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Is anyone else just monumentally dull in those first few minutes after waking up?

My alarm was just inches out of reach this morning, and I spent a good few seconds trying to turn it off with my mind and honestly thinking that it’d work

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Potentially hot take but one of the reasons we need art and music in schools is that, taught correctly, they are ideal avenues for teaching kids how to do something, kinda suck at it, keep going anyways and improve over time.

And THAT is one of the most valuable skill sets a human being can have. THAT is the skill set that unlocks soooooo many others.

A LOT of people I see with anxiety and depression do not have this skill set. To suck at something is a threat. Proof that they are doomed to suck at it forever. And then, often, that either THEY suck forever or the task must be stupid/useless/pointless (whence we get AI art fans who have decided actually making art is pointless and degrading the labor and skills of others is fine because these are useless skills).

Or you get the freeze- the inability to try things in case you fail. The sudden lancing shame and humiliation or hopelessness. The sense that anything you haven't learned by now you can't learn. Which is so heartbreaking and so untrue.

I just hate it.

"What if I write it and it's bad" "what if I draw it and it's bad" "what if I play it and it sounds bad" DOING IT BAD IS HOW YOU LEARN TO DO IT GOOD! You can't skip the process of leaning and the process is FUN if you let it be what it needs to be!

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Contrary to popular belief the biggest beginner's roadblock to art isn't even technical skill it's frustration tolerance, especially in the age of social media. It hurts and the frustration is endless but you must build the frustration tolerance equivalent to a roach's capacity to survive a nuclear explosion. That's how you build on the technical skill. Throw that "won't even start because I'm afraid it won't be perfect" shit out the window. Just do it. Just start. Good luck.

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alright. wow. i don't even care anymore lol. if there is a silver lining to the AI slop out there and the remakes and the sequels and the same tired "safe" concepts over and over it is that i just cannot care if i'm bad at art anymore. i don't care if i'm unpolished or messy or cringe or whatever. my art is my own, i made it with my stupid broken head and my stupid broken heart.

i'm going to be bad in protest. i'm going to be me in protest

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btw it is sexy and cool to uplift and admire people who have skills you wish you had without using their ability as a stick to beat yourself with. even and especially if you are jealous of them.

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"If a thing's worth doing, it's worth doing badly."

This has fundamentally changed how I view my work, whether that's writing, or cleaning or just taking care of myself. Thank you Granny Weatherwax

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btw it is sexy and cool to uplift and admire people who have skills you wish you had without using their ability as a stick to beat yourself with. even and especially if you are jealous of them.

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I don't want the things I make to be palatable or perfect anymore. If I really wanted that I could use gen ai. The inherent ugliness of whatever emotion and sincerity I pour into whatever I make is my act of rebellion

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It’s crazy how I’ve been looking for something to grasp on to my entire life and not found it. There is not one redeeming thing about me. I’m bad at being alive. I’m not a tortured artist or a secret genius, I am just a loser who is incapable of contributing to anything. I have no purpose and if I got a purpose, I’d probably give up on that too. I am so fucking stupid and lazy and unmotivated and full of nothing. Just nothing. It’s all gray in there.

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current mantra

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People often say to me: “You draw like some kind of inhuman machine.  If I eat your brain, will I gain your power?”  The answer is yes, but there is another way. The key to precise drawing is building up muscle memory so that your arm/hand/fingers do the things you want them to do when you want them to do them.  Teaching yourself to draw a straight line or to make sweet curves is just a matter of practice and there are some exercises you can do to help improve. If you’re going to be doodling in class or during meetings anyway, why not put that time to good use?

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joyfulsmolthings

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current mantra

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I love kids they’re all like.. “when i grow up i’m gonna be an astronaut and a chef and a doctor and an olympic swimmer” like that self confidence! That drive! That optimism! Where does it go