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I got a tumblr, it really was quite great

I blog about a lot of things, but mostly what I ate.

I thought it was a sweet gig, it really was quite cushy.

Then they went and banned me, ‘cause all I ate was pussy.

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Warhammer 40,000 - Games Workshop (1987)

this scene is such a delight tbh

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Track of the Day; 7/1/17

Born Under Punches (The Heat Goes On) - Talking Heads, 1980

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ilcD1fHcGB0

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I don’t have much of an online presence. I’m thinking about just staying anonymous on places or starting fresh. 

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Post real life boss fights, I want to expand my folder of real life boss fights, I’ll start:

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2019 In Review

Oh wow I don’t post here anymore. Tumblr isn’t what it used to be. I’m not even into the NSFW stuff and even I know that this place is going to become a Geocity. Let’s post in planned-obsolesce. 2019 for me was a strong year. Not everything went well, but mental health-wise, I’m happier/more content than I have been. There’s a lot of reasons, but most of why I feel better is because I threw tremendous energy at self-improvement. I was not happy in 2017 and parts of 2018. In fact, I think I had a legitimate breakdown. This year, I went in with the goal to make changes. I chased after being healthy, looking inward, working on asking someone I liked out, and chasing the idea of “keep going up!” All of that ended up huge! On being healthy, I ended up losing 65 pounds. I hit my weight loss goal slower than most people, but who judging? I’m at a healthy weight and I’m going to stay there. On looking inwards, I realized I had a long-time crush and finally asked them out. They said yes! This is the first (dating) relationship I’ve ever had that didn’t feel performative or make me feel like I had to be a specific role. This relationship feels like the two of us can be ourselves. It is wonderful. And on continuing the goal of “Keep going up!” I ended up realizing how bad my self-perception was. Before this year, I had no confidence, no sense of self-assurance, and everything made me feel like a complete failure. I had hobbies that were extremely skill intensive. Or at least hobbies that are about pushing yourself or winning against others. Fighting games are this awesome genre that do things that few others do. Like the best ones are a dynamic mix of strategy, gut feeling, training, and self improvement. I however unhealthy engaged.  I took every loss personally. Not in a “insult the other player” sort of way, but in a “Wow, I lost. I’m a waste of air. I should of never played fighting games ever.” sort of thing. My mental health state was based on how good I was doing in game. When I was taking down stronger players, I was overjoyed, when I lost for any reason, I was down in the dumps. These days, when I lose, I don’t see myself as a failure, I see it as a loss. The other player was better. Regardless, I don’t play fighting games as much. Rev 2 lost it’s luster a long time ago, (and I never liked it that much to be honest, Xrd’s isn’t as cool as # Reload or Accent Core, Rev 2 was popular and there) and the other fighting games aren’t exciting to me. I put that drive to be a better fighting game player into a drive to make me not hate myself. There are days where it’s rough, but in general, the modern DotEater has enough confidence to be confident but not cocky. The modern DotEater knows himself well enough to be happy. Most importantly, the modern DotEater isn’t reliant on the validation of others or his performance in a demanding hobby to feel like he can justifiably exist.   2020 is going to be a stressful, scary year. I’m not going to deny that. But I like that I can face that fear after putting the past to rest.

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spills - Road Avenger (Data East - Sega CD - 1993)  

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SOUND-BOARD2 MUSIC-DISK Ver 9.0 [Mouryou Senki Madara] (PC-8801), 1991 Original: Atsushi Fujio, Katsuhiko Suzuki, Konami Kukeiha Club Arranger: Tetsukazu Nakanishi

What a great adventurey composition! I didn’t know Konami had it in them. This is an arrangement of one of the overworld themes from Mouryou Senki Madara, a Famicom RPG based on the manga of the same name. It is one of only three games to use Konami’s VRC6 chip for enhanced sound, the others being Akumajou Densetsu and Esper Dream II. The VRC6 and N163 seem almost synonymous with new Famicom music, but they were rarely heard when they were contemporary, and don’t really represent how the console as a whole sounds! I guess only having three melodic channels is considered stifling or too limiting these days. I totally understand that, but I also think that those limitations are part of the fun and challenge of making chip music. Composers back then didn’t have a choice. They had to make it work.

Mr. Nakanishi’s comments:

ファミコンなのに手を抜かないコナミって凄いと思います。 この曲もいいけど、戦闘の曲もいいですよ。

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Oh shit, I posted this on April fools. I am asexual, I just wasn’t paying attention to the dates when I posted this.

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Where I’m at 2018

Hi, it’s been awhile.  Here’s me in 2018. 1. I entered my local fighting game scene and won my first Guilty Gear tournament.  Oh hey this was fun. Our local community is pretty cool, and in the future I hope I can help people get into Guilty Gear, because hot dang, I love it and want to share that love with people. 2. A friend had a really bad “breakup” with me I won’t get into the details of this too much, but I overall, this might be for the better. They were the right friend for me at the right time, but over time I didn’t know how to communicate how I was feeling to this person, and that came back to haunt me. No malice from me, I wish them well.  3. I came out as asexual.  Surprising nobody, I’ve struggled with dating and actively chased away and tried to dispel anyone’s feelings towards me throughout my life.  I should have probably seen the signs growing up, like leaning away from kisses or closing my eyes during sex scenes in movies.  I truthfully didn’t know that asexuality was a thing until a writer I like tweeted about being asexual.  My parents don’t believe me, (not antagonistically, but more of a “you just haven’t found the right girl” way,) I haven’t told my brother, (although I expect he knows) and some of my friends on my discord server, know and accept me for it. One of my friends even gave me a d20 enamel pin that says “Neutral Ace” on it, which I love and put on my bag.  So yeah, I’m ace, and I’m moving forward. 

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📣 my friend is in danger of homelessness! please help!

my friend Grumpy Brian is still recovering from a broken leg that has left him unable to work. he cannot get any benefits from his employer and there is no government safety net he’s qualified to fall into. DHS, the unemployment office and charities have been useless. st vincent de paul shrugged at him and a local homelessness prevention charity still has him on a waiting list.

he will be evicted from his apartment if he doesn’t pay the rent by March 11th.

here are the full details from last month’s post. things are p. much the same except now it’s March and he’s sunk deeper into despair. america is a waking nightmare lol here’s the “yay we did it” post from last month. because we did this once. thank you again so much. really hoping we can keep my friend under an actual roof for another month. :(

donation page is >>>here<<<. you’ll be redirected to a page with a sketch request form after you donate.

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I’m actually writing again, because quality doesn’t mean success and I’m going to write what I want to write because it doesn’t matter how good it actually is because most popular things suck.  Cool.

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Sega Saturn Magazine #31, May 1998 - An awesome preview of Treasure’s Radiant Silvergun.

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As of Late

I’ve been finding it harder and harder to find motivation to write, but hey, I’m gonna start it up again with some “What games I’ve been playing lately”

Guilty Gear Xrd: Rev 2

Sol’s gonna win this trade, but dang it, it looks cool.  Not a surprise. It’s my go to fighting game right now because:

A. The PC scene is active

B. Ky Kiske is my favorite fighting game character to play. He’s both one of the fairest characters I’ve played (most of his attacks are telegraphed or straight-forward enough to play around) but when he gets a knockdown, he’s so dirty. He’s got all these tricky mixups that lead to another knockdown, leading to another mixup, which leads to a knockdown, which leads to another mixup which leads

Anyway!

Xrd is still great, retaining the balance Guilty Gear is known for, and some of the new characters are great additions like Answer, Ramlethal, and Bedman.

The problems pointed out by Mike Z in the first version are still here. (save for the UI/menu stuff and putting throw breaks back in, that got taken care of.)

Guild Wars 2

My character is a 4/4 angel with flying, vigilance, and a rock.

I decided to play Guild Wars not just because my friends were getting back into it, but because I wanted to get out of my comfort zone of “high skill competitive games only.”

I’m not the kind of player who likes open worlds or MMOs. But I think I found a way that made me like them a lot more, which was the act of having to look up stuff.

Any time I boot up this game, I make sure I open the offical wiki and a tab in google. It’s made things like leveling up my character’s progression, and finding secrets this kind of involved search.  

The game is so complex in scale and systems, so I have to make logic out of chaos. This is totally the appeal of competitive games as well. It isn’t “you can do anything” it’s “to do what you want, you have to figure out this.”

It’s been fun to dissect complexity. My friends and I usually share secrets with each other It’s a more involved part of the game, that I think “explaining” all this information would ruin. It reminds me of talking games on the playground.

I don’t think “playground rumors” of games went away, it just turned into an informational scavenger hunt instead. Puyo Puyo Tetris

I commissioned my friend SavvyDraws for this! It describes the mood of the game perfectly.

I bought a Switch! I thought I was done buying consoles because there aren’t a lot of new games I want to play anymore, (competitive games keep me busy) but after playing one with my brother I decided to pick it up

The Switch is what I what I want out of a game system, reminding me more of playing board games with my friends than a traditional game console. I love being able to bring it anywhere and break out Overcooked or King of Fighters ‘98. Passing out joycons is a neat ritual. Like dealing a hand of cards or giving everyone their starting pieces.

Puyo Puyo Tetris is the perfect game for it too, not just because Tetris or Puyo work great as “handheld” games, but because puzzle games are awesome to play with friends.

They’re not violent, they look easy to play at first glance, (clear lines, match four) and there’s a huge skill ceiling hiding behind the “simple” mechanics.

Tetris is the more powerful game vs Puyo Puyo (even with the Tetris nerfs, Tetris has tons of advantages.) but there’s a lot of cool formats that take advantage of the crossover concept.

Swap mode forces players to play both games, switching between the two, allowing players to manage attack and defense in a neat way.

Players made a doubles format where a team of a Puyo player and a Tetris player team up against another one. I’ve only played it once, and loved it.  

Even if those formats falter, there’s always Tetris vs Tetris (guideline) and Puyo Puyo vs Puyo Puyo. (Tsu)

I also want to give my praise to the artstyle. I think this game made me realize I like cutsy round monsters and happy colors. Puyo Puyo’s aesthetic is largely divorced from the modern anime look. The more of that I can get away from the happier I am.  

I think this is due to Puyo Puyo’s character design being rooted in late 80s early 90s manga style art.

On that note, I should also mention that I love what they did for the Tetris characters. I didn’t know I wanted Tetris characters, but I love them and want to see them again.

Instead of making them fit in with the fantasy setting of Puyo Puyo, they opted for a space theme, which is great because space and “building” is a huge part of Tetris’ aesthetic. Tetris is rooted in technology whereas Puyo Puyo is rooted in “magic.” The artists stayed stayed true to the resonant images of Tetris’ history.

So yeah, it’s great. Extra kudo bonus points goes to all the characters playing  the exact same, (in non-party modes) because that gets rid of my “I love how you look, but not how you play” crisis in fighting games I often have.

And that’s about it as of late. I’m gonna get working on a homebrew RPG for my friends catered around “I’m an adult who doesn’t have time to sit down for 8 hours a week to play a game.”

Take it easy.

Dot

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