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I know damn well Andrew softens whenever Neil is around. He has that deadly blank aura on a regular basis, can threaten someone without a change of expression or even batting an eye. But when Neil is around, the tension leaves his shoulders, his eyes glare a little less, he moves with less sharp precision, almost gentle, the tiniest bit of softness overtaking every peice of him. Neil doesn't even have to do anything, simply being in the room is enough for that devilish edge to smooth over. He breaths easier, walks lighter, his whole world is a little calmer with just the presence of Neil Josten.

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The thing about aftg and Neil's sexuality is that it also touches on aphobia, which is cool (in the sense that aphobia is rarely touched on or discussed). Like they are very insistent that Neil must be gay because he doesn't like women, they don't believe him when he says he doesn't swing or they just don't believe in "not swinging" . They act like he is abnormal for not having attraction .

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When you just want to cuddle but u have to get up and play the stupid sports game bc the mafia or whatever🙄

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jerejean au where jean is a firefighter and jeremy is at seminary school

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Runs to show Andrew a bush of the juiciest strawberries he's ever grown🍓

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Did somebody say kevin

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me when i just wanted him to die. i was only alive because he made me promise to survive. if he died, who could hold me to that?

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thinking about kevin railing jean through the mattress. both in the same pro team, they lost the game that night — best way to deal with the frustration ? pure, unadulterated lust, snarling and gasping for air.

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yes, their close platonic relationship in canon is important to me specifically because it's both close and platonic

yes, I also ship them romantically, or as part of a romantic poly ship

I refuse to lock myself into a single interpretation of a fictional relationship when there's multiple interesting ways to view it. I can do both

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No listen I will not shut up about the scene where Neil asks why Andrew would want to go through withdrawal for a game he doesn’t even like and Matt responds with “Would you want to be crazy high every day of your life?" because it showcases the fact that, despite their differences and disagreements, Matt understands this part of Andrew.

Matt has experienced addiction and he has gone through withdrawal and relapsed and gone through it again. He spent a year on the girls’ couch because he didn’t know how else to avoid going back to the drugs he’d worked to get off of. Andrew can’t do that: his high is legally mandated, and any attempt to circumvent risks leading him to a worse position. So of course he takes this opportunity to do it in a place where there’s some degree of protection, because the other people around him have a vested interest in keeping it a secret. Of course he wants to come off the drugs any time he can, if only to remember what it feels like to just exist. Matt can understand that.

And this moment where Matt is able to explain Andrew to Neil is so telling in regard to Matt’s relationship with the cousins: they aren’t close, and Matt doesn’t have the ability that Neil has to act as glue between them and the upperclassmen, but he is bridging the gap between the two groups as well as he can, working with the cousins to offer a strong, unified back line. He’s not about to let go of everything they do that’s shitty, and he’s down to fight them if the situation calls for it, but he’s also not dismissing them outright or shutting them out.

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back on my autistic kevin day agenda

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i feel like neils first honest to god no fears left to haunt him nap was like 29 hours long and andrew checked his pulse to make sure he was still breathing

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First day of work today what if i died