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When people ask, “How can I tell if someone is disabled or just lazy?” I think about my parents.

My parents have known me my whole life. When they’re not actively contemptuous of me, they do seem to be somewhat aware of my general personality and character. In one of his nicer moments, my dad has called me “sweet-natured.” They can tell that when I make them a surprise breakfast or lunch that I enjoy being helpful and doing nice things for people.

They know from watching me grow up that I have always had trouble keeping my room clean, getting homework done, and keeping my desk tidy at school.

The longest I can push myself past my limits is about nine months. Then I collapse and end up less functional than I was before I pushed myself. This has been a pattern throughout my middle and high school years. I would go to public school for about a year, and then collapse and have to do the rest of my education at home. My work history follows this pattern, too.

I once sat in a therapy session with my dad to talk about the constant struggle we were having at home because he wanted me to help out more and do better in school. When he asked me why I didn’t do things, I broke down in tears, because I couldn’t explain it. “I just CAN’T. I want to, and I CAN’T.” Nobody listened.

My mom asked me why I don’t do things, and I said, “I just can’t. I sit there for hours trying to convince myself to do things, and I can’t. Move.”

And she said, “Don’t think about it, just do it,” completely missing the point.

When I got older I found words for the things I was dealing with. I got professionally diagnosed, and I’d look up information about my diagnosis and e-mail articles to my parents explaining what my disability is and why I can’t do things.

My parents have firsthand information about my character (helpful, likes doing things for others) and my history with disability (can’t consistently keep things clean, can’t manage a daily schedule). I’ve talked to them extensively about my diagnosis and given them information about it. They have known me my whole life, and I’ve always been this way. And they still, STILL choose to believe I’m just a bad person who doesn’t try and doesn’t care.

My disability isn’t invisible, people refuse to look at it.

People like problems they can yell at. They like having a target for their frustration. They don’t want to admit disability is real, because they want problems that they can either solve, or blame someone else for. And the disabled person themself is  their scapegoat, someone who can’t ever opt out of their role because the disability is never going to go away.

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remember that sasuke figurine that could hold up like literally fricking anythign

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One thing I want but probably most likely won't get though I think would be really funny if it happened in Accomplice To The Villain is Evie and Trystan getting married mid battle or something just like Elizabeth Swann and Will Turner in Pirates of the "Caribbean: At World's End".

It's just so funny to imagine and 100% something they would so do.

Who would be Barbossa in this scenario? Probably Kingsley if he's human by that point. He is a prince so he should legally be allowed? And I do see him going "I'm a bit busy right now!" and "You may kiss- You may kiss- Just kiss!"

Edit: And before you say "Don't they need to date first", very bold of you actually to assume that Trystan wouldn't accidentally say "Marry me" instead of "Be with me" because his one singular braincell goes on time out whenever Evie and emotions are involved.

And bold of you to assume Evie wouldn't just go "WHAT?! You just skipped so many steps!! Actually no I'll take it while I can YES LET'S GET MARRIED!" while Trystan is trying to explain himself because who knows WHEN he'll manage to propose again and Evie is nothing but an opportunity grabber.

Meanwhile everyone else is fighting for their life and going "Congratulations guys we're all overjoyed BUT SERIOUSLY WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU TWO WHY ARE YOU BOTH LIKE THIS!?!?!"

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Reading the Assistant to the Villian series and a man panicking over his feelings for a girl will never not be funny-

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Something I made while dealing with my own stuff and hoping drawing this would pick me up somehow. Maybe it worked.

FT my cat. His name is Mischief

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consumed by thoughts of eliot spencer, small farm owner, minding his own business—both his actual modest bi-weekly market stall and keeping to himself—when a wild storm rolls in outta nowhere, careening his whole plan to peacefully live out his days alone buckass sideways when he discovers the 20 pounds of crazy in a 5 pound bag blonde sheltering in his barn—specifically the rafters, literally hanging from them like a god damn bat, the hell—at 2 in the freaking morning.

naturally, chaos and shenanigans ensue. all of which somehow leads to eliot saddled with parker, the thief-cum-farmhand he did not want or hire, who will not leave because his barn's loft and rooftop are so much more fun than a warehouse, and I love love love warehouses, don't you?! who insists on riding on the roof of his tractor, poking every bruise he gets—some that come from her poking—and keeps attempting to "be his alarm clock" (somehow sneaking into his bedroom to sit cross-legged on his bed crunching dry cereal).

when the next storm barrels through and brings another stray—a tech geek whiz kid with a smart car that ain't so smart after going 3 rounds with freak weather—at least it's to his doorstep this time, so eliot's slightly more prepared for handling a stranger in his space. progress.

what he's not prepared for, of course, is falling in love with them both.

update: nvm I had more thoughts y’all can read part 2 here and find the masterpost here

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It was a good week. Lots of driving but fun!

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So my friend and I went down the A Court of Thorns And Roses pipeline and started reading books again after years. We got to the point where we were reading Throne of Glass series and she told me that the next book we had to read was the assassin's blade.

I vaguely remembered having that on my bookshelf from my sister-in-law years ago. I don't remember how many years but years ago.

Apparently Ionly got about a third of the way through before giving up on the book. I'm now halfway through the book after trying again.

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I think my favorite shenanigan that the leverage gang pulls is when they discover that a mark has some entirely tangential fixation and they immediately latch on to the opportunity to nettle him in a devastatingly laser-targeted way. not even related to the con just for personal fulfillment.

like oh, you’ve spent weeks obsessing over what type of wood to use for your new house? whoopsies! looks like somebody just canceled your custom flooring order! gosh, how weird is that?

oh, you’re really attached to the moniker you use to strike fear in your victims & colleagues? hope you don’t mind if we get your associates to start mocking it for the entire episode and ensure it gets written down wrong in your FBI files.

you slap your name on every invention you steal because you’re obsessed with name recognition? well parker’s going to invent six new ways to mispronounce it and make sure everybody you speak to gets it wrong for the (very short) remainder of your career.

they truly are just psychologically tormenting people for the hell of it and I love that for them

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Flight Attendant: Please make sure all small items are secure!

Hardison: *grabs Eliot next to him and holds him tightly against his chest*

Hardison: Do you feel secure?

Eliot: I will hit you.

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i really like looking at google image searches for “firemen rescuing cats” or something because you get super cute pictures like

AND THEN THERE’S THIS ONE

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now 2 beanie baby dragons are crossing your dash together :3

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My dear lgbt+ kids, 

Let’s talk about miscarriages. 

First of all, a simple definition: A miscarriage is when a pregnancy ends on its own before the baby can grow enough to survive outside the womb. 

When we say “miscarriage”, we refer to the pregnancy spontaneously ending in the first 20 weeks (so up until halfway through a typical 40-week pregnancy). If it happens closer to birth (after 20 weeks of pregnancy), it’s referred to as a “stillbirth”. We will focus on miscarriages rather than stillbirth in this letter.

A pregnancy spontaneously ending in an early stage is more common than it happening closer to birth. Most miscarriages happen in the first 13 weeks.

A miscarriage usually involves vaginal bleeding. It can range from light spotting to heavy bleeding. It may also include the passing of tissue or blood clots. Abdominal pain or cramps may also be present. (This is why a miscarriage that occurs before the person is even aware they’re pregnant may be confused with a heavy period). 

However, some people may only experience the lessening of pregnancy symptoms (such as a sudden stop of morning sickness) that alerts them to the miscarriage. Some miscarriages also occur without any noticeable symptoms at all and may only be discovered at the next ultrasound. 

Let’s look at some myths and facts about miscarriages: 

Myth: Miscarriages are rare. 

Fact: About 10 to 20% of all known pregnancies end in miscarriage (and the “real” number is probably even higher, since many miscarriages happen before the person even knows they are pregnant). 

Myth: Miscarriages happen because you do something wrong or aren’t careful enough. 

Fact: Most miscarriages happen because of severe problems with the unborn baby’s DNA. These are usually random genetic glitches in the egg or sperm - meaning there’s nobody to “blame”. The baby wouldn’t have survived, no matter how careful the pregnant person is. 

Myth: When we talk about “medical treatment” for a miscarriage, we are talking about people who choose to have a miscarriage. 

Fact: Nobody chooses to have a miscarriage. It’s by its very definition the spontaneous ending of a pregnancy. A person may need to undergo medically necessary treatment because of a miscarriage. It may be necessary to remove tissue that remains in the uterus. This isn’t the trigger of the miscarriage, it is done after the pregnancy already naturally ended. It is done to prevent infection or stop heavy bleeding. This procedure is called a D & C (dilation and curettage) and it can be a lifesaver!

Myth: If you had a miscarriage, it’s a sign you deep down resented the baby. 

Fact: The most wanted pregnancy ever could end in miscarriage. People who tried  for years and finally got pregnant could experience a miscarriage. People who jumped through legal hurdles and spend a lot of money to be able to undergo sperm donation or IVF could experience a miscarriage. This is just a horrible and untrue thing to say about people who experience a potentially traumatic health event that’s entirely out of their control. 

Myth: It’s easy to get over a miscarriage. 

Fact: It’s a life-changing experience. It’s always emotionally challenging. There’s the aspect of the unexpected (and potentially scary) health event, and of course there’s also the aspect of a loss, of grief. It shouldn’t be surprising that, for most people, it’s not something they can easily shrug off. There are a lot of emotions that can come up - during, right after and also months or years after. There’s no time limit on when someone will be “over it”. In fact, they may never feel “over it”, just learn to live with it as part of their reality. 

Myth: If it was an unplanned pregnancy, the person should be relieved to have a miscarriage. 

Fact: There’s no “Should” in loss. Even if they didn’t want to be pregnant, they may still grieve. Even if they do feel some relief, it may be tinged with emotional pain, frustration, feelings of helplessness or guilt… And all of that is valid. Nobody but the person who experienced the miscarriage has a right to say how they feel about it. 

Myth: If you had a miscarriage, it means you’ll never be able to have biological children. 

Fact: Nearly 90% of people who miscarry will go on to have normal pregnancies and healthy babies! 

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Dad 

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“chuffed doesnt mean what you think it means”

it means exactly what i think it means its just some stupid word that literally has two definitions that mean the opposite thing

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If I had magic I would learn the weirdest spells to use and every time I use them and others ask how I did that I would just say: ✨with ✨magic!✨And everyone would be so annoyed by me.

Merlin on the other hand would say this absolutely unironically.

Like, weird shit happens and Merlin would use magic like a reflex. And other sorcerers would be like ??? How did you do that???

He would just look around about the effect his spell had and shrug and mumble: With magic? Because he absolutely doesn’t know how he did that and every sorcerer would be so annoyed.

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