to you, even if at times it doesn’t feel that way!

Love,

Mama

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“Sage Advice”

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My Sweet Sage, 

Always smile, treat everyone with kindness. Trust that your love will always help you rise above, so high you’ll be flying. 

Love,

Mama

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“Sage Advice”

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My Sweet Sage, 

When heartbreak overcomes you. Pick yourself up off of the floor and lift your head up with pride.

Though your heart may be hurting, though you may feel powerless you are not. The battles of the heart come around every now and then to teach us how we can love harder and stronger than before. 

Think of this sadness as training for the big love that’s yet to arrive. 

Love, 

Mama

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I miss you more than anything in this world. They say that if you love someone you have to let them go and I think I finally understand what that means.

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It finally happened. I don't know if I will ever recover. I am tired of looking for the one or trying to sculpt the perfect partner. I am scared of everything he said. I am scared I will never be good enough, scared that no one will love me unconditionally. I am scared to be alone again.

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My heart is heavy.

I’m not sure if you understand what that means.

My heart is heavy.

The weight of my body and being are pulling me.

My heart is heavy.

With every breathe I lose the urge to breathe again.

My heart is heavy.

And with it my eyes are weary.

This is unfamiliar territory.

I am stuck between feeling happy and feeling worried.

In a constant query, I am alone and surely

I have no one because if I were I would not

Feel my heart heavy

But that’s the way it carries.

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Life is feeling a little more lively today

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I lost you. Somewhere in between it all.

I miss you. The person you used to be.

I can hardly recognize this version of you.

You hate me,

You have a hold on me,

You say the word and I come running.

You love me,

You push me away,

You say you want me and I run to you.

I still believe you are in there somewhere.

The person who used to love me.

The person who would never hurt me.

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You were supposed to be here with me

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I am afraid, 

I am so scared of the future, 

I am scared of dying, 

of being lonely, of falling, of failing. 

There is weight on my shoulders and I am drowning. 

I cry myself to sleep, yet its never deep, 

I wake with every breath I take, 

I am overwhelmed, stressed and depressed.